in my heart, there is no place i rather be

Saturday, March 17, 2007

ahhh !!! i'm pissed ! i post a long post. an it all gone ! arghhh... well.. have to repost le):

anyway the pic is 17 years back de joey? hahas. cute? lols. maybe in the past that little fan looked interested to me (:

everything had gone back to normal. nothing changed. but joey still gonna stay strong no matter what. fight for what she wan. as time past by, god might lead joey to a perfect life she wan. (:

head down to expo today. went to get some stuff at metro expo sales. cause mummy gave me a 50 dollar metro voucher. nothing much to buy also. i saw zuo ping there. someone who use to work with me at expo 2 years back. hahas. he still working under byford. poor thing. lols. that in-charge alica always gave him so much stock. and saw my fav aunt from hush puppies. haha. she hug me and say why i no longer working at expo? guess she miss my joke. haha. michelle and her bf working there too. under my mum's company. chat awhile with her. my cousin mandy bought a stupid IQ board game. haha. she say is fun? i don't think so? lols. ate our late lunch at expo food court. and one stupid family took our place when we go buy food where our bag is there. -.-''' zzzz. nvm. we go find new sit. after expo we head down to suntec. mummy got a fair there. together with uncle chris de. grab a grey tank top from there. is under uncle chris de. then he don't wan to take my mum's money when she pay for it. she say nvm. so is FOC. hahas. walk around till 8+ then we took a bus home le. so tired. i slpt all the way to bt panjang. gonna go eat supper and wait for baby call le. end it here le. nights everyone !

i wish i could go back to the baby me.

Friday, March 16, 2007

it's true about love ~.

Have you ever loved only to let it go? Have you ever hated someone and loved him so? Have you ever missed someone so bad it made you cry? Have you ever seen someone left alone without knowing why? A love is easy to feel, so hard to explain; so easy to get, so hard to let go; so easy to spell, so hard to define...and yet everyone is still taking the risk. That's love! Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pain, but if you don't follow your heart; in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance. Why do people say loving too much makes you stupid? It's because you'll always be wrong even if you're right. You're weak even if you're strong. You give without receiving. You cry, get pains but still say you're happy. How would you know if you've fallen in love real hard? It's when someone hurts you and you love him still. Then he hurts you again to find out that you love him even more... It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for the one available. Best to wait for the one you love than the one who's around. Best to wait for the right one 'cause life's too short to be wasted on just someone. If you feel love, don't lose a grip on it, you'll never know the one you let go was the one you waited for all your life. There are some who catch our site and only few who touch our hearts. Look into your heart and pursue the person you love for it's better to risk than just let love pass by you.

There's nothing the end, it's begun
What can you do when it all drains

had a talk out with baby lst nights. both of us agree our distance getting further. honey mood period had past. we not longer what we are in the past. i remember he once told me he will change just for me after that last quarrel. but nah. never. but still i never say anything. i changed myself to what he wan. do what he say. why can't he just listen to me once? all the promises from him just gone. i don't why. but still i can understand him. i give him all i can. to let him feel safe, loved, cared and sweetness for me. but who gonna give me back all this? i don't know. he asked for a broke off last night. i totally don't agree with. called him and talk nicely to him. i bear al my tears over the phone. coz i know he hate it. after hanging up then i throw all my tears over. i jus can't bear with all the tears any longer.

he say he can't do what i wan. but i already don't ask for more from him. i don't even expect much from him. my heart bleed deeply after he told me that. he say we need a break where there a needs. but i don't find it a need. i still love him as much as the start. after so much i never give up on him. i really don't wish to see that day come that he give up on me. he told me he don't like to use hp. alright. i understand. and as a GF i now already don't mind he not contacting me for the whole day till he going to bed. can say that i missed him alot ! but still nothing i can do. he need to work and i understan. 20th months just past this way. i really hope we can get better and walk down a hard and path of or own for our whole life.

somehow my heart js bleed like this apple.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

when will all sadness gone from me?

i don't know why. i feel kinda sad. today is me and baby e 20th month anniversary. i send him a 3 sms long msg yesterday night to wish him. but he fall asleep and only left me a sms at 5am when he woke up. is jus a simply sms from him. and today was just like a normal day. msged him telling him i going to meet my mum tonight at OG orchard point to acc her buy some present for her friend then on the way bring her OG card for her. tonight 9-11pm they havin sales for all OG cards member. so she need the card. and though of passing stuff to baby before i meet my mum. he pissed off coz i going down to town to meet my mum where i still got my banking and fnance exam tml. i told him i had been studying last week and the whole afternoon today. i got confindance in it. but serious, i can tell he is angry with me. but i really got no choice that i have to go down to pass my mum the card. he don't reply me after that. which i'm hurts and sad. a human can't be studying non-stop isn't it? we need a break. if not it will sure cause to headache. hais. maybe he is thinking all for my good. i know. tears.

come n joey ! wake up ! where is the usual joey in this world?

i don't need others to care and love me ; to notice me ; to know what i'm thinking. but i serious need all this from you ! just you. onlyyou can cure my stressness. really no one esle.

20th months had passed. is this all true love? for me it is. if not i had leave you long ago. is really not easy being a GF or wife. i never fail to try. never fail to give up. everyone say i deserve someone better. but still i respond to all my friends, JOEY WONG ONLY LOVE YOU BABY ! i really do.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

stay with me tonight.

somehow i feel so lonely sometimes. i was home whole day with daddy. no one to talk too. only to daddy. i love the feeling being with him (: cause this week he on nights shift. so he will be home in the day to acc me in the day (: and monitor joey study. hahas. poor mummy, slpt alone in the night for this week. ha. had been study for my human resource paper today. *cross finger* tml paper will be easy. had not been hearing from baby the whole day. dunno where is he ): i missed him la. ))))): later after 12am gonna be me and baby de 20th months anniversary ! time really fly. but as time fly. i really hope i will be happy with him the whole of my life. get what i always wan and waiting for. i willing to love him all i can. (: end it here le. jia you joey for her paper tml !

i love my boyfriend.
i miss my boyfriend.
):
happy 20th months anniversary to you baby !!

Monday, March 12, 2007

joey is in deep shit !

didn't really have a nice sleep last night. i dunno why. woke up this mornin at 6am ! OMG. joey had not been waking up that early le. damn tired. slacked on my bed till 6.15 then i go for a bathe. prepare myself. had my breakfast. left my house at 7am. took a train down to red hill. and yeah ! i hate taking train early in the morning. damn super packed. reached exam center at red hill on at 8am. joey is early (: saw my friend joey *china girl* study abit with her then we enter the exam hall at 8.15am. business communication paper. is easy i shall say. paper ended at 10.30am. after that i went down to lucky plaza meet baby. had my lunch there. mugged for an hour there for my next paper at 3pm. business fun. a hard paper tot i shall say. my brain totally went empty after i enter the exam hall. i dunno why. i only completed my section A. section B i did all i can write it. after the exam, i saw a sms from baby. kinda suprise that he did wish me for my exam at 3pm. just a sms from him brighten up my day. called him straight after my paper. he sound sad cause i never did well. i'm sorry baby ): i will mug real hard if i gonna retake for this module. headed striaght home after that paper. reached home bathe and went to slp le. super tired. woke up at 8 and had my dinner. and here i'm blogging and watching tee bee. waiting for baby to call. end it here le. yepp ! tml no exam no work no school. gonna mug for my human resource paper le.

every night i just feel so emo.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

*i love my new logitech mouse ! thanks daddy (:

b0o !

joey is here to blog again. fast. 1 week of study break gonna end like this. tml gonna be my first paper on buisness commnication. today gonna study in human resource and busniess fun. not easy module. sigh*

yesterday got a great and tired day. 8am in the morning, mum drag me off from bed. say going over to aunt house at yishun. they having house warming today. ton and loads of people. everyone was like asking where's my loves one? ha. baby need to work. so never went down. stay there till around 8pm. took a train down to meet baby. suprise tat he wan me to meet him ar? asked me over to his place. so i went over and had dinner cooked by his sister. really happy to see him after a long week. enjoyed the night with him. having someone by your side is great. this morning woke up at 8am. waked baby up and he prepare off to work. then he gave me money to cabby home. reached home, straight to the bed i went. damn tired. slpt ill 2pm then wake up. had my lunch n here i'm blogging. gonna start my mugging le. stress time is here ! jia you joey !

joey should stay strong no matter what !

