in my heart, there is no place i rather be

Saturday, March 17, 2007

ahhh !!! i'm pissed ! i post a long post. an it all gone ! arghhh... well.. have to repost le):

anyway the pic is 17 years back de joey? hahas. cute? lols. maybe in the past that little fan looked interested to me (:

everything had gone back to normal. nothing changed. but joey still gonna stay strong no matter what. fight for what she wan. as time past by, god might lead joey to a perfect life she wan. (:

head down to expo today. went to get some stuff at metro expo sales. cause mummy gave me a 50 dollar metro voucher. nothing much to buy also. i saw zuo ping there. someone who use to work with me at expo 2 years back. hahas. he still working under byford. poor thing. lols. that in-charge alica always gave him so much stock. and saw my fav aunt from hush puppies. haha. she hug me and say why i no longer working at expo? guess she miss my joke. haha. michelle and her bf working there too. under my mum's company. chat awhile with her. my cousin mandy bought a stupid IQ board game. haha. she say is fun? i don't think so? lols. ate our late lunch at expo food court. and one stupid family took our place when we go buy food where our bag is there. -.-''' zzzz. nvm. we go find new sit. after expo we head down to suntec. mummy got a fair there. together with uncle chris de. grab a grey tank top from there. is under uncle chris de. then he don't wan to take my mum's money when she pay for it. she say nvm. so is FOC. hahas. walk around till 8+ then we took a bus home le. so tired. i slpt all the way to bt panjang. gonna go eat supper and wait for baby call le. end it here le. nights everyone !

i wish i could go back to the baby me.

Friday, March 16, 2007

it's true about love ~.

Have you ever loved only to let it go? Have you ever hated someone and loved him so? Have you ever missed someone so bad it made you cry? Have you ever seen someone left alone without knowing why? A love is easy to feel, so hard to explain; so easy to get, so hard to let go; so easy to spell, so hard to define...and yet everyone is still taking the risk. That's love! Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pain, but if you don't follow your heart; in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance. Why do people say loving too much makes you stupid? It's because you'll always be wrong even if you're right. You're weak even if you're strong. You give without receiving. You cry, get pains but still say you're happy. How would you know if you've fallen in love real hard? It's when someone hurts you and you love him still. Then he hurts you again to find out that you love him even more... It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for the one available. Best to wait for the one you love than the one who's around. Best to wait for the right one 'cause life's too short to be wasted on just someone. If you feel love, don't lose a grip on it, you'll never know the one you let go was the one you waited for all your life. There are some who catch our site and only few who touch our hearts. Look into your heart and pursue the person you love for it's better to risk than just let love pass by you.

There's nothing the end, it's begun
What can you do when it all drains

had a talk out with baby lst nights. both of us agree our distance getting further. honey mood period had past. we not longer what we are in the past. i remember he once told me he will change just for me after that last quarrel. but nah. never. but still i never say anything. i changed myself to what he wan. do what he say. why can't he just listen to me once? all the promises from him just gone. i don't why. but still i can understand him. i give him all i can. to let him feel safe, loved, cared and sweetness for me. but who gonna give me back all this? i don't know. he asked for a broke off last night. i totally don't agree with. called him and talk nicely to him. i bear al my tears over the phone. coz i know he hate it. after hanging up then i throw all my tears over. i jus can't bear with all the tears any longer.

he say he can't do what i wan. but i already don't ask for more from him. i don't even expect much from him. my heart bleed deeply after he told me that. he say we need a break where there a needs. but i don't find it a need. i still love him as much as the start. after so much i never give up on him. i really don't wish to see that day come that he give up on me. he told me he don't like to use hp. alright. i understand. and as a GF i now already don't mind he not contacting me for the whole day till he going to bed. can say that i missed him alot ! but still nothing i can do. he need to work and i understan. 20th months just past this way. i really hope we can get better and walk down a hard and path of or own for our whole life.

somehow my heart js bleed like this apple.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

when will all sadness gone from me?

i don't know why. i feel kinda sad. today is me and baby e 20th month anniversary. i send him a 3 sms long msg yesterday night to wish him. but he fall asleep and only left me a sms at 5am when he woke up. is jus a simply sms from him. and today was just like a normal day. msged him telling him i going to meet my mum tonight at OG orchard point to acc her buy some present for her friend then on the way bring her OG card for her. tonight 9-11pm they havin sales for all OG cards member. so she need the card. and though of passing stuff to baby before i meet my mum. he pissed off coz i going down to town to meet my mum where i still got my banking and fnance exam tml. i told him i had been studying last week and the whole afternoon today. i got confindance in it. but serious, i can tell he is angry with me. but i really got no choice that i have to go down to pass my mum the card. he don't reply me after that. which i'm hurts and sad. a human can't be studying non-stop isn't it? we need a break. if not it will sure cause to headache. hais. maybe he is thinking all for my good. i know. tears.

come n joey ! wake up ! where is the usual joey in this world?

i don't need others to care and love me ; to notice me ; to know what i'm thinking. but i serious need all this from you ! just you. onlyyou can cure my stressness. really no one esle.

20th months had passed. is this all true love? for me it is. if not i had leave you long ago. is really not easy being a GF or wife. i never fail to try. never fail to give up. everyone say i deserve someone better. but still i respond to all my friends, JOEY WONG ONLY LOVE YOU BABY ! i really do.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

stay with me tonight.

somehow i feel so lonely sometimes. i was home whole day with daddy. no one to talk too. only to daddy. i love the feeling being with him (: cause this week he on nights shift. so he will be home in the day to acc me in the day (: and monitor joey study. hahas. poor mummy, slpt alone in the night for this week. ha. had been study for my human resource paper today. *cross finger* tml paper will be easy. had not been hearing from baby the whole day. dunno where is he ): i missed him la. ))))): later after 12am gonna be me and baby de 20th months anniversary ! time really fly. but as time fly. i really hope i will be happy with him the whole of my life. get what i always wan and waiting for. i willing to love him all i can. (: end it here le. jia you joey for her paper tml !

i love my boyfriend.
i miss my boyfriend.
):
happy 20th months anniversary to you baby !!

Monday, March 12, 2007

joey is in deep shit !

didn't really have a nice sleep last night. i dunno why. woke up this mornin at 6am ! OMG. joey had not been waking up that early le. damn tired. slacked on my bed till 6.15 then i go for a bathe. prepare myself. had my breakfast. left my house at 7am. took a train down to red hill. and yeah ! i hate taking train early in the morning. damn super packed. reached exam center at red hill on at 8am. joey is early (: saw my friend joey *china girl* study abit with her then we enter the exam hall at 8.15am. business communication paper. is easy i shall say. paper ended at 10.30am. after that i went down to lucky plaza meet baby. had my lunch there. mugged for an hour there for my next paper at 3pm. business fun. a hard paper tot i shall say. my brain totally went empty after i enter the exam hall. i dunno why. i only completed my section A. section B i did all i can write it. after the exam, i saw a sms from baby. kinda suprise that he did wish me for my exam at 3pm. just a sms from him brighten up my day. called him straight after my paper. he sound sad cause i never did well. i'm sorry baby ): i will mug real hard if i gonna retake for this module. headed striaght home after that paper. reached home bathe and went to slp le. super tired. woke up at 8 and had my dinner. and here i'm blogging and watching tee bee. waiting for baby to call. end it here le. yepp ! tml no exam no work no school. gonna mug for my human resource paper le.

every night i just feel so emo.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

*i love my new logitech mouse ! thanks daddy (:

b0o !

joey is here to blog again. fast. 1 week of study break gonna end like this. tml gonna be my first paper on buisness commnication. today gonna study in human resource and busniess fun. not easy module. sigh*

yesterday got a great and tired day. 8am in the morning, mum drag me off from bed. say going over to aunt house at yishun. they having house warming today. ton and loads of people. everyone was like asking where's my loves one? ha. baby need to work. so never went down. stay there till around 8pm. took a train down to meet baby. suprise tat he wan me to meet him ar? asked me over to his place. so i went over and had dinner cooked by his sister. really happy to see him after a long week. enjoyed the night with him. having someone by your side is great. this morning woke up at 8am. waked baby up and he prepare off to work. then he gave me money to cabby home. reached home, straight to the bed i went. damn tired. slpt ill 2pm then wake up. had my lunch n here i'm blogging. gonna start my mugging le. stress time is here ! jia you joey !

joey should stay strong no matter what !

Friday, March 09, 2007

holding on tight always.

lalala.. at least joey finish study business communication and banking & finance. still gt business fun., accounting and human resource. god bless me. hopefully tml i can finish 2 moldues. then i will be save. woke up this morning at 12 noon. don't feel like waking up. but i forced myself too. cause i told myself must wake up to mug ! had dim sum for breakfast and some corn flakes. yum yum. after that watch kid central awhile then start my mugging le. a non-stop 3 hours of mugging for joey. kinda proud of myself. (: can stare the book for 3 hours. *cheers for joey* =D was suprised to see baby msg mi during my mugging. he asked me if i can go over his place to stay tml nights. i told him i got to ask my parents first. not sure if they let me back due to my exam. had my ba ku teh meggi mee for lunch. then watched my 5.30 show. ended at 6.30 ten i when for a bathe. then watched my 7pm channel u show. awww ! that guy so shuai. =x tml my aunt house yishun having house warming. gonna bring my books over to mug. well.... i'm waiting for baby to call now. i MISSED him loads !

I love the way he look at me.

I love the way he pamper me.

I love the way he stare ito my eyes.

I love the way he kisses me.

I love the way he hugs me.

I love the way he say he love me.

I love the way he sweet talk me.

I love the way he pat down smooth on my hair.

I love the way he pat me to bed.

I love the way he nag at me.

I love the way he is.

who is he?

Non other than cheng wee liang.

My Love.

Thursday, March 08, 2007

hurts ; pain all hidden in the emo kid hearts.

didn't get to blog yesterday. was at my aunt place yishun. went down there yesterday evening to find my god ma. i'm like needing her help badly in my accunting. thanks for her help (: at least i understand. my baby crystal as in bad state. her sickness was like never recover tot she discharged from hospital on chinese new year. poor thing. in the midden of the night she keep on crying. guess she gt problem breathing? due to her lung problem. she need those x-ma stuff.

had a tiff with baby last nights. due to i wanna meet him. 6 days w/o meeting him. i feel wired. the feeling is real bad. but he don't let mi down to his work place due to my up coming exam. but i really miss him loads. can he feel it? sigh. i tears. real badly. having fever last night too. nose blocked. real xin ku. but still i force myself to bed. asked myself not to think so much. he say he is stress whenever i say all tis. but i jus wanna see him as a GF ): maybe i'm at fault. i say sorry to him. asked him not to sound so pissed and angry. i'm real scared when i see him tis way. i know i had stress him up and he i tired after work. but i simply just miss him ):

woke up this morning at 10+? tot i will have a call from him around 9.30 as usual. but he never called. ): msged him no reply. meeted michelle at yishun late afternoon. passed her the sushi i bought for baby. asked her bring it town for my baby since she going down. *thanks alot girl for helping !* this is the only way i can do. cause he wont wan to see me appear at his work place. around 7+ when i on my way home. i'm suprised to see his calls. but he don't sound normal ): askedwhy this morning he never call me. he say never call then never call lo. sigh* hurts. but still nothing i can say. my heart are real soft.

i dunno why, he is the only guy which i'm scared to bring my attitude out to him. i dun have those courage at all. last time de joey is not this way. sob sob* is this true love? or jus one side love? does he know how much i love and miss him? but i really do ):

god ! please tell me what should i do. i'm real tired of life sometime. but still i hang on to whatever i had tightly. save me please !

*anyway good luck for my dearest michelle
appealing courses for her poly. hope she get the course she realy wants (:

i simply just need all your care and love.

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

nothing gonna be right.

i dunno why. i feel that loads of stuff is bothering me. exam, relationship, friends, family, work etc.. loads of thing came to me one sort. i HATE this feeling. can't god be more fair to everyone? sigh* am i someone no longer called JOEY? life is really a hard path to go tru. sometimes i don't even know what i'm thinking. yes ! i'm somoeone who hide my feeling in my heart. not even wrote it out. but jus told it to myself. i'm far to scare to bring it out to everyone. life isn't gonna be this way. always a happy joey on the outside. but deep tot inside who am i? but i told myself, life still gonna go on no matter how hard it is. i'm always trying my best to be the great GF, daughter and friends to ppl around me. seeing them happy sure gonna make me smile. just hopes that gods really gave me the right path. (:

well... just woke up not long. having my lunch now. meat porriage. cooked myself. yumm yumm =) was asked tis morning to work at vivo. but nah. i gt loads of stuff to mug for up coming exam. so i rejected. but i'm real BORED stucked myself at home all day ! the feeling is terrible. feeling so lonely. no one to talk or chat with. it really killing joey ! 5 mouldes to study. god bless joey.

i dunno why, i jus felt so emo and kind of sad after you told me that.

below are the news from channel news asia:

Tremors felt in Singapore after quake rocks Sumatra

Singapore's Meteorological Services Division said an earthquake measuring 6.6 on the Richter Scale struck Padang, Indonesia at about 11.50am on Tuesday.

The epicentre was 50 kilometres north-northeast of Padang, on the island of Sumatra in Indonesia and some 430 kilometres south-west of Singapore.

Tremors were also felt in many parts of Singapore.

Callers to the MediaCorp News Hotline said they felt tremors in areas such as Beach Road, Jalan Besar, Robinson Road, Shunfu and Toa Payoh.

Some buildings, like the Concourse at Beach Road, Capital Square and Centennial Tower in the city, and even Ngee Ann Polytechnic in Clementi, were evacuated.

Witnesses said several tall buildings in the central business district swayed slightly.

If you too felt the tremors and have any details, do call us on the news hotline at 68222268.

Monday, March 05, 2007

books make me feel sleepy ):

awww ! is killing me. really gonna kill me. had been studying my banking and finance just now. today is only the first day of exam break and joey is going crazy. i don't really understand it. sigh* maybe before my exam gonna go back school to look for teacher for some help ! joey needs it badly. just took a break and feel like blogging. i'm having my love letters wafer sticks with hot tea. yumm yumm. (: what is my baby doing now? had not been hearing from him today. sob. i miss him la. he don't let mi go find him coz he wanted me to mug at home. but i wanna see him ! ): think i better get back to my study. end it here.

i love those sweet sweet way of talks from you.
i love every single of your accompany.
jus wanna cling on to you forever !

Sunday, March 04, 2007

please guide me what should i do?

a new out look for my blogger. now is just like a less then 15 min job to change my blogskins? joey is getting smarter =) brother got charged in camp last week. sigh. he gonna be lock up for like 3 weeks? pity him. dunno what he done wrong in camp. kinda sad ar. no matter what he still my brother. mum gonna visit him next week with god dad. i die die oso wanna go ! some how i missed him. seeing the neat side of his room this few days some how not use to it le. hope he gonna stay strong and gonna be discharge soon. i some how drop a tears for him when my mum told him he gt charged. my mum is rather sad then i do. well... gonna make this quick blog then gonna start my mugging le. exam coming less then 10 days. i'm so so stress. dad wants a great performance from me. i really hope don't let him down. just a 2 weeks i gonna be free. gonna stay strong this 2 weeks. tonight going out with parents to have dinner at great world city. alright. end it here.

will you see the sadness side of me?

love is not about holding tight him/her.

love is not about losing trust in him/her.

but is about,

having your fullness trust in him/her.

whenever she/he is doing something,

there's always reason behind them.

love is about accepting each another.

be there for him/her when they need you.

share a tears with him/her.

feel the sadness and happiness in them.

bringing much joy to them.

kept those promise that you gave.

holding their hand till the end.

my love life is totally contented with my baby around (:

Friday, March 02, 2007

time is not the best medicine to heal everything.

dunno why. joey seem so lonelyness. worries all in me. friday is a day where all teenages enjoy their time out there. but joey is at home rotting. i no longer have what call friends. everyday i got no one to talk too. share my problems with. baby is busy with work. he is earning for all his aims. really don't wish to disturb him and let him feel worry about me. sometimes i really hope there some times for mi to have ladies talk and fun. but... nah. joey don't dare to ask for more. life really had changed. every single thing of me.

seeing the moody you, feeling worse the me.

Monday, February 26, 2007

oh yeah ! my lappy is here. (: compaq presario V3000. widescreen de. love it. hehex. gonna transfer all my song here le. i just checked my gucci shoes price with my friend. gosh ! is $690. damn damn ex. don't think i got a chance to have the shoes. sigh ): but i really love it. hais. well... slacked at home whole day to study, watch tv. nothing much. having a bad dirrohea since ytd. dunno wat wrong with my stupid stomach. hate the pain. rest more then enough at home today. sleep till headache. i MISSED my baby so much. had been thinking alot recently. i really love him loads. everyone saying why i'm a nice GF? why am i dumb. but no ! love is dumb. yes. i love him. i don't mind doing anything just for him which guys out there wont have the chance to taste it from joey no other then my baby. classes start at 3pm tml. yepp. gonna meet my baby ! end it here.

hidden you deep in my heart. locked it with a key.