Friday, March 09, 2007

holding on tight always.

lalala.. at least joey finish study business communication and banking & finance. still gt business fun., accounting and human resource. god bless me. hopefully tml i can finish 2 moldues. then i will be save. woke up this morning at 12 noon. don't feel like waking up. but i forced myself too. cause i told myself must wake up to mug ! had dim sum for breakfast and some corn flakes. yum yum. after that watch kid central awhile then start my mugging le. a non-stop 3 hours of mugging for joey. kinda proud of myself. (: can stare the book for 3 hours. *cheers for joey* =D was suprised to see baby msg mi during my mugging. he asked me if i can go over his place to stay tml nights. i told him i got to ask my parents first. not sure if they let me back due to my exam. had my ba ku teh meggi mee for lunch. then watched my 5.30 show. ended at 6.30 ten i when for a bathe. then watched my 7pm channel u show. awww ! that guy so shuai. =x tml my aunt house yishun having house warming. gonna bring my books over to mug. well.... i'm waiting for baby to call now. i MISSED him loads !

I love the way he look at me.

I love the way he pamper me.

I love the way he stare ito my eyes.

I love the way he kisses me.

I love the way he hugs me.

I love the way he say he love me.

I love the way he sweet talk me.

I love the way he pat down smooth on my hair.

I love the way he pat me to bed.

I love the way he nag at me.

I love the way he is.

who is he?

Non other than cheng wee liang.

My Love.

Thursday, March 08, 2007

hurts ; pain all hidden in the emo kid hearts.

didn't get to blog yesterday. was at my aunt place yishun. went down there yesterday evening to find my god ma. i'm like needing her help badly in my accunting. thanks for her help (: at least i understand. my baby crystal as in bad state. her sickness was like never recover tot she discharged from hospital on chinese new year. poor thing. in the midden of the night she keep on crying. guess she gt problem breathing? due to her lung problem. she need those x-ma stuff.

had a tiff with baby last nights. due to i wanna meet him. 6 days w/o meeting him. i feel wired. the feeling is real bad. but he don't let mi down to his work place due to my up coming exam. but i really miss him loads. can he feel it? sigh. i tears. real badly. having fever last night too. nose blocked. real xin ku. but still i force myself to bed. asked myself not to think so much. he say he is stress whenever i say all tis. but i jus wanna see him as a GF ): maybe i'm at fault. i say sorry to him. asked him not to sound so pissed and angry. i'm real scared when i see him tis way. i know i had stress him up and he i tired after work. but i simply just miss him ):

woke up this morning at 10+? tot i will have a call from him around 9.30 as usual. but he never called. ): msged him no reply. meeted michelle at yishun late afternoon. passed her the sushi i bought for baby. asked her bring it town for my baby since she going down. *thanks alot girl for helping !* this is the only way i can do. cause he wont wan to see me appear at his work place. around 7+ when i on my way home. i'm suprised to see his calls. but he don't sound normal ): askedwhy this morning he never call me. he say never call then never call lo. sigh* hurts. but still nothing i can say. my heart are real soft.

i dunno why, he is the only guy which i'm scared to bring my attitude out to him. i dun have those courage at all. last time de joey is not this way. sob sob* is this true love? or jus one side love? does he know how much i love and miss him? but i really do ):

god ! please tell me what should i do. i'm real tired of life sometime. but still i hang on to whatever i had tightly. save me please !

*anyway good luck for my dearest michelle
appealing courses for her poly. hope she get the course she realy wants (:

i simply just need all your care and love.

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

nothing gonna be right.

i dunno why. i feel that loads of stuff is bothering me. exam, relationship, friends, family, work etc.. loads of thing came to me one sort. i HATE this feeling. can't god be more fair to everyone? sigh* am i someone no longer called JOEY? life is really a hard path to go tru. sometimes i don't even know what i'm thinking. yes ! i'm somoeone who hide my feeling in my heart. not even wrote it out. but jus told it to myself. i'm far to scare to bring it out to everyone. life isn't gonna be this way. always a happy joey on the outside. but deep tot inside who am i? but i told myself, life still gonna go on no matter how hard it is. i'm always trying my best to be the great GF, daughter and friends to ppl around me. seeing them happy sure gonna make me smile. just hopes that gods really gave me the right path. (:

well... just woke up not long. having my lunch now. meat porriage. cooked myself. yumm yumm =) was asked tis morning to work at vivo. but nah. i gt loads of stuff to mug for up coming exam. so i rejected. but i'm real BORED stucked myself at home all day ! the feeling is terrible. feeling so lonely. no one to talk or chat with. it really killing joey ! 5 mouldes to study. god bless joey.

i dunno why, i jus felt so emo and kind of sad after you told me that.

below are the news from channel news asia:

Tremors felt in Singapore after quake rocks Sumatra

Singapore's Meteorological Services Division said an earthquake measuring 6.6 on the Richter Scale struck Padang, Indonesia at about 11.50am on Tuesday.

The epicentre was 50 kilometres north-northeast of Padang, on the island of Sumatra in Indonesia and some 430 kilometres south-west of Singapore.

Tremors were also felt in many parts of Singapore.

Callers to the MediaCorp News Hotline said they felt tremors in areas such as Beach Road, Jalan Besar, Robinson Road, Shunfu and Toa Payoh.

Some buildings, like the Concourse at Beach Road, Capital Square and Centennial Tower in the city, and even Ngee Ann Polytechnic in Clementi, were evacuated.

Witnesses said several tall buildings in the central business district swayed slightly.

If you too felt the tremors and have any details, do call us on the news hotline at 68222268.

Monday, March 05, 2007

books make me feel sleepy ):

awww ! is killing me. really gonna kill me. had been studying my banking and finance just now. today is only the first day of exam break and joey is going crazy. i don't really understand it. sigh* maybe before my exam gonna go back school to look for teacher for some help ! joey needs it badly. just took a break and feel like blogging. i'm having my love letters wafer sticks with hot tea. yumm yumm. (: what is my baby doing now? had not been hearing from him today. sob. i miss him la. he don't let mi go find him coz he wanted me to mug at home. but i wanna see him ! ): think i better get back to my study. end it here.

i love those sweet sweet way of talks from you.
i love every single of your accompany.
jus wanna cling on to you forever !

Sunday, March 04, 2007

please guide me what should i do?

a new out look for my blogger. now is just like a less then 15 min job to change my blogskins? joey is getting smarter =) brother got charged in camp last week. sigh. he gonna be lock up for like 3 weeks? pity him. dunno what he done wrong in camp. kinda sad ar. no matter what he still my brother. mum gonna visit him next week with god dad. i die die oso wanna go ! some how i missed him. seeing the neat side of his room this few days some how not use to it le. hope he gonna stay strong and gonna be discharge soon. i some how drop a tears for him when my mum told him he gt charged. my mum is rather sad then i do. well... gonna make this quick blog then gonna start my mugging le. exam coming less then 10 days. i'm so so stress. dad wants a great performance from me. i really hope don't let him down. just a 2 weeks i gonna be free. gonna stay strong this 2 weeks. tonight going out with parents to have dinner at great world city. alright. end it here.

will you see the sadness side of me?

love is not about holding tight him/her.

love is not about losing trust in him/her.

but is about,

having your fullness trust in him/her.

whenever she/he is doing something,

there's always reason behind them.

love is about accepting each another.

be there for him/her when they need you.

share a tears with him/her.

feel the sadness and happiness in them.

bringing much joy to them.

kept those promise that you gave.

holding their hand till the end.

my love life is totally contented with my baby around (:

Friday, March 02, 2007

time is not the best medicine to heal everything.

dunno why. joey seem so lonelyness. worries all in me. friday is a day where all teenages enjoy their time out there. but joey is at home rotting. i no longer have what call friends. everyday i got no one to talk too. share my problems with. baby is busy with work. he is earning for all his aims. really don't wish to disturb him and let him feel worry about me. sometimes i really hope there some times for mi to have ladies talk and fun. but... nah. joey don't dare to ask for more. life really had changed. every single thing of me.

seeing the moody you, feeling worse the me.

Monday, February 26, 2007

oh yeah ! my lappy is here. (: compaq presario V3000. widescreen de. love it. hehex. gonna transfer all my song here le. i just checked my gucci shoes price with my friend. gosh ! is $690. damn damn ex. don't think i got a chance to have the shoes. sigh ): but i really love it. hais. well... slacked at home whole day to study, watch tv. nothing much. having a bad dirrohea since ytd. dunno wat wrong with my stupid stomach. hate the pain. rest more then enough at home today. sleep till headache. i MISSED my baby so much. had been thinking alot recently. i really love him loads. everyone saying why i'm a nice GF? why am i dumb. but no ! love is dumb. yes. i love him. i don't mind doing anything just for him which guys out there wont have the chance to taste it from joey no other then my baby. classes start at 3pm tml. yepp. gonna meet my baby ! end it here.

hidden you deep in my heart. locked it with a key.

Saturday, February 24, 2007

oh yeah ! tis is the gucci shoes i longing for. looking for it so long le. and i found it online. dunno ho much is it. but sure gonna be super ex ! but i love it so much. dunno when then i can get it. ):

welll.. this 2 days baby treated mi kinda cold. i dunno why. i dunno what he thinking even. i dun get the chance to really go and chat with him. i'm waiting for him to contact me today the whole day. but none. till i called him jus now. he say he is outside with friends eating. then ok lo. i asked him reached him ring mi up. but till now i still waiting for his calls. i miss him real much. staring at my phone whole day today when i at my grand ma house. i dun even haf the mood to gamble with my cousins. hais. maybe i'm in wrong somewhere which he notice. i dun know. if i'm, i'm sorry ! whenever i miss him, i only can msg him. read at those msg he send me in the past. i know he need to work. i really don't wish to stress him n let him worry about mi. i treasure him real much. i really hope he can reply my msg when i msg him. onli his msg can brighten up my day. a msg from him is when the smile on me.

i can lost everything in me.
my freedom.
my life.
but i just can't lost you in me.

i simply need you to tell me how you want me to show all my love to you?
to let you feel that i'm yours for life.
to let you feel safe and secure.
pls tell me how.
i really wanna do it just for you.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

it had been a week since i last blogged. i'm real far too tired to blog. don't think there's someone will view joey blog ya? ):

first day of CNY : was home the whole day. dad side relative n grand ma all came over. gamble.

second day of CNY : went over to mum side de aunt place. after tat we went over to mum's brother house. which was my cousin benson house. i saw him onli once a year ! lols. now botak him. haha. ns. he celebrate his birthday that day too. (: around evening i went to JB to meet baby. he came out n fetch me to his malaysia house. visited his family then went over his ah ma house to gamle and put fireworks till late night. fun fun. i enjoyed their CNY there.

third day of CNY : woke up in the afternoon then we went over to baby ah ma house again. gamble awhile then his cousin fetch us to take cabby back to singapore. reached singapore we went straight to my dad side uncle house at jurong then after that went back to my place.

fourth day of CNY : baby slpt till 3+pm ! gosh. then had lunch and prepare to go over my aunt place at yishun. everyone wanted to see baby. lols. we reached there ard 7pm. had our dinner then we go off le.

nothing much about CNY. every year just the same. but this year got my baby with me. is more then enough. working at 3pm at novena sq later. tired tired tired.

*i'm sorry if you got pissed off smetimes jus because of me. but still i hopeu understand how i feel. whatever i had done is all just for you. listen to me wont you? hais. i just hoping for.*

Thursday, February 15, 2007

time for blogging le. after blog gonna go watch teebee le. i'm so TIRED ! well... how's my valentine last night? meeted baby after his work at 9pm. and guess wat? he bought flower full of 3 dif colour rose for me which he ask the flower shop gal to design like he say. so nice. i'm so touched la. and guess wat? my mum say he waste money buying flower for me. ha.after he knock off we went to wisma. wanted to buy a top from esprit. but i can't found it at wisma. so forget it. we planned to book a hotel to stay over night. and you know wat? all fully booked. so in the end we decided to go home. wanted to take a cabby back to his place. we called all taxi hot liine. all busy. then no choice. we took a train back. so damn tired ! both of us slept all he way back to his home. lols. reached his place ard 11+ le. cooked meggi mee for myself and him as supper. after tat i went for a bathe then we slpt around 1+am. damn tired.

nothing much today. and yes, i'm damn double TIRED ! gosh. ):

valentine's day gift from baby (:

self made cookie from me to baby (:

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

sadness

disapointment

deeplyhurt

tears

Far away, I can feel your beating heart,

I'm trying hard to find my place with you.

I've been carrying your heart in mine,

Hoping that one day you come to realise it.

All I ask is a little more time,

So that I get to catch another glimsp of you.

That beautiful smile of yours.

Melts the very soul of mine.

Let a greater thing happen.

Let our love catch like fire.

Let every little bits of us turn into a beautiful love.

Will you?

truckloads of loves.

Monday, February 12, 2007

sometimes i wondering. will i be disturbing you if i keep on msging you? i afriad there's no reply from you. scared you are busy. but just a text for you means alot to me. yeah. i missing you. always. wanting to see you everyday. i really hope i can. every night i just feel so emo. thinking about you in silent is all i can do? looking at my hp just hoping something sweet from you to brighten up my day. my heart beating faster whenever i saw you. maybe my heart just falling too fast just for you. please tell me if you are thinking of anything. i really wanna share all ur problems.

as usual, i went for class today. a boring day in class. computer. i finish all the assignment that teacher wanna do in class. surfing net for tat 3 hours in class. my classmate was like saying. hey joey ! u come lesson 3 hours just to surf net? lols. of cause not. to show teacher my FACE (: after class i head down to jurong. had my dinner then i went to my teakwondo training place to pass money to my sir. which i own him for months. he keep on asking me to go back to teach my junior. i really hope to go back if i can. really don't wish to waste my 11 years just like that. watied there for my daddy to fetch me at 9.40pm. then we head down to vivo city to fetch mummy. home after that. i'm tired. far to tired.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

joey is BORED ! real bored. a nice sunny sunday joey is at home rotting. done all my study and assignment. i even done more then what teacher wan. smart joey (: my daddy is doing sring cleaning for my room. he washed my air con and cleaning my window for me. so nice of him right? (: i want to go out !! but no ppl acc, no where to go. is bored staying at home with nothing to do. worse come to worse i don't play games. hais. baby called me just now, had a tiff wif him. sigh. don't know why he is always thinking that i'm lying to him which i don't. i had been more then true to him. but.... still i can't make him have that trust in me. once n once again, i never give up.

hey come on ! this is not the normal joey. this joey no longer the wild, outgoing and happy joey out there. is simply just a emo joey. sigh. life is like a compeition to me. i never fail to try things out. fall once i stand up again. who gonna understand how i feel? who gonna bring back that smile on me? i don't know.

life isn't a easy path to go.

joey don't even know what she wan.

every path just seem so hard for her.

who gonna guide her tru?

she seem so failure in everything she does.

a happy her on the outside.

but no one knows how she feel deep inside.

youth life isn't this way.

sigh.