Saturday, February 24, 2007

oh yeah ! tis is the gucci shoes i longing for. looking for it so long le. and i found it online. dunno ho much is it. but sure gonna be super ex ! but i love it so much. dunno when then i can get it. ):

welll.. this 2 days baby treated mi kinda cold. i dunno why. i dunno what he thinking even. i dun get the chance to really go and chat with him. i'm waiting for him to contact me today the whole day. but none. till i called him jus now. he say he is outside with friends eating. then ok lo. i asked him reached him ring mi up. but till now i still waiting for his calls. i miss him real much. staring at my phone whole day today when i at my grand ma house. i dun even haf the mood to gamble with my cousins. hais. maybe i'm in wrong somewhere which he notice. i dun know. if i'm, i'm sorry ! whenever i miss him, i only can msg him. read at those msg he send me in the past. i know he need to work. i really don't wish to stress him n let him worry about mi. i treasure him real much. i really hope he can reply my msg when i msg him. onli his msg can brighten up my day. a msg from him is when the smile on me.

i can lost everything in me.
my freedom.
my life.
but i just can't lost you in me.

i simply need you to tell me how you want me to show all my love to you?
to let you feel that i'm yours for life.
to let you feel safe and secure.
pls tell me how.
i really wanna do it just for you.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

it had been a week since i last blogged. i'm real far too tired to blog. don't think there's someone will view joey blog ya? ):

first day of CNY : was home the whole day. dad side relative n grand ma all came over. gamble.

second day of CNY : went over to mum side de aunt place. after tat we went over to mum's brother house. which was my cousin benson house. i saw him onli once a year ! lols. now botak him. haha. ns. he celebrate his birthday that day too. (: around evening i went to JB to meet baby. he came out n fetch me to his malaysia house. visited his family then went over his ah ma house to gamle and put fireworks till late night. fun fun. i enjoyed their CNY there.

third day of CNY : woke up in the afternoon then we went over to baby ah ma house again. gamble awhile then his cousin fetch us to take cabby back to singapore. reached singapore we went straight to my dad side uncle house at jurong then after that went back to my place.

fourth day of CNY : baby slpt till 3+pm ! gosh. then had lunch and prepare to go over my aunt place at yishun. everyone wanted to see baby. lols. we reached there ard 7pm. had our dinner then we go off le.

nothing much about CNY. every year just the same. but this year got my baby with me. is more then enough. working at 3pm at novena sq later. tired tired tired.

*i'm sorry if you got pissed off smetimes jus because of me. but still i hopeu understand how i feel. whatever i had done is all just for you. listen to me wont you? hais. i just hoping for.*

Thursday, February 15, 2007

time for blogging le. after blog gonna go watch teebee le. i'm so TIRED ! well... how's my valentine last night? meeted baby after his work at 9pm. and guess wat? he bought flower full of 3 dif colour rose for me which he ask the flower shop gal to design like he say. so nice. i'm so touched la. and guess wat? my mum say he waste money buying flower for me. ha.after he knock off we went to wisma. wanted to buy a top from esprit. but i can't found it at wisma. so forget it. we planned to book a hotel to stay over night. and you know wat? all fully booked. so in the end we decided to go home. wanted to take a cabby back to his place. we called all taxi hot liine. all busy. then no choice. we took a train back. so damn tired ! both of us slept all he way back to his home. lols. reached his place ard 11+ le. cooked meggi mee for myself and him as supper. after tat i went for a bathe then we slpt around 1+am. damn tired.

nothing much today. and yes, i'm damn double TIRED ! gosh. ):

valentine's day gift from baby (:

self made cookie from me to baby (:

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

sadness

disapointment

deeplyhurt

tears

Far away, I can feel your beating heart,

I'm trying hard to find my place with you.

I've been carrying your heart in mine,

Hoping that one day you come to realise it.

All I ask is a little more time,

So that I get to catch another glimsp of you.

That beautiful smile of yours.

Melts the very soul of mine.

Let a greater thing happen.

Let our love catch like fire.

Let every little bits of us turn into a beautiful love.

Will you?

truckloads of loves.

Monday, February 12, 2007

sometimes i wondering. will i be disturbing you if i keep on msging you? i afriad there's no reply from you. scared you are busy. but just a text for you means alot to me. yeah. i missing you. always. wanting to see you everyday. i really hope i can. every night i just feel so emo. thinking about you in silent is all i can do? looking at my hp just hoping something sweet from you to brighten up my day. my heart beating faster whenever i saw you. maybe my heart just falling too fast just for you. please tell me if you are thinking of anything. i really wanna share all ur problems.

as usual, i went for class today. a boring day in class. computer. i finish all the assignment that teacher wanna do in class. surfing net for tat 3 hours in class. my classmate was like saying. hey joey ! u come lesson 3 hours just to surf net? lols. of cause not. to show teacher my FACE (: after class i head down to jurong. had my dinner then i went to my teakwondo training place to pass money to my sir. which i own him for months. he keep on asking me to go back to teach my junior. i really hope to go back if i can. really don't wish to waste my 11 years just like that. watied there for my daddy to fetch me at 9.40pm. then we head down to vivo city to fetch mummy. home after that. i'm tired. far to tired.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

joey is BORED ! real bored. a nice sunny sunday joey is at home rotting. done all my study and assignment. i even done more then what teacher wan. smart joey (: my daddy is doing sring cleaning for my room. he washed my air con and cleaning my window for me. so nice of him right? (: i want to go out !! but no ppl acc, no where to go. is bored staying at home with nothing to do. worse come to worse i don't play games. hais. baby called me just now, had a tiff wif him. sigh. don't know why he is always thinking that i'm lying to him which i don't. i had been more then true to him. but.... still i can't make him have that trust in me. once n once again, i never give up.

hey come on ! this is not the normal joey. this joey no longer the wild, outgoing and happy joey out there. is simply just a emo joey. sigh. life is like a compeition to me. i never fail to try things out. fall once i stand up again. who gonna understand how i feel? who gonna bring back that smile on me? i don't know.

life isn't a easy path to go.

joey don't even know what she wan.

every path just seem so hard for her.

who gonna guide her tru?

she seem so failure in everything she does.

a happy her on the outside.

but no one knows how she feel deep inside.

youth life isn't this way.

sigh.

Friday, February 09, 2007

holding you till the end of the time.

as usual. woke up late ! haha. always overslept. pressed the alarm clock and when back to sleep. think i must try to sleep everyday before 10pm. my eye ring are getting black ! oh dear. went fo classes. reached just nice at 1.30pm. mr bala lesson. accounting. he is smelly ! eee...! the way he teach is like got a person holding a gun behind his back? damn damn fast. if never listen clearly really caught nothing. oh yeah. he given us a worksheet of 8 qns. have to complete 2 before we leave the class. and smart joey complete 7 of the qns. (: is on bank reconilition today. kinda easy. use to learn that from ITE. after class, i went straight to baby house. he is off today. reached his house acc him playing game till my show start at 7pm. nice show (: yepp ! i'm staying over at baby house tonight. my cough is bad. real real bad. hais. my throat is damn pain no matter how much of water i drank. now waiting for my "BF" priscilla to reach home. so that there's someone to chat wih me online ! V day is coming ! next week. and yeah. joey gonna go to school as usual and meeted baby after his work if he want (: hope gonna be a nice V day for me. it's end here tonight. nights.

bring me closest each time to your arm when i'm with you.

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

go away from me ! i hate you.

i'm sick still so so sick. my throat had become worse. drinking so so much water every moment. hopig my throat gonna be fine. it cause me to headache. alot of flame just stuck deep inside my throat. i just feel so uneasy. went over for CNY dinner just now at aunt place. everyone was there. nice dinner tot. everyone was like wondering where's my baby? i was like saying working? then they ask mi why baby always not here with me when there's family gathering? my baby is a BIG busy man (: then they ask me to bring him home on the first day of CNY. but baby need to go back to malaysia. sad ): i really hope i can go back with him on the 3rd day of CNY. my bro just went for a operation today for his wisdom tooth. poor thing. his mouth is aching like hell now. dad just informed joey to look after him tml before going to school !
*ohya ! my knee gt a big blue black. all my cousin fault ! make mi knock onto the table so hard just now ):

i never let you, if you promise not to fade away.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

i wont wanna die alone without you here with me.

i can't sleep. really can't. the whole night keep me awake. due to my sort throat, bad cough and flu. i can't even breath. woke up at 11+am. feel like vomitting. the feeling is real bad ! hate it.got myself prepare for school at 12+ noon. went down to lucky plaza to had y lunch as usual. after that meet baby. yeah ! love meeting him. seeing that smile on his face. it sure gonna brighten up my day (: oh ya ! baby please remember, 10 mins not gonna be enough for the both of us :D love ya so much ! that picture tat i attach is baby wearing his new gucci spec. handsome? lols. he think he is. haha. after class i head down to IKEA. got some stuff for valentine day. is next wed. one week more. i'm looking forward for it (:

OH NO !!!!