Friday, February 09, 2007

holding you till the end of the time.

as usual. woke up late ! haha. always overslept. pressed the alarm clock and when back to sleep. think i must try to sleep everyday before 10pm. my eye ring are getting black ! oh dear. went fo classes. reached just nice at 1.30pm. mr bala lesson. accounting. he is smelly ! eee...! the way he teach is like got a person holding a gun behind his back? damn damn fast. if never listen clearly really caught nothing. oh yeah. he given us a worksheet of 8 qns. have to complete 2 before we leave the class. and smart joey complete 7 of the qns. (: is on bank reconilition today. kinda easy. use to learn that from ITE. after class, i went straight to baby house. he is off today. reached his house acc him playing game till my show start at 7pm. nice show (: yepp ! i'm staying over at baby house tonight. my cough is bad. real real bad. hais. my throat is damn pain no matter how much of water i drank. now waiting for my "BF" priscilla to reach home. so that there's someone to chat wih me online ! V day is coming ! next week. and yeah. joey gonna go to school as usual and meeted baby after his work if he want (: hope gonna be a nice V day for me. it's end here tonight. nights.

bring me closest each time to your arm when i'm with you.

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

go away from me ! i hate you.

i'm sick still so so sick. my throat had become worse. drinking so so much water every moment. hopig my throat gonna be fine. it cause me to headache. alot of flame just stuck deep inside my throat. i just feel so uneasy. went over for CNY dinner just now at aunt place. everyone was there. nice dinner tot. everyone was like wondering where's my baby? i was like saying working? then they ask mi why baby always not here with me when there's family gathering? my baby is a BIG busy man (: then they ask me to bring him home on the first day of CNY. but baby need to go back to malaysia. sad ): i really hope i can go back with him on the 3rd day of CNY. my bro just went for a operation today for his wisdom tooth. poor thing. his mouth is aching like hell now. dad just informed joey to look after him tml before going to school !
*ohya ! my knee gt a big blue black. all my cousin fault ! make mi knock onto the table so hard just now ):

i never let you, if you promise not to fade away.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

i wont wanna die alone without you here with me.

i can't sleep. really can't. the whole night keep me awake. due to my sort throat, bad cough and flu. i can't even breath. woke up at 11+am. feel like vomitting. the feeling is real bad ! hate it.got myself prepare for school at 12+ noon. went down to lucky plaza to had y lunch as usual. after that meet baby. yeah ! love meeting him. seeing that smile on his face. it sure gonna brighten up my day (: oh ya ! baby please remember, 10 mins not gonna be enough for the both of us :D love ya so much ! that picture tat i attach is baby wearing his new gucci spec. handsome? lols. he think he is. haha. after class i head down to IKEA. got some stuff for valentine day. is next wed. one week more. i'm looking forward for it (:

OH NO !!!!

MY VOICE ARE GONE !!! ):

Monday, February 05, 2007

every second i spend waiting, drags me closer to this grave.
i'm not alone with you around.

i'm still so sick ! sobs. really hate this feeling manx. how i wish i'm a rea working adult now. so ca get married with baby soon. working hard together for our furture with no worries. i really love him to the core ! and he is the first and only guy my dad like? my mum really love him la. ha. woke up at 11+am today. get myself prepare and went down to lucky plaza to had my lunch. then go find baby. he bought mi panadol. i'm having bad headache that moment. slacked with him till around 2.45pm then i took a bus to my school. new module today. office application. fun fun. i all about typing today. MS words. i love typing documents. ha. lesson ended at 6 then i took a bus home le. body still feeling weak and warm. not fully cover from my sickness. reached home watched tv. had my dinner with family around 9pm. now gonna do my MS words homework. typing time ! i missed baby badly :(

i love the feeling having you by my side (:

gonna make a quick blog then wait for baby to call. woke up this morning at 8+am. to follow parents and relative to pray ah gong. went down to grand ma house for breakfast first then we head down to bt timah for praying. after prayig ard noon went back to grand ma house for lunch. eat le then mum went off to went. mi n my dad headed home. took a nap and pack my room. CNY is coming (: went down with dad to chinatown. meet mum there. shop around then baby joined us for dinner. but he nv eat ): coz he say he eaten le. after dinner then we go shop ard. till ard 10pm then we headed home le. tired tired. my fever is back ! had a bad fever last night. now still feeling so weak. yepp. i had a great time wif baby n my family just now. so so happy ! my dad love him. lols. he is the first guy that my dad love. (: oh ya ! baby bought a gucci white spec. jus wanna wear it for fun. he looked abit funny in it. guess i'm not use to it seeing him wear spec. ha.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

i NEED to see baby badly !!!

i MISSED him !!!

Thursday, February 01, 2007

your smile make me smile (:

woke up at 11 this morning. i'm late ! get a quick bathe then rush down to woodlands le. crystal school. need to fetch her from school at 12 noon. just in time. reached her school at 11.58am. ha. fetch her le then bring her go coffee shop eat then brought her back to my house. brought her to a hair cut under my block as order from her granny. cause dunno why her granny or parents bring her fo hair cut she does no want it. slacking at my house watching teebee. played some kids online game. like ABC? lols. around evening brought her downstair to playground. she enjoyed i guess. had our dinner at home. mum's cook. nice nice. then her grand-parents came to fetch her at 8pm. had a tired and bus day with my little crystal. but a 2 years old kids like her is damn smart ! (: simply just love kids so so much. didn't hear from baby today. don't know what he doing. sigh*

i miss him ! yes i do. ):

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

have a wonderful weekend filled with razorblade kisses and heartagram hugs !

back to blogging. had not been blogging for a week le. feb is here. fast. while, last sat went back to baby malaysia house with him. cause he going back to learn his driving. had loads of fun with him that 3 days. and his parents was like so nice to mi (: we even when out with baby malaysia friend. he was like so friendly (: we went to sea side to watch soccer match and eat seafood on the second night. enjoying myself. came back to singapore on monday afternoon. we looked damn tired. but we head down to town striaght away. lols. cause baby wanna buy new year clothes. baby bought mi a FLMP imp top and rip-curl top. nice nice. shop till around 8+pm we took a bus back to my house. had dinner at my house downstair. after that he send mi off then he go home le.

ytd went back to school. nothing much. last lesson on human resource le. wont be seeing mr admin again le i guess ): he is a great teacher i shall say. work at novena striaght away after class. mum and dad send me home after that.

today as usual. school. after class went to work at vivo. boring day. no customers. vivo crowd had reduces alot. real much. starting tml adidas stalla item is on 30%. great buy for stalla lover. (: now waitin for baby to call then go sleep le. wee ~ tml gt no class. new module starting on monday ! office application. must be fun (:

my baby ! (: love him !!