MY VOICE ARE GONE !!! ):

Monday, February 05, 2007

every second i spend waiting, drags me closer to this grave.
i'm not alone with you around.

i'm still so sick ! sobs. really hate this feeling manx. how i wish i'm a rea working adult now. so ca get married with baby soon. working hard together for our furture with no worries. i really love him to the core ! and he is the first and only guy my dad like? my mum really love him la. ha. woke up at 11+am today. get myself prepare and went down to lucky plaza to had my lunch. then go find baby. he bought mi panadol. i'm having bad headache that moment. slacked with him till around 2.45pm then i took a bus to my school. new module today. office application. fun fun. i all about typing today. MS words. i love typing documents. ha. lesson ended at 6 then i took a bus home le. body still feeling weak and warm. not fully cover from my sickness. reached home watched tv. had my dinner with family around 9pm. now gonna do my MS words homework. typing time ! i missed baby badly :(

i love the feeling having you by my side (:

gonna make a quick blog then wait for baby to call. woke up this morning at 8+am. to follow parents and relative to pray ah gong. went down to grand ma house for breakfast first then we head down to bt timah for praying. after prayig ard noon went back to grand ma house for lunch. eat le then mum went off to went. mi n my dad headed home. took a nap and pack my room. CNY is coming (: went down with dad to chinatown. meet mum there. shop around then baby joined us for dinner. but he nv eat ): coz he say he eaten le. after dinner then we go shop ard. till ard 10pm then we headed home le. tired tired. my fever is back ! had a bad fever last night. now still feeling so weak. yepp. i had a great time wif baby n my family just now. so so happy ! my dad love him. lols. he is the first guy that my dad love. (: oh ya ! baby bought a gucci white spec. jus wanna wear it for fun. he looked abit funny in it. guess i'm not use to it seeing him wear spec. ha.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

i NEED to see baby badly !!!

i MISSED him !!!

Thursday, February 01, 2007

your smile make me smile (:

woke up at 11 this morning. i'm late ! get a quick bathe then rush down to woodlands le. crystal school. need to fetch her from school at 12 noon. just in time. reached her school at 11.58am. ha. fetch her le then bring her go coffee shop eat then brought her back to my house. brought her to a hair cut under my block as order from her granny. cause dunno why her granny or parents bring her fo hair cut she does no want it. slacking at my house watching teebee. played some kids online game. like ABC? lols. around evening brought her downstair to playground. she enjoyed i guess. had our dinner at home. mum's cook. nice nice. then her grand-parents came to fetch her at 8pm. had a tired and bus day with my little crystal. but a 2 years old kids like her is damn smart ! (: simply just love kids so so much. didn't hear from baby today. don't know what he doing. sigh*

i miss him ! yes i do. ):

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

have a wonderful weekend filled with razorblade kisses and heartagram hugs !

back to blogging. had not been blogging for a week le. feb is here. fast. while, last sat went back to baby malaysia house with him. cause he going back to learn his driving. had loads of fun with him that 3 days. and his parents was like so nice to mi (: we even when out with baby malaysia friend. he was like so friendly (: we went to sea side to watch soccer match and eat seafood on the second night. enjoying myself. came back to singapore on monday afternoon. we looked damn tired. but we head down to town striaght away. lols. cause baby wanna buy new year clothes. baby bought mi a FLMP imp top and rip-curl top. nice nice. shop till around 8+pm we took a bus back to my house. had dinner at my house downstair. after that he send mi off then he go home le.

ytd went back to school. nothing much. last lesson on human resource le. wont be seeing mr admin again le i guess ): he is a great teacher i shall say. work at novena striaght away after class. mum and dad send me home after that.

today as usual. school. after class went to work at vivo. boring day. no customers. vivo crowd had reduces alot. real much. starting tml adidas stalla item is on 30%. great buy for stalla lover. (: now waitin for baby to call then go sleep le. wee ~ tml gt no class. new module starting on monday ! office application. must be fun (:

my baby ! (: love him !!

Thursday, January 25, 2007

hais. my com now is just like a pace to do my blogging. nothing esle. woke up as usual today. i as damn tired till dun feel like going to school. but got no choice. still gonna wake up. reached class on time. human resource today. nth much. jus doing some past year exam paper. after class when to help mum pay bill then i when straight to find baby le. had my lunch there then leave there ard 2.45pm for my work. almost late for work. not much customer today. had been stone-ing till 9.30pm. went home straight alone after tat. tml my shift changed. working 1pm at suntec. hopefully tml time fly ! has.

pain pain pain. the pain is killing me always.

*sigh. suddenly i missed teakwondo so so much. i really hpe i can go back to training. my interest from young. realli don't wish to gib it up after so much effort.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

kiss me and tell me is not BROKEN.

woke up at 10am today. cause lesson only start at 1pm. (: woke up prepare then leave hs at 11.15am. took the jelly i make down for baby to eat. dunno he got finish ma. =x acc baby went ard to look for his street soccer shoes. can't find the wan he wan. then 12.50pm le. i need to take bus down to my class le. if not mr bala gonna lock the door. but guess what? mr bala was late for 10 min. once he enter the class i told him, "mr bala, you are late. i'm just about to lock the door." ha. then he just smile and say sorry. lols. he is crazy today. gave us around 10 qns to do for homework. freak right. lucky all is entries journal. learned in ITE le. after lesson end le then i go home striaght. so good girl right? xueli came my hs to do something for hi boyfriend just now. all JOEY idea !! and somemore is i do for her de. not fair ! lols. well... now waiting for baby to call. dunno what time he will reach home. he went for company dinner. sigh* tml working at novena sq. 3-9.30pm. friday at vivo. 2-10.30pm. god bless me.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

i'm still a kid no matter what.

well... as usual. went to school. nth much. i was almost late. god blessed. ytd the hairdresser was saying not to wash my hair till after 3 days? FREAK ! i can't stand it. lols. went to wash it tis morning before i when to school. after school when to meet baby. so hapy to him. the smile on hi face is more then enough or mi. tot last night nothing good happen. but is all over. is time for joey to grow up !!!! wake up joey ! passed baby the gift i did for him the up coming valentine and our anni. don't wan to keep so long with me. since i got it done then i passed to him lo. hope he like it. reached home at 5+pm. ate something and waitin for snow to come over my place to do jelly ! ha. out come not bad. mum say is nice =) tml gonna bring for baby to try. hahas. well... dunno where my baby go. now waitin for his call.

i MISSED him !!!!

Monday, January 22, 2007

I NEED SOMEONE TO BRING ME TO THE SEA TO SHOUT OUT LOUD !!!

i'm stress. real real stress. too exhausted of everything around me.

oh yeah, just reborned my hair today. i find it damn funny. far to flat. maybe is like tis at the start.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Trapped In That Dark Bottomless Pit.

gosh ! i'm super shit tired. leg are like super soft? got a hard time reaching home jus now manx. far too tired. well... had my first accounting lesson today. mr bala. haha ! he is an indian. damn smelly !!! gosh. suprisely joey reached class at 10 sharp today. mr bala locked the door at 10.10am. no lateness he say. ha ! just love doing accounting. fun fun. after school rush all the way to harbour front. vivo city. had a quick lunch then went to start work le. freaking bored at work today. no customer ! gosh. but joey sales stil nt bad (: after work rush home straight. too tired le. time to sleep ! end it tonight.

can anyone tell me what to do? maybe in his mind joey still the past joey? the want that go around to flirt? NO ! i'm no longer. sigh* everytime he don't believe in me, i feel so hurts. right deep inside my heart. can he just touch and feel it? my heart started to bleed. sigh*

Thursday, January 18, 2007

give me all your heart.

reached class on time today. pocky and fresh milk don't seem to keep me awake in class. keep yawning. but still mr.admin class keep us awake. nth much in class today. after class went to eat with my classmate joey, china gal. after that went to find baby and tis happen to me >>

he bited me ! lols. but nvm. i got to bite him back =) baby acc mi to wait for bus. 3 bus 700 passed by. i didn't aboard. has. jus wanna spend more time with baby before he go back to work. hopefully next week can go back malaysia with him. but got a deep feeling parents don't let =( *o ya ! dad say i'm getting my lptop by next week. whoho ! so happy.

joey and joey =D

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

as sun shine into me. is just like you in me.

as usual alarm clock rang at 8 then 8.30am. woke up. prepare to bathe le. then received call from BMC ; my school. saying that today class cancel. i'm damn HAPPY ! ha. coz i get to slp longer. woke up at 12+ noon. coz i'm hungry.walked out from my room, saw bro and his sir at my doorstep. my heart beat starting to get faster. well... i don't think i gonna say it out le. just hope my bro gonna be fine? ate my lunch. watched like an hour tv. and there goes my mugging time. mug mug mug. went over grand ma place at 7+. reached home watched tv and here i'm online blogging. think i going off to my bed striaght aftr this. gonna sleep early le. my black eye ring are coming out ! oh dear. that's bad. ): alright. another day at school tml. gonna sleep le. nights everyone !

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Everything doesnt seem to be going my way anymore.

i'm home, from school. woke up at 8.45pm today. kinda early. prepared and off to school. reached school in time. lesson started. after class when down to chinatown to pass mum stuff and had my lunch there. then i travel all the way back to orchard. to lucky plaza mac. mugging all alone. after an hour +. my butt started to get hurts. so i walked to baby shop to find him. he's eating. tot of waiting for him to finish eating then go home. cause my dad called me ask me to be home early. exam are coming up. but who's know, the boss walked in. so i told baby i go home first. in order not to let him get scolded. but he sound pissed off. maybe he tot i don't wanna wait for him to finish his meal. while, i'm not ! i missed him so badly each day. my heart bleed whenever i think of him. just like what my friend say. maybe we gals really need a pad for our heart so that it will then stop those bleeding. i just miss everything from him. if not i wont be like go all the way to find him everyday. my dad gonna put me in a diffcult life. he planned to ask mi to go god ma place everyday after school. just like wat i did in sec sch. god ma then will teach and tuitor me. i don't wan ! everyone does not understand how i feel. i'm still like a kid to them? sigh*

emo joey going tru emo life. save her please !

The symptoms of a "broken heart" can manifest themselves through psychological pain but for many the effect is physical. Although the experience is regarded commonly as indescribable, the following is a list of common symptoms that occur and which may last for indefinite periods of time:

A perceived tightness of the chest, similar to an anxiety attack
Stomache ache and/or loss of appetite (experienced)
Partial or complete insomnia (experienced)
Nostalgia (experienced)
Feelings of hopelessness (experienced)
Loss of self-respect (experienced)
Suicidal thoughts (in extreme cases) (experienced)

found this symptoms online. read it everyone. i think is true.

Monday, January 15, 2007

For i long for eternity with you. Not turning my back against you again. Nothing's gonna happen between us again i promise. It just made us stronger.

had not been blogging for a day. nth much happens ytd. is me and baby 18th months anni. but it just seem like an normal day to me. he got to work. and gone to play soccer with his friends after work as he promised. nth i could say. had nt been spending anni with him for 3 months le. maybe monthly anni no longer impt? but i don't think so. it still as impt to me ! the night before priscilla came over to my place for a night. had a nice chatting night wif her. that's the only night i don't feel emo non lonely. with her ard. my night just seem to be having jut a smile on my face. (: thanks gal for acc me.

today i woke up only at 12 noon. cold weather. just so nice to stick on to my bed. woke up ad had my lunch. dad was still sleeping. cause poor him having night shift this week. so i helped mum to wash clothes after my meal. changed my own bedsheet. sweeped my room. watched tv awhile and mugging time start. it's never to early to start my mugging now. exam is coming up on the 12 march. had my dinner wif dad around 6pm. bought it downstair for him. the food downstair just so sucky ! dad feels that too. he when off to work at 7pm. i took a bathe. apply med to my face. and here i'm blogging. i'm just so BORED ! but still i gonna continue mugging. sob sob* ): baby had not been msging or call mi today. i dunno why. called him but he never answer. guess he is busy. hais. were he know what happen to me at home? maybe, maybe not.

whymylifejustseemsoempty?
ifeelsonumb.
imu.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

day turns to light. night turns to dark. sun turns to rain.

woke up at 9am this morning. told myself not to drag on bd anymore. if not i gonna be late ! reachd school abit late. due to the stupid rain ! HATE raining manx. after class went over to meet baby. then wait for him to serve a customer then he send mi off to MRT at 2.20pm. got my hug n kisses from him then went to work t novena le. i love to start work at 3pm. time past fast. (: today i was in store doing stock. seriously, i rather stay in store do stock. saw a billabong dress in surf n turf during my break time. is nice! feelin like buying it. $59.90. worth it? should ask baby come wif my somedays. but when? sigh* ended work at 9.40pm. dad and mum fetched me home. so nice (: we took a long time to reach home. traffice jam like hell. till i fall aslp on the car. reached home nearly 11. ate my dinner wif mum n dad. watched teebee. had a bathe. n here i'm waitin for baby to call. oh ya, i want to reborn my hair !! my hair looked bad now. ):

i'mtired. so tired of everything around me.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

i'll do anything for a smile, holding you till our time is done

as usual. alarm clock rang 2 times. off it and i went back to sleep. baby called mi at 9.30am. oh dear ! i'm LATE ! quickly get up and prepare to school. went to find baby after that. need baby to help my mum frenz transfer game to the PSP. think baby kanna pissed off doing that. while waitin for the transfer to be done. i was mugging alone at mac. nothing much to mug. i'm so lonely and bored at mac. was raining damn damn heavily after everything was done. thanks baby for giving me an umbrelle. wanted to go down chinatown to pick up something from mum then bring it over to aunt place. but the rain is far too heavily. called mum told her i go home instead. got scolded by her. well... who cares. i'm use to it i think. took a train home. reached home bathe, watched tee bee. whole house just so quiet. i felt so damn lonely. finally baby called me after his work. after dinner tee bee again. and here i'm blogging. tml got to work at noevna sq from 3-9.30pm. i NEED money ! i'm broke ):

life just seems so so simply to me. everyday had become a routine to me.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

alarm clock rang at 8am, 8.30am and finally at 9am. drag myself off from bed. prepare and went to school. so damn tired. dunno why i seem to have sleepless nights now of days. reache class n time. teacher was saying how's was my night with y boyfriend on his birthday? my first reply was like, how you know? guess must be my besties patricial told him. coz he is teaching pat at TM BMC. (: next reply to him was GREAT ! =) once lesson ended, me n joey *my china classmate* went down to lucky plaza mac to mug. all the way till 3pm. my butt was like telling me is time to leave. it hurts (: joey left and i went to find my boyfriend. happy to see him ! head back home at ard 4pm. fall aslp on the bus. ha ! reached home, do some housework then acc mum to plaza. exam are coming real soon after chinese new year. jia you joey ! :D

this happen half-way tru mugging. ha !

oh ya ! it had been long time since i went for a great shopping. i MISSED shopping. hais. when my boyfriend gonna bring me for a shopping? hope to have a 2007 new look. should i go reborn my hair? should ask my boyfriend (: hairdresser say i can't perm ! it gonna look funny and my hair gonna be worse to worse DRYNESS ! sob* ):

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

ha ! this is the birthday gift for baby. i paint it myself ! is a limited one and only tee for him. don't even know he will wear it ma. but really hope i can see him wearing one day. had a night at his place last night.his sisterbought him a ice cream cake from swensen. nice nice. woke up tis moring prepare and e off to work and mi off to school. after school reached home doze off le. tired ! coz last night never sleep really well. baby took away all the blanket ! hahas. coz the air-con are way too cold. but both of us are lazy to wake up to off it. slept all the way till 6+pm. woke up and went over plaza to buy dinner back. bored at home. tv tv tv ! exam are round the corner. time to mug le. sorry to my GIRLFRIENDS i reject you all for going out.

i MISSED SENTOSA ! ):

if i can, i wanna dig all the guys eye OUT !!!

Sunday, January 07, 2007

just want you to know how much i love you, baby.

wee~ another 30 min gonna be baby birthday le. 20 years old le. ha. guess this is the second birthday i spending with him. (: well.. woke up by xueli call today. damn her ! i'm tired. cleaned my room today. then went over to grand ma house awhile at 3+pm to visit her. reached IMM at 4+pm. so many people. ate at fish &co. for dinner with parents. nice nice. shop shop shop. nth caught my eyes today. mum say i'm a good gal today. never bought anything. ha ! left giant with loads of big bags. jus had a bathe. waiting for baby to call now. i miss him loads ! gonna had a great night with him tml. LOVE*

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY BABY !!

Saturday, January 06, 2007

mrCHENG ; myBOYFRIEND !

joeyMISSEDyoubadly !

Friday, January 05, 2007

i'm fully into you, baby.

sometimes i was wondering, i blog. but who gonna read or comment about it? hai. will he be the one? i dunno. he seem no longer read it. ):

alarm clock rang at 8 and 8.30am. same thing happen. i off it and went back to sleep. i'm like down with fever? head hurts me loads ! woke up and look at my clock. FREAK ! is 9.10am le. quickly drag myself off from bed to bathe. reached school at 10.40am. tot i'm late. but i'm NOT (: i'm lucky ! ha. lesson was fun today. teacher keep on joke. meeted baby today. he is pissed off. due to he tot guys call or msg me. but in fact, i was on the fone wif priscilla. he kept in silent when i'm in his shop. drag him to send mi off to MRT. talked nicely to him, saw tears in his eyes. tears from him really mean alot to me. he hugged me tightly and kissed me deeply. i feel so loved suddenly. tears on his shoudler. i'm TOUCHED ! hopefully he trust me fully. i love him and i really do. went to yishun aunt place and sleep. reached home at 8pm. i'm damn exhusted ! i need him !

I CAN'T SLEEP !

iMISSmyboyfriend !

Thursday, January 04, 2007

dont wanna die alone without you here,
pls tell me wad we have is real.

woked up late today. 9am ! damn. was thinking if i'm able to reach class on time. took a bus. i'm lucky ! got myself a sit. doze off all the way till my school. i'm real tired. class was ok. michelle came to wait for me at 12.30pm. so nice of her =) took a train to wisma. had my lunch. acc her to mango. shopped awhile. passed by bebe shop. went into, saw a white dress. i love it so much ! take a look at e price. is $399. damn ex. she acc me to lucky plaza to find my baby. helped my mum to bought a PSP for her frenz. somwhow i dunno why he looked so pissed off. damn. i dunno what had i done wrong but just kip in silent. took a bus home. msged baby on the way. i think he is just too jealous. as i promised. i will be faithfull to love him with my full heart. i miss him. yes i do.

oh yeah. revive my blog. suddenly got the mood to blog. changed my blog skin. design it myself. jus a simple wan.

living without you is like life without colours. you make up the colours in my life.