Thursday, January 25, 2007

hais. my com now is just like a pace to do my blogging. nothing esle. woke up as usual today. i as damn tired till dun feel like going to school. but got no choice. still gonna wake up. reached class on time. human resource today. nth much. jus doing some past year exam paper. after class when to help mum pay bill then i when straight to find baby le. had my lunch there then leave there ard 2.45pm for my work. almost late for work. not much customer today. had been stone-ing till 9.30pm. went home straight alone after tat. tml my shift changed. working 1pm at suntec. hopefully tml time fly ! has.

pain pain pain. the pain is killing me always.

*sigh. suddenly i missed teakwondo so so much. i really hpe i can go back to training. my interest from young. realli don't wish to gib it up after so much effort.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

kiss me and tell me is not BROKEN.

woke up at 10am today. cause lesson only start at 1pm. (: woke up prepare then leave hs at 11.15am. took the jelly i make down for baby to eat. dunno he got finish ma. =x acc baby went ard to look for his street soccer shoes. can't find the wan he wan. then 12.50pm le. i need to take bus down to my class le. if not mr bala gonna lock the door. but guess what? mr bala was late for 10 min. once he enter the class i told him, "mr bala, you are late. i'm just about to lock the door." ha. then he just smile and say sorry. lols. he is crazy today. gave us around 10 qns to do for homework. freak right. lucky all is entries journal. learned in ITE le. after lesson end le then i go home striaght. so good girl right? xueli came my hs to do something for hi boyfriend just now. all JOEY idea !! and somemore is i do for her de. not fair ! lols. well... now waiting for baby to call. dunno what time he will reach home. he went for company dinner. sigh* tml working at novena sq. 3-9.30pm. friday at vivo. 2-10.30pm. god bless me.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

i'm still a kid no matter what.

well... as usual. went to school. nth much. i was almost late. god blessed. ytd the hairdresser was saying not to wash my hair till after 3 days? FREAK ! i can't stand it. lols. went to wash it tis morning before i when to school. after school when to meet baby. so hapy to him. the smile on hi face is more then enough or mi. tot last night nothing good happen. but is all over. is time for joey to grow up !!!! wake up joey ! passed baby the gift i did for him the up coming valentine and our anni. don't wan to keep so long with me. since i got it done then i passed to him lo. hope he like it. reached home at 5+pm. ate something and waitin for snow to come over my place to do jelly ! ha. out come not bad. mum say is nice =) tml gonna bring for baby to try. hahas. well... dunno where my baby go. now waitin for his call.

i MISSED him !!!!

Monday, January 22, 2007

I NEED SOMEONE TO BRING ME TO THE SEA TO SHOUT OUT LOUD !!!

i'm stress. real real stress. too exhausted of everything around me.

oh yeah, just reborned my hair today. i find it damn funny. far to flat. maybe is like tis at the start.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Trapped In That Dark Bottomless Pit.

gosh ! i'm super shit tired. leg are like super soft? got a hard time reaching home jus now manx. far too tired. well... had my first accounting lesson today. mr bala. haha ! he is an indian. damn smelly !!! gosh. suprisely joey reached class at 10 sharp today. mr bala locked the door at 10.10am. no lateness he say. ha ! just love doing accounting. fun fun. after school rush all the way to harbour front. vivo city. had a quick lunch then went to start work le. freaking bored at work today. no customer ! gosh. but joey sales stil nt bad (: after work rush home straight. too tired le. time to sleep ! end it tonight.

can anyone tell me what to do? maybe in his mind joey still the past joey? the want that go around to flirt? NO ! i'm no longer. sigh* everytime he don't believe in me, i feel so hurts. right deep inside my heart. can he just touch and feel it? my heart started to bleed. sigh*

Thursday, January 18, 2007

give me all your heart.

reached class on time today. pocky and fresh milk don't seem to keep me awake in class. keep yawning. but still mr.admin class keep us awake. nth much in class today. after class went to eat with my classmate joey, china gal. after that went to find baby and tis happen to me >>

he bited me ! lols. but nvm. i got to bite him back =) baby acc mi to wait for bus. 3 bus 700 passed by. i didn't aboard. has. jus wanna spend more time with baby before he go back to work. hopefully next week can go back malaysia with him. but got a deep feeling parents don't let =( *o ya ! dad say i'm getting my lptop by next week. whoho ! so happy.

joey and joey =D

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

as sun shine into me. is just like you in me.

as usual alarm clock rang at 8 then 8.30am. woke up. prepare to bathe le. then received call from BMC ; my school. saying that today class cancel. i'm damn HAPPY ! ha. coz i get to slp longer. woke up at 12+ noon. coz i'm hungry.walked out from my room, saw bro and his sir at my doorstep. my heart beat starting to get faster. well... i don't think i gonna say it out le. just hope my bro gonna be fine? ate my lunch. watched like an hour tv. and there goes my mugging time. mug mug mug. went over grand ma place at 7+. reached home watched tv and here i'm online blogging. think i going off to my bed striaght aftr this. gonna sleep early le. my black eye ring are coming out ! oh dear. that's bad. ): alright. another day at school tml. gonna sleep le. nights everyone !

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Everything doesnt seem to be going my way anymore.

i'm home, from school. woke up at 8.45pm today. kinda early. prepared and off to school. reached school in time. lesson started. after class when down to chinatown to pass mum stuff and had my lunch there. then i travel all the way back to orchard. to lucky plaza mac. mugging all alone. after an hour +. my butt started to get hurts. so i walked to baby shop to find him. he's eating. tot of waiting for him to finish eating then go home. cause my dad called me ask me to be home early. exam are coming up. but who's know, the boss walked in. so i told baby i go home first. in order not to let him get scolded. but he sound pissed off. maybe he tot i don't wanna wait for him to finish his meal. while, i'm not ! i missed him so badly each day. my heart bleed whenever i think of him. just like what my friend say. maybe we gals really need a pad for our heart so that it will then stop those bleeding. i just miss everything from him. if not i wont be like go all the way to find him everyday. my dad gonna put me in a diffcult life. he planned to ask mi to go god ma place everyday after school. just like wat i did in sec sch. god ma then will teach and tuitor me. i don't wan ! everyone does not understand how i feel. i'm still like a kid to them? sigh*

emo joey going tru emo life. save her please !

The symptoms of a "broken heart" can manifest themselves through psychological pain but for many the effect is physical. Although the experience is regarded commonly as indescribable, the following is a list of common symptoms that occur and which may last for indefinite periods of time:

A perceived tightness of the chest, similar to an anxiety attack
Stomache ache and/or loss of appetite (experienced)
Partial or complete insomnia (experienced)
Nostalgia (experienced)
Feelings of hopelessness (experienced)
Loss of self-respect (experienced)
Suicidal thoughts (in extreme cases) (experienced)

found this symptoms online. read it everyone. i think is true.

Monday, January 15, 2007

For i long for eternity with you. Not turning my back against you again. Nothing's gonna happen between us again i promise. It just made us stronger.

had not been blogging for a day. nth much happens ytd. is me and baby 18th months anni. but it just seem like an normal day to me. he got to work. and gone to play soccer with his friends after work as he promised. nth i could say. had nt been spending anni with him for 3 months le. maybe monthly anni no longer impt? but i don't think so. it still as impt to me ! the night before priscilla came over to my place for a night. had a nice chatting night wif her. that's the only night i don't feel emo non lonely. with her ard. my night just seem to be having jut a smile on my face. (: thanks gal for acc me.

today i woke up only at 12 noon. cold weather. just so nice to stick on to my bed. woke up ad had my lunch. dad was still sleeping. cause poor him having night shift this week. so i helped mum to wash clothes after my meal. changed my own bedsheet. sweeped my room. watched tv awhile and mugging time start. it's never to early to start my mugging now. exam is coming up on the 12 march. had my dinner wif dad around 6pm. bought it downstair for him. the food downstair just so sucky ! dad feels that too. he when off to work at 7pm. i took a bathe. apply med to my face. and here i'm blogging. i'm just so BORED ! but still i gonna continue mugging. sob sob* ): baby had not been msging or call mi today. i dunno why. called him but he never answer. guess he is busy. hais. were he know what happen to me at home? maybe, maybe not.

whymylifejustseemsoempty?
ifeelsonumb.
imu.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

day turns to light. night turns to dark. sun turns to rain.

woke up at 9am this morning. told myself not to drag on bd anymore. if not i gonna be late ! reachd school abit late. due to the stupid rain ! HATE raining manx. after class went over to meet baby. then wait for him to serve a customer then he send mi off to MRT at 2.20pm. got my hug n kisses from him then went to work t novena le. i love to start work at 3pm. time past fast. (: today i was in store doing stock. seriously, i rather stay in store do stock. saw a billabong dress in surf n turf during my break time. is nice! feelin like buying it. $59.90. worth it? should ask baby come wif my somedays. but when? sigh* ended work at 9.40pm. dad and mum fetched me home. so nice (: we took a long time to reach home. traffice jam like hell. till i fall aslp on the car. reached home nearly 11. ate my dinner wif mum n dad. watched teebee. had a bathe. n here i'm waitin for baby to call. oh ya, i want to reborn my hair !! my hair looked bad now. ):

i'mtired. so tired of everything around me.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

i'll do anything for a smile, holding you till our time is done

as usual. alarm clock rang 2 times. off it and i went back to sleep. baby called mi at 9.30am. oh dear ! i'm LATE ! quickly get up and prepare to school. went to find baby after that. need baby to help my mum frenz transfer game to the PSP. think baby kanna pissed off doing that. while waitin for the transfer to be done. i was mugging alone at mac. nothing much to mug. i'm so lonely and bored at mac. was raining damn damn heavily after everything was done. thanks baby for giving me an umbrelle. wanted to go down chinatown to pick up something from mum then bring it over to aunt place. but the rain is far too heavily. called mum told her i go home instead. got scolded by her. well... who cares. i'm use to it i think. took a train home. reached home bathe, watched tee bee. whole house just so quiet. i felt so damn lonely. finally baby called me after his work. after dinner tee bee again. and here i'm blogging. tml got to work at noevna sq from 3-9.30pm. i NEED money ! i'm broke ):

life just seems so so simply to me. everyday had become a routine to me.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

alarm clock rang at 8am, 8.30am and finally at 9am. drag myself off from bed. prepare and went to school. so damn tired. dunno why i seem to have sleepless nights now of days. reache class n time. teacher was saying how's was my night with y boyfriend on his birthday? my first reply was like, how you know? guess must be my besties patricial told him. coz he is teaching pat at TM BMC. (: next reply to him was GREAT ! =) once lesson ended, me n joey *my china classmate* went down to lucky plaza mac to mug. all the way till 3pm. my butt was like telling me is time to leave. it hurts (: joey left and i went to find my boyfriend. happy to see him ! head back home at ard 4pm. fall aslp on the bus. ha ! reached home, do some housework then acc mum to plaza. exam are coming real soon after chinese new year. jia you joey ! :D

this happen half-way tru mugging. ha !

oh ya ! it had been long time since i went for a great shopping. i MISSED shopping. hais. when my boyfriend gonna bring me for a shopping? hope to have a 2007 new look. should i go reborn my hair? should ask my boyfriend (: hairdresser say i can't perm ! it gonna look funny and my hair gonna be worse to worse DRYNESS ! sob* ):

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

ha ! this is the birthday gift for baby. i paint it myself ! is a limited one and only tee for him. don't even know he will wear it ma. but really hope i can see him wearing one day. had a night at his place last night.his sisterbought him a ice cream cake from swensen. nice nice. woke up tis moring prepare and e off to work and mi off to school. after school reached home doze off le. tired ! coz last night never sleep really well. baby took away all the blanket ! hahas. coz the air-con are way too cold. but both of us are lazy to wake up to off it. slept all the way till 6+pm. woke up and went over plaza to buy dinner back. bored at home. tv tv tv ! exam are round the corner. time to mug le. sorry to my GIRLFRIENDS i reject you all for going out.

i MISSED SENTOSA ! ):

if i can, i wanna dig all the guys eye OUT !!!

Sunday, January 07, 2007

just want you to know how much i love you, baby.

wee~ another 30 min gonna be baby birthday le. 20 years old le. ha. guess this is the second birthday i spending with him. (: well.. woke up by xueli call today. damn her ! i'm tired. cleaned my room today. then went over to grand ma house awhile at 3+pm to visit her. reached IMM at 4+pm. so many people. ate at fish &co. for dinner with parents. nice nice. shop shop shop. nth caught my eyes today. mum say i'm a good gal today. never bought anything. ha ! left giant with loads of big bags. jus had a bathe. waiting for baby to call now. i miss him loads ! gonna had a great night with him tml. LOVE*

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY BABY !!

Saturday, January 06, 2007

mrCHENG ; myBOYFRIEND !

joeyMISSEDyoubadly !

Friday, January 05, 2007

i'm fully into you, baby.

sometimes i was wondering, i blog. but who gonna read or comment about it? hai. will he be the one? i dunno. he seem no longer read it. ):

alarm clock rang at 8 and 8.30am. same thing happen. i off it and went back to sleep. i'm like down with fever? head hurts me loads ! woke up and look at my clock. FREAK ! is 9.10am le. quickly drag myself off from bed to bathe. reached school at 10.40am. tot i'm late. but i'm NOT (: i'm lucky ! ha. lesson was fun today. teacher keep on joke. meeted baby today. he is pissed off. due to he tot guys call or msg me. but in fact, i was on the fone wif priscilla. he kept in silent when i'm in his shop. drag him to send mi off to MRT. talked nicely to him, saw tears in his eyes. tears from him really mean alot to me. he hugged me tightly and kissed me deeply. i feel so loved suddenly. tears on his shoudler. i'm TOUCHED ! hopefully he trust me fully. i love him and i really do. went to yishun aunt place and sleep. reached home at 8pm. i'm damn exhusted ! i need him !

I CAN'T SLEEP !

iMISSmyboyfriend !

Thursday, January 04, 2007

dont wanna die alone without you here,
pls tell me wad we have is real.

woked up late today. 9am ! damn. was thinking if i'm able to reach class on time. took a bus. i'm lucky ! got myself a sit. doze off all the way till my school. i'm real tired. class was ok. michelle came to wait for me at 12.30pm. so nice of her =) took a train to wisma. had my lunch. acc her to mango. shopped awhile. passed by bebe shop. went into, saw a white dress. i love it so much ! take a look at e price. is $399. damn ex. she acc me to lucky plaza to find my baby. helped my mum to bought a PSP for her frenz. somwhow i dunno why he looked so pissed off. damn. i dunno what had i done wrong but just kip in silent. took a bus home. msged baby on the way. i think he is just too jealous. as i promised. i will be faithfull to love him with my full heart. i miss him. yes i do.

oh yeah. revive my blog. suddenly got the mood to blog. changed my blog skin. design it myself. jus a simple wan.

living without you is like life without colours. you make up the colours in my life.