___________________________________

the key to my heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/

try it everyone =)

Monday, January 01, 2007

a new year.
a new start.
clear everything off my mind in 2006 !

well... i enjoyed my countdown last night.
was at baby house.
got a great night.
tot i'm tired after work.
but still it worth.
muackz*
my chirstmas presents is like still coming my way.
loads n loads.
thanks for those hu gave it to me.
LOVE my GFs to the core.
hahas.
hmmm....
gonna go prepare and go out wif my parents le.
o1.o1.o7.
family day !

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !

Saturday, December 30, 2006

woo !
had been 10 days since i last blogged.
busy busy life.
FAMILY !
damn.
no choice.
i'm a mama gal.
2 more days to 2007 !
gonna be older by one years old le.
hope next year will be a better one for mi.
tot tis year wan will bad !
life just seem like empty in mi.
sigh.
guys guys guys.
pls stop everything.
leave mi alone in tis world.
if one day i can, i will dig all the guys eye out. =D lalala...
yeah. friends.
michelle, xueli, priscilla, adeline.
this are wat i called TRUE friends.
they never fail to be there for mi.
how i wish we can be 24/7 together.
jus the 5 of us will be perfect all day and night manx.

god god...
can you pls tell me when then i can get the trust FULLY back to my heart from him?
i'm waiting, waiting, waiting.
i already do wat i can.
but still... i FAIL to get tat trust back.
sigh.
17th months jus gone tis way.
2007 coming.
god pls lead mi a life.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

hmmm... it had been real long since i last blogged.
alot of stuff happen recently.
tears tears tears.
sometimes maybe realli my fault for bringing out stuff.
but i jus hope to get some comment from him and tat's all.
didn't know tat it will coz quarrel up.
hais.
i realli don't wish to.
but...
if my feeling not there anymore,
i wont even bother to say all those stuff to him which is in my heart.
i rather throw those stuff out in e sea and let it go.
i don't know wat are we now.
17th months.
hais.
leave him is not something i will put in my mouth.
as wat i promise him,
i will stay strong till my strongest gone.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

hais.
he promise tat he will call mi once he reached home in malaysia.
but i got nth from him.
guess our monthly anniversary had gone worse to worse.
today is my "best" anni.
no calls from him.
staying home alone all day eat meggi mee.
boring n pissed off day.
maybe monthly anniversary had no longer impt.
not having those sweet moment in the past.
those promises.
hais.
he say he will try to be back early to spend tat few hours with mi.
but nah nah.
till now nt even a call.
dunno wat he doin at malaysia.
met up with his old frenz?
i dunno.
guess he mus be having all the fun there ba.
hais.
heart broken.
i dunno where's is he.

*could time turn back?*

i miss him. i realli loads. hais.
i need him real bad ! =(

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

ahhhhhhhhh !!!!!
where's is he?
sigh*
i'm going crazy somehow.
god !
please help mi.
i NEED him !!!!
hais hais.

Monday, December 04, 2006

i don't wan our distance to be far apart.
i don't wan you to be a stranger of mine one day.
i simply need your care, love and sweetness.
it is so hard for it to be faithfull?
hais.
i hope not.
i don't wan pain in my heart daily.
i don't wanna feel stress.
i just wanna lead a simple life.

i don't know why recently so much stress in me.
real much.
till i don't even know how to relieft it.
but yet i'm helping others.
sigh*
is joey very silly?
is it so hard for her to enjoy her life?
god ~ please help mi !!!!

Sunday, December 03, 2006

my new top from baby !
i love it so much.

it had been a week since i last update le.
recently just dunno wat should i update?
alot of stuff in my mind.
all just stuck inside.
sometime till i can tears it when i think it.
i try nt to think it.
tell myself NO !
trying to pack myself up with event.
and not to stay alone at home.
but still it just appear in my mind.
i feel stress at time.
i'm trying my very best to faithfull him.
but hu gonna faithfull mi?
family? friends? no !
they r still not e most impt ppl to mi.
no one can understand how i feel.
my thinking.
he once promise mi to change.
but just for a moment,
and everything turn out to be the same.
he once promise mi to fetch mi off from work whenever i'm working.
he use to do tat no matter hw bz he is.
no matter hw late i knock off.
but nt now anymore.
and yet i can understand it due to his work n tiredness.
i done so much.
real much to change myself.
just for HIM !
hais.
i realli need him more then anyone.
i only need you to share my stressness with mi.
i really don't wish our distance to be far baby.

Sunday, November 26, 2006

lalala.
wat a boring sunday.
totally gt nth to do.
i missed baby so much.
sigh*
is had been a few weeks since his last off.
is had been real long since we 2 go out n enjoy.
guess we are far to busy.

well... i guess recently i had been real tired n lazy to blog.
nth much oso.
school, work.
boring life*
i wanna see baby soon !

suddenly tot of my blog is like a hidden place.
no one will enter it nor read it.
so no point blogging so much.
hais.

sometimes i just feel so empty in me.
i just hope to lead a perfect life with you~

Sunday, November 19, 2006

boo !
is had been long since i last blogged.
what is joey doing recently?
busy busy.
school, work.
last friday just went over to my aunt place for my little clarisse birthday.
went there to had BBQ.
too bad baby need to work.

ytd was working whole day at suntec.
so damn tired !
first time suntec so busy.
leave shop onli at 10.10pm.
after tat dad come fetch mi home.

today went to suntec wif michelle to help out in my mum's fair.
then mum came ard 3pm to take over mi.
got a singlet, boxer n gucci shirt for baby.
n two tops for myself =)
suppose to work till 10pm wif mum n michelle.
coz today last day.
need to pack stock.
but my uncle alan n family called ask mi to go for dinner at marina bay, steamboat.
then mum asked mi to go.
then ok lo.
left at 6pm.
after eating then my uncle drive mi home le.
so tired.
tml another day to work at novena.
monday? a boring day.
=(
hopefully i get to see baby after work.
i missed him damn badly.
had nt been seeing for few days due to my work.
sigh sigh*

*my aunt yishun new house =)

*is the tall gal clarisse 7th birthday =D

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

hmmm... wat day is today?
mi n baby de 16th months anniversary !
but i'm still always looking forward for our forever anni. =)
nth much today.
as usual went back to school.
banking and finance.
nth much.
tis unit is all about having the whole book in ur mind.
nth much to study on.
after class went to lucky plaza to look for baby.
starting of tis month was having a plan on my mind for tis anni.
but since baby is working, then is ok ba =))
i hope tat next anni he keep his promise and acc mi on every 14th.
meeted him awhile till ard 2+ then he acc mi bus stop.
took a bus hm and slp !
nth to do.
slept till 5.30pm woke up.
watch tv, dinnering then tv again.
till now. i'm blogging.
baby still don't realli agree mi working after my school hours.
but i need to earn for my living.
no one is giving mi money daily.
my transport, food, etc..
but is he realli wanted mi to stop working then i realli dunno wat i should do.
as i promised him i will study hard n score well just for him.
i got my time to study n work.

thur till sun i gonna be packed fully.
thur - working at cathey 2-10pm.
fri - baby clarisse birthday.
sat - working at suntec 1-9.30pm
sun - working at expo 10-10pm. *helping mum's frenz on food fair*

sometimes i just thinks that wish and dream are just something not for mi. what ever i wish n dream for, is something i hardly achive it. but still i struggler myself to achive it. i hope i realli can.

will you be there one be by my side watching the stars with me tru the night?
i realli hope so.
my love for you is something
words can't be said.
action can't be done.
is only the feeling right deep inside my heart.
it said : " you gonna be the men in my life !"

Monday, November 13, 2006

damn !
guess today isn't a great day to be hm.
monday blues? sigh*
last ntie dunno why suddenly i twisted my neck when i slp.
tis morning woke up i can't realli turn my neck.
it realli hurts.
after went downstair to NTUC and to buy my lunch.
while going down,
e lift tat i took stucked in between level 4 & 5.
tat moment i was ike damn scared la.
realli dunno wat to do.
hp can't be called out.
keep on pressing the door open button.
lift stopped for ard 15 sec.
then it slowly move up to level 5 and open e door.
i quickly get out n changed another lift.
my heart beated non-stop tat moment.
called baby once i come out from e lift.
but he nv ans =(
guess he is busy ba.

whole day at hm alone was just so bored.
watching tv, mugging, eat.
nth esle i could do.
yepp. tml is e day for school.
and is a day to meet baby.
our 16th month anniversary !
but he is working.
hais. never mind ba.
i'm happy enough to see him i guess.
i miss him !