___________________________________

the key to my heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/

try it everyone =)

Monday, January 01, 2007

a new year.
a new start.
clear everything off my mind in 2006 !

well... i enjoyed my countdown last night.
was at baby house.
got a great night.
tot i'm tired after work.
but still it worth.
muackz*
my chirstmas presents is like still coming my way.
loads n loads.
thanks for those hu gave it to me.
LOVE my GFs to the core.
hahas.
hmmm....
gonna go prepare and go out wif my parents le.
o1.o1.o7.
family day !

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !

Saturday, December 30, 2006

woo !
had been 10 days since i last blogged.
busy busy life.
FAMILY !
damn.
no choice.
i'm a mama gal.
2 more days to 2007 !
gonna be older by one years old le.
hope next year will be a better one for mi.
tot tis year wan will bad !
life just seem like empty in mi.
sigh.
guys guys guys.
pls stop everything.
leave mi alone in tis world.
if one day i can, i will dig all the guys eye out. =D lalala...
yeah. friends.
michelle, xueli, priscilla, adeline.
this are wat i called TRUE friends.
they never fail to be there for mi.
how i wish we can be 24/7 together.
jus the 5 of us will be perfect all day and night manx.

god god...
can you pls tell me when then i can get the trust FULLY back to my heart from him?
i'm waiting, waiting, waiting.
i already do wat i can.
but still... i FAIL to get tat trust back.
sigh.
17th months jus gone tis way.
2007 coming.
god pls lead mi a life.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

hmmm... it had been real long since i last blogged.
alot of stuff happen recently.
tears tears tears.
sometimes maybe realli my fault for bringing out stuff.
but i jus hope to get some comment from him and tat's all.
didn't know tat it will coz quarrel up.
hais.
i realli don't wish to.
but...
if my feeling not there anymore,
i wont even bother to say all those stuff to him which is in my heart.
i rather throw those stuff out in e sea and let it go.
i don't know wat are we now.
17th months.
hais.
leave him is not something i will put in my mouth.
as wat i promise him,
i will stay strong till my strongest gone.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

hais.
he promise tat he will call mi once he reached home in malaysia.
but i got nth from him.
guess our monthly anniversary had gone worse to worse.
today is my "best" anni.
no calls from him.
staying home alone all day eat meggi mee.
boring n pissed off day.
maybe monthly anniversary had no longer impt.
not having those sweet moment in the past.
those promises.
hais.
he say he will try to be back early to spend tat few hours with mi.
but nah nah.
till now nt even a call.
dunno wat he doin at malaysia.
met up with his old frenz?
i dunno.
guess he mus be having all the fun there ba.
hais.
heart broken.
i dunno where's is he.

*could time turn back?*

i miss him. i realli loads. hais.
i need him real bad ! =(

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

ahhhhhhhhh !!!!!
where's is he?
sigh*
i'm going crazy somehow.
god !
please help mi.
i NEED him !!!!
hais hais.

Monday, December 04, 2006

i don't wan our distance to be far apart.
i don't wan you to be a stranger of mine one day.
i simply need your care, love and sweetness.
it is so hard for it to be faithfull?
hais.
i hope not.
i don't wan pain in my heart daily.
i don't wanna feel stress.
i just wanna lead a simple life.

i don't know why recently so much stress in me.
real much.
till i don't even know how to relieft it.
but yet i'm helping others.
sigh*
is joey very silly?
is it so hard for her to enjoy her life?
god ~ please help mi !!!!

Sunday, December 03, 2006

my new top from baby !
i love it so much.

it had been a week since i last update le.
recently just dunno wat should i update?
alot of stuff in my mind.
all just stuck inside.
sometime till i can tears it when i think it.
i try nt to think it.
tell myself NO !
trying to pack myself up with event.
and not to stay alone at home.
but still it just appear in my mind.
i feel stress at time.
i'm trying my very best to faithfull him.
but hu gonna faithfull mi?
family? friends? no !
they r still not e most impt ppl to mi.
no one can understand how i feel.
my thinking.
he once promise mi to change.
but just for a moment,
and everything turn out to be the same.
he once promise mi to fetch mi off from work whenever i'm working.
he use to do tat no matter hw bz he is.
no matter hw late i knock off.
but nt now anymore.
and yet i can understand it due to his work n tiredness.
i done so much.
real much to change myself.
just for HIM !
hais.
i realli need him more then anyone.
i only need you to share my stressness with mi.
i really don't wish our distance to be far baby.

Sunday, November 26, 2006

lalala.
wat a boring sunday.
totally gt nth to do.
i missed baby so much.
sigh*
is had been a few weeks since his last off.
is had been real long since we 2 go out n enjoy.
guess we are far to busy.

well... i guess recently i had been real tired n lazy to blog.
nth much oso.
school, work.
boring life*
i wanna see baby soon !

suddenly tot of my blog is like a hidden place.
no one will enter it nor read it.
so no point blogging so much.
hais.

sometimes i just feel so empty in me.
i just hope to lead a perfect life with you~

Sunday, November 19, 2006

boo !
is had been long since i last blogged.
what is joey doing recently?
busy busy.
school, work.
last friday just went over to my aunt place for my little clarisse birthday.
went there to had BBQ.
too bad baby need to work.

ytd was working whole day at suntec.
so damn tired !
first time suntec so busy.
leave shop onli at 10.10pm.
after tat dad come fetch mi home.

today went to suntec wif michelle to help out in my mum's fair.
then mum came ard 3pm to take over mi.
got a singlet, boxer n gucci shirt for baby.
n two tops for myself =)
suppose to work till 10pm wif mum n michelle.
coz today last day.
need to pack stock.
but my uncle alan n family called ask mi to go for dinner at marina bay, steamboat.
then mum asked mi to go.
then ok lo.
left at 6pm.
after eating then my uncle drive mi home le.
so tired.
tml another day to work at novena.
monday? a boring day.
=(
hopefully i get to see baby after work.
i missed him damn badly.
had nt been seeing for few days due to my work.
sigh sigh*

*my aunt yishun new house =)

*is the tall gal clarisse 7th birthday =D

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

hmmm... wat day is today?
mi n baby de 16th months anniversary !
but i'm still always looking forward for our forever anni. =)
nth much today.
as usual went back to school.
banking and finance.
nth much.
tis unit is all about having the whole book in ur mind.
nth much to study on.
after class went to lucky plaza to look for baby.
starting of tis month was having a plan on my mind for tis anni.
but since baby is working, then is ok ba =))
i hope tat next anni he keep his promise and acc mi on every 14th.
meeted him awhile till ard 2+ then he acc mi bus stop.
took a bus hm and slp !
nth to do.
slept till 5.30pm woke up.
watch tv, dinnering then tv again.
till now. i'm blogging.
baby still don't realli agree mi working after my school hours.
but i need to earn for my living.
no one is giving mi money daily.
my transport, food, etc..
but is he realli wanted mi to stop working then i realli dunno wat i should do.
as i promised him i will study hard n score well just for him.
i got my time to study n work.

thur till sun i gonna be packed fully.
thur - working at cathey 2-10pm.
fri - baby clarisse birthday.
sat - working at suntec 1-9.30pm
sun - working at expo 10-10pm. *helping mum's frenz on food fair*

sometimes i just thinks that wish and dream are just something not for mi. what ever i wish n dream for, is something i hardly achive it. but still i struggler myself to achive it. i hope i realli can.

will you be there one be by my side watching the stars with me tru the night?
i realli hope so.
my love for you is something
words can't be said.
action can't be done.
is only the feeling right deep inside my heart.
it said : " you gonna be the men in my life !"

Monday, November 13, 2006

damn !
guess today isn't a great day to be hm.
monday blues? sigh*
last ntie dunno why suddenly i twisted my neck when i slp.
tis morning woke up i can't realli turn my neck.
it realli hurts.
after went downstair to NTUC and to buy my lunch.
while going down,
e lift tat i took stucked in between level 4 & 5.
tat moment i was ike damn scared la.
realli dunno wat to do.
hp can't be called out.
keep on pressing the door open button.
lift stopped for ard 15 sec.
then it slowly move up to level 5 and open e door.
i quickly get out n changed another lift.
my heart beated non-stop tat moment.
called baby once i come out from e lift.
but he nv ans =(
guess he is busy ba.

whole day at hm alone was just so bored.
watching tv, mugging, eat.
nth esle i could do.
yepp. tml is e day for school.
and is a day to meet baby.
our 16th month anniversary !
but he is working.
hais. never mind ba.
i'm happy enough to see him i guess.
i miss him !

Sunday, November 12, 2006

duhz. another tiring day.
went to aunt place whole day today.
had nt been blogging for days?
i agree i'm lazy =)
nth much past weekdays, schooling all day.
jus came back from baby malaysia hs ytd nite.
went back wif him on friday nite. coz he having his final theory on sat morning.
fun fun. i enjoyed myself there wif him.
all e laughter. =) i will never forget.
LOVE !
his parents was like so nice?
n keano was like so cute ! ha.
guess i'm crazy abt kids =D
oh ya ! baby got mi a piglet pen n booster. so cute nehz. =)
like it so much.
gonna hug e booster to bed all nite.

had a bad quarrel wif parents last nite.
they r simply soo unreasonable.
i'm too tired to talk abt it.
and thanx baby, he never fail to be there for mi.
wipe off my tears, pamper mi, comform mi.
simply jus love him loads.
2 more days to our 16 months anniversary !

*damn ! my ipod can't off it. sigh =(

Sunday, November 05, 2006

b0o !
i'm back hm.
went back to malaysia baby hs on sat night.
went down to lucky plaza at 8 to wait for baby to knock off from work.
after tat we took a cab down to jurong to meet his brother.
then his bro drove us back to malaysia. =)
we took 1 hr + to reach.
reached baby hs had dinner cum supper,
after tat took a bathe n off to bed at 1am.
woke up e next day at 7.15am.
baby drag on bed till 8am.
then was about to late for his driving theory lesson le.
his sister drove us to had our breakfast at coffee shop then we send baby to e driving school.
after tat i went hm wif his sis.
watched tv till ard 11am then i went for a nap.
slept till ard 2pm woke up for lunch.
then watched vcd wif his sis.
main while looked at his mum bathe wif apple (baby doggi)
poor apple keep on got beat by his mum.
guess he is too naughty. ha.
baby came back from his lesson at 3+pm.
he went for a rest then go went for a hair cut at 4.30.
baby cut short his hair as i thinner my hair.
24RM for both.
cheap nehz. lols.
after hair cut when back hm for dinner.
helped baby to dye his hair.
ard 7+pm, his daddy and mummy send us back to SG.
together wif his bro n sis.
while, time past fast.
but i realli enjoyed my visit there wif him.
get to see his hometown. =)
going back again next weekends.
tml gonna work at cathey.
time for bed le.
nites.

i realli enjoyed myself back wif baby.
tot is just a one day trip.
but every second, he is always there to pamper mi.
realli love him loads.
9 more days to our 16 months anni. =D

Friday, November 03, 2006

PSP ; burnout ; PSP !
hahas. guess i'm crazy abt baby PSP.
well.. went back to school today.
teacher was late ! she came onli at 10.35am.
lesson suppose to start at 10am !
everytime late, if nt then on leave.
cheating our money !
after class as usual, went down to lucky plaza find baby.
acc him in his shop.
after awhile he acc mi to tang plaza =))
walked back to his work place after tat,
then i went to food court for lunch. as i'm hungry.
after eating slack awhile at mac playing baby PSP then i went hm le.
i tot baby can't come out from his shop, so i went off along.
but while i was crossing e road.
someone touched on my hair. is baby ! =D
hehe. he run out to acc mi to bus stop. so sweet.
had a happy chat wif him while waitin for bus.
discussing on his up-coming car.
baby gonna got his dream car by next month i guess.
wish him gd luck for his driving liences. =))
oh ya ! i'm acc baby going back to malaysia tml nite till sunday nite.
wee ~ gonna had a sweet moment wif him.
love love =)

Thursday, November 02, 2006

i'm just so BORED at home. sigh*
woke up at 8.30 tis morning, went for a bathe.
prepare to school.
suddenly at 9.10, i received a call from BMC.
class cancel for today again.
tecaher on check up.
then i change back to my home clothes.
ate my breakfast, watched tv and get back to slp at ard 12.
all the way till 2+, baby called mi.
=)) chatted awhile he nid to get back to work.
then i went downstair to bought myself lunch.
eeeee... e food downstair had become worse !
my worse lunch. no taste at all. hais.
after lunch went for mugging.
do some assignment on business com.
suddenly there's a guy knocked at my door for 5 min.
went to peek at e door hole.
i can't see his face. after awhile he is gone.
dunno wat he's trying to do.
mug for a ard 2 hrs.
baby called mi again.
i miiss him la.
spoke to mum tis morning abt going back to malaysia wif baby tis sat till sun.
i told her baby going back to learn his driving. his tis month off gonna be back to malaysia.
if i dun follow baby back, i wont haf e time wif him.
then she told mi sun morning going for dim sum wif grandma n relative.
then she asked mi to ask dad myself.
hais. i hope dad allow.
will talk to dad tonight when he came hm.
but i'm a big gal. i can take care of myself.
no matter wat i wan to acc baby back.

the feeling you gave mi to love you is totally different from others.
you are just someone special that make mi love you more.
day by day passed.
every single thing ard us had changed.
but i'm sure you gonna be my men for life.
my love for you will nv be change.
i promises !

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

hai. my stomach is damn pain and cramps.
now having a HOT towel on my stomach.
hopefully i feel better after tat.
had nt been blogging for e past few days.
i jus dunno wat should i blog.
sometimes i jus feel so empty in mi.
now was already 10.07pm le.
wondering if baby had reached home?
still waiting for his reply or call to mi.
whenever i feel deeply in pain,
i jus need him to be by my side.
hugging mi ; kissing mi ; pamper mi.
i just MISSED him real much.
went back to school today. nth much.
business com. report writing.
went down straight to lucky plaza to find baby after my class.
at tat moment my stomach was in real cramps n pain.
i feel weak all over mi, and scared i might jus faint anywhere.
my bags are damn heavy.
kip on feel like vomiting, but it's jus so empty in mi.
breakfast had come out.
kip on calling baby fone, but he nv ans.
so i called my mum, she say she help mi to call as i got totally no energy.
from 12.30-1.20pm. at last baby called mi back.
he came n look for mi outside e toilet.
then send mi to taxi stand to took a cab home.
sometimes i wondering, why mus all gals haf tis problem?
hais. dunno hw am i gonna crawl to school tml.
gonna msg my in charge i can't work tis few days.
due to my weakness.
sometimes i realli dun wish to work n forces on my study.
but i need money for my daily.
sigh* tough life.

when i say i love you, it will be forever !
i promises.
i wan to be e gal