Sunday, November 12, 2006

duhz. another tiring day.
went to aunt place whole day today.
had nt been blogging for days?
i agree i'm lazy =)
nth much past weekdays, schooling all day.
jus came back from baby malaysia hs ytd nite.
went back wif him on friday nite. coz he having his final theory on sat morning.
fun fun. i enjoyed myself there wif him.
all e laughter. =) i will never forget.
LOVE !
his parents was like so nice?
n keano was like so cute ! ha.
guess i'm crazy abt kids =D
oh ya ! baby got mi a piglet pen n booster. so cute nehz. =)
like it so much.
gonna hug e booster to bed all nite.

had a bad quarrel wif parents last nite.
they r simply soo unreasonable.
i'm too tired to talk abt it.
and thanx baby, he never fail to be there for mi.
wipe off my tears, pamper mi, comform mi.
simply jus love him loads.
2 more days to our 16 months anniversary !

*damn ! my ipod can't off it. sigh =(

Sunday, November 05, 2006

b0o !
i'm back hm.
went back to malaysia baby hs on sat night.
went down to lucky plaza at 8 to wait for baby to knock off from work.
after tat we took a cab down to jurong to meet his brother.
then his bro drove us back to malaysia. =)
we took 1 hr + to reach.
reached baby hs had dinner cum supper,
after tat took a bathe n off to bed at 1am.
woke up e next day at 7.15am.
baby drag on bed till 8am.
then was about to late for his driving theory lesson le.
his sister drove us to had our breakfast at coffee shop then we send baby to e driving school.
after tat i went hm wif his sis.
watched tv till ard 11am then i went for a nap.
slept till ard 2pm woke up for lunch.
then watched vcd wif his sis.
main while looked at his mum bathe wif apple (baby doggi)
poor apple keep on got beat by his mum.
guess he is too naughty. ha.
baby came back from his lesson at 3+pm.
he went for a rest then go went for a hair cut at 4.30.
baby cut short his hair as i thinner my hair.
24RM for both.
cheap nehz. lols.
after hair cut when back hm for dinner.
helped baby to dye his hair.
ard 7+pm, his daddy and mummy send us back to SG.
together wif his bro n sis.
while, time past fast.
but i realli enjoyed my visit there wif him.
get to see his hometown. =)
going back again next weekends.
tml gonna work at cathey.
time for bed le.
nites.

i realli enjoyed myself back wif baby.
tot is just a one day trip.
but every second, he is always there to pamper mi.
realli love him loads.
9 more days to our 16 months anni. =D

Friday, November 03, 2006

PSP ; burnout ; PSP !
hahas. guess i'm crazy abt baby PSP.
well.. went back to school today.
teacher was late ! she came onli at 10.35am.
lesson suppose to start at 10am !
everytime late, if nt then on leave.
cheating our money !
after class as usual, went down to lucky plaza find baby.
acc him in his shop.
after awhile he acc mi to tang plaza =))
walked back to his work place after tat,
then i went to food court for lunch. as i'm hungry.
after eating slack awhile at mac playing baby PSP then i went hm le.
i tot baby can't come out from his shop, so i went off along.
but while i was crossing e road.
someone touched on my hair. is baby ! =D
hehe. he run out to acc mi to bus stop. so sweet.
had a happy chat wif him while waitin for bus.
discussing on his up-coming car.
baby gonna got his dream car by next month i guess.
wish him gd luck for his driving liences. =))
oh ya ! i'm acc baby going back to malaysia tml nite till sunday nite.
wee ~ gonna had a sweet moment wif him.
love love =)

Thursday, November 02, 2006

i'm just so BORED at home. sigh*
woke up at 8.30 tis morning, went for a bathe.
prepare to school.
suddenly at 9.10, i received a call from BMC.
class cancel for today again.
tecaher on check up.
then i change back to my home clothes.
ate my breakfast, watched tv and get back to slp at ard 12.
all the way till 2+, baby called mi.
=)) chatted awhile he nid to get back to work.
then i went downstair to bought myself lunch.
eeeee... e food downstair had become worse !
my worse lunch. no taste at all. hais.
after lunch went for mugging.
do some assignment on business com.
suddenly there's a guy knocked at my door for 5 min.
went to peek at e door hole.
i can't see his face. after awhile he is gone.
dunno wat he's trying to do.
mug for a ard 2 hrs.
baby called mi again.
i miiss him la.
spoke to mum tis morning abt going back to malaysia wif baby tis sat till sun.
i told her baby going back to learn his driving. his tis month off gonna be back to malaysia.
if i dun follow baby back, i wont haf e time wif him.
then she told mi sun morning going for dim sum wif grandma n relative.
then she asked mi to ask dad myself.
hais. i hope dad allow.
will talk to dad tonight when he came hm.
but i'm a big gal. i can take care of myself.
no matter wat i wan to acc baby back.

the feeling you gave mi to love you is totally different from others.
you are just someone special that make mi love you more.
day by day passed.
every single thing ard us had changed.
but i'm sure you gonna be my men for life.
my love for you will nv be change.
i promises !

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

hai. my stomach is damn pain and cramps.
now having a HOT towel on my stomach.
hopefully i feel better after tat.
had nt been blogging for e past few days.
i jus dunno wat should i blog.
sometimes i jus feel so empty in mi.
now was already 10.07pm le.
wondering if baby had reached home?
still waiting for his reply or call to mi.
whenever i feel deeply in pain,
i jus need him to be by my side.
hugging mi ; kissing mi ; pamper mi.
i just MISSED him real much.
went back to school today. nth much.
business com. report writing.
went down straight to lucky plaza to find baby after my class.
at tat moment my stomach was in real cramps n pain.
i feel weak all over mi, and scared i might jus faint anywhere.
my bags are damn heavy.
kip on feel like vomiting, but it's jus so empty in mi.
breakfast had come out.
kip on calling baby fone, but he nv ans.
so i called my mum, she say she help mi to call as i got totally no energy.
from 12.30-1.20pm. at last baby called mi back.
he came n look for mi outside e toilet.
then send mi to taxi stand to took a cab home.
sometimes i wondering, why mus all gals haf tis problem?
hais. dunno hw am i gonna crawl to school tml.
gonna msg my in charge i can't work tis few days.
due to my weakness.
sometimes i realli dun wish to work n forces on my study.
but i need money for my daily.
sigh* tough life.

when i say i love you, it will be forever !
i promises.
i wan to be e gal tat you need.
the gal tat u asked for.
no more unhappy stuff gonna happen in us.
i jus hope to see the lovely you.
to see you carry that smile on ur face always.
today is our 1 year 3 months 18 days le.
14.07.05 will counting on forever =))
love ya baby.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

saw my hair? sigh sigh*
went for a hair cut ytd.
coz mum kip on nagging my front hair so long.
n tat stupid aunt cut till so short ! so ugly nehx. haiz.
and yet e aunt and my mum can say it cute -.-'''
hopefully my hair faster grow back. dunno wat baby will say if he saw it.
sure gonna laugh at mi. =(
well.. ytd was working at cathey. nth much.
gals power ytd. damn tiring !
woke up at 10+ today. jus had my breakfast.
just checked e email mummy khing send mi on nov working time.
wan cry manx.
a terrible working hrs due to shortage of part timer since vivo opening.
but i think e rest of them got worse working hrs.
they even nid to pon school for work.
will list out my comform working hours below later.
hmmm... gonna get ready to go over to my aunt place wif my parents le.
at yishun. they moving in to e new hs today.
my job is to look after crystal. ha !

suntec
sat, 4 `1-9.30pm
sat, 18 `1-9.30pm
sat 25 `11-9.30pm

cathey
thu, 2 `2-10pm
fri, 3 `2-10pm
mon, 6 `2-10pm
tue, 7 `2-10pm
thu, 16 `2-10pm

Friday, October 27, 2006

aww ! my uclers so so pain. getting bigger n bigger each day.
evrey meal is so hard for mi.
even plain water i drank, i feel e PAIN ! tears*
i'm so boring. it just like nth i could do other then blogging.
guess baby is busy at work. no reply from him.
i miss him.
usual weekdays today.
school, mugging, meet baby, home sweet home.
doze off all e way on e bus once i aboard.
i was real too tired.
wheather r cold this feel days. cough n flu is here.
i'm gonna be sick soon !
i had been eatin alot recently.
jus like a rubbish bin manx.
suddenly missed my gals so much. snow, ade, jessie, michelle, priscilla, hui yi.
dunno when then we could able to meet up for some fun.
seriouly i do missed sec school life loads !
is real diff from school tat i go to nw.
i realli hope we gonna haf a gathering up soon.
time for a bathe and wait for 7pm my show to start.
i wanna watch "death note" =(

*something seem to be bothing mi.*

am i jealous? yes i'm. i dunno y do i feel so. *sigh.
i jus feel so lonely whenever i'm all alone.
i miss you my boy, i really do.

my pledge of Love for you.
I've made a vow, to no one but you
I pledge my love to forever be true
I'll take care of you and treat you right
I'll lay beside you all through the night
I'll feed you and clothe you and keep you warm
I'll hug you and kiss you and give shelter in the storm
I'll help you and guide you and clear a path
I'll protect you and shield you from an angry man's wrath
I'll listen to your problems help you solve them too
I'll make you a rainbow and let the sun shine through
I'll take your side even if you're wrongJust to prove our love is strong
I'll plant you flowers and make them grow
They'll be a symbol of love that only we'll know
I'll whisper your name when no one is near
So low that only you can hear
You'll feel my love even if we're apart
You'll know that we are one in heart

Thursday, October 26, 2006

hmm.. jus do some edit in my wish list.
was thinking that if e first few can come tru. i'm overjoy enjoy.
e rest r not impt at all.
baby jus called, should nt had left my hp in e living room.
so long then pick up his call.
so happy to see a call from him.
i'm sorry baby for picking up ur call after so long.
seldom log into msn now also le. no one i can chat wif.
my life is gd enough wif him.
i jus wanna chat wif him more but nt others.
frenz which are ard mi is always priscilla n michelle.
they will always be my close bud.
nth much today.
woke up in e morning jus feeling abit nt rite.
uclers r damn pain. sneezing non-stop. abit of hang over on my head.
can even feel e giddyness in my head.
but still i crawl my way to school.
banking and finance today.
teacher had been saying is a easy moudle to pass.
but i don't think so.
i seem so blur in evereything.
after class, as usual.
went over to lucky plaza had my lunch, then to mac to study.
till ard 2+ i realli feeling unwell.
so dear acc mi to bus-stop then i took a bus hm le.
reached hm, bathe, went striaght to slp.
woke up at 7+ had my dinner lie down on e sofa for tv till nw.
i jus don't feel rite in mi. getting sick soon? i hope not.
is time for 9pm show.

is love just all about having each another? i don't think so.
i jus think that love is smt tat having ur love ones with u, giving them all e love, care n concern. be there when they need you. comfort them. understand each another. listen to every pieces of advice from them. n TRUST of coz. that's my everything to baby. hope that he can feel it. love him.

i hope you know you mean e WORLD to me!

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

i'm so damn boring !
so decided to blog. jus finish watching e princess hours in channel U.
nice show. now still waiting for mum to cook.
well.. went back to school today, lesson on business com.
today is on e unit editing skills. i HATE tat manx. so damn hard.
after school went over to lucky plaza, had my lunch.
after tat went into mac to study alone.
as n went baby come n find him.
today he working rite infront of mac.
so easiler.
i'm so happy to see baby today.
study till ard 3+ then baby send mi off to mrt le. toook a bus hm from orchard mrt.
once i aboard e bus, heavy rain start. lucky mi.
reached hm helped mum to wash clothes, bathe and rested awhile on my bed.
feeling so great !
till 7pm jus nw watched tat korea show.
had being waiting for dear's sms.
but he seem busy. so long never had a great sms with dear le.
i miss him.

CHENG WEE LIANG is attached to mi once n for all.
no one can rub him away from mi.
i wanna be wif him for e rest of my life, i promised !
*once's i say i love u, it gonna mean it forever.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

jus had my 2nd round of dinner. i'm so damn full now.
woke up at 11+ tis morning. had my breakfast.
then ard 1+ had my lunch. was waiting for baby to call or msg mi. but nahs. guess to PH he mus be busy ba.
after that went to do some mugging.
then on my com to change my blogskin.
is in green tis time.
i find it kinda nice. =)
after tat my mum came home n asked mi to get change,
acc her to her malay frenz hs at bt panjang for visiting.
so i went down wif her ard 5+.
e malay family was so damn friendly.
aunties tok. so damn funny.
had my 1st round of dinner there.
e lontong that they cooked was great ! yum yum.
after tat sit down n listen to aunties toks wif some snacks till 8+ then we went hm le.
tot of meeting baby after his work for movie. wanted to watch death note.
but movie started onli at 8.50pm. it last for 2 hrs. reached hm will be damn late. so can't.
reached hm had a bathe n watched e 9pm show.
so damn nice. ard 10pm i had my 2nd round of dinner wif dad till so damn full !
guess now is time to call baby n turn to bed.
tml is another day for school again.

boy, i missing you badly.
once i say i love u, i will love u forever !

Sunday, October 22, 2006

hmm.. gonna make a quick blog b4 i go help my dad in e housework.
well... how's was my ytd? is a family day for mi. wee~
when to market in e morning wif family n my baby crystal.
after tat reached hm get change then we make our way down to vivo city.
so many ppl there !
maybe is new ba. so many ppl tot tat baby crystal was my baby. gosh !
how i wish she was mine* =x
we walked e whole vivo. so tired can.
after tat ard 8+ then we went over to yishun. my aunt place.
bring crystal home.
then mum stayed awhile to chit-chat wif my aunt.
went home ard 10 +pm.
i'm damn shit tired !
but i can't realli slp well in e nite. was kinda hungry.
coz ate dinner at 4+. was like damn early.
tat's my day for ytd =)

>>> my model ! baby crystal in winter wear. so cute =)

today woke up at 9pm. so tired norh.
my aunt brought crystal over at 8+. coz they haf to wash their new hs. no one look after her.
i'm like her baby sis. =( but nvm. i LOVE her ! she so damn cute. hee.
no more plan for today. wee~
but later ard 3 gonna bring crystal back to my aunt place at yishun then gonna stay there till nite time. my aunt wan mi to help out.
hopefully tonight i get to meet baby.
i MISSED him loads.
alright. time for house cleaning wif dad !
blog again soon.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

joey gonna make a PROMISE here to baby that she wont TEARS anymore !

indeed our life will go HAPPINESS w/o anymore SADNESS ~

i JUST wanna be the ANGEL of your life,

i LOVE u loads baby !

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

hmmm.. took a break from mugging. gonna mug till almost fall aslp le. tot i could get a msg from him. but.... hais. well well.. recently some mis-understanding happens between mi n him. maybe is my fault ba. can't be a perfect gf for him. i promised him i will msg him every morning when i woke up. but i didn't ytd. hai. maybe wat my dad say is rite. i'm brainless ; forgetfull. i really had to tell baby tat i'm sorry. i should nt had broke those promises. but wat had happen had already happened. time wont turn back. n i will take it a lesson to mi. pick up my mistake ba. i realli hope tat baby can accept my mistake. it realli hurt to see him tis way. i realli hope to see e smile back on his face once again. without his words, caring n loving tis few days. something jus seems to be lost in my life. every moment i jus stare at my hp to his reply. i realli need him. missed him so so badly.

ytd when to work at novena. nth much. cousins n e gf came to look for mi ard late evening. bought tee shirt. n he bought mi a adidas bag from here. =) thanx* today knock off sharp at 9.30pm. i don't know wat's was on my mind till i can even took a wrong train to tao phayo. then i quickly alight n took another train back to newton. reached newton at 9.50pm le. waited 10 min for bus 700 but e bus uncle dun stop. coz too many ppl le. waited for another 10 min. still e uncle dun wan to stop. then i waited for e 3rd 700. is came onli afte 15 min. but still e uncle dun let us aboard. so i walked down to another bus stop which was 10 min away. so far ! i'm damn tired at tat moment. but no choice. e road was so dark n scary. =( reahed tat bus stop waitied for 960. suddenly took out my hp from my bag, n saw a miss call from my mum. so i called back hm. bro ans. so i told him i still waitin for bus. ask him tell mummy go slp first.was about to hang up e fone after tat, my hp auto off. totally no batt. kip on tryin to on again so tat i can msg dear, but still can't. hais. after tat i reached hm onli at ard 11.45pm.

today when back to school. nth much. as usual i'm alone. msged dear e whole morning. kip on lookin at my hp during lesson. but still no reply from him. i'm real sad. after sch end, i went over to lucky plaza food court to ate my lunch. tot i will be able to see him. but he say he can't leave his shop. so after i eat, i jus went to pee at him. dun think he know ba. after tat i took a train down to yishun my aunt place le. stayed there till 6+pm then took a train home. so tired. when i almost reached home, dad called mi. ask mi buy bread b4 i come home. so i went to NTUC under my blk there to buy it then go home. reached hm changed le, suddenly i found out tat my hp was missing? finding up n down for it. then i run all e way down to NTUC to find it. tot i left it there. but still dun haf. then i came hm. then i found it at e basket where i put dirty clothes. how blur can i be. am i too stress? hais. bathe, eaten dinner n start my mugging le. after tis post gonna go back to mugging le. just hoping he will gib mi a call later. =( tml gonna be my first mouldes for banking and finance.

many things jus stress in my mind. guess my mind is in e messy nw. school work r making mi go round. hai.

>>>>> do i look like her? felicia chin? i dun think so. but when i am outside buying food. e aunt can even say she is my sister =.='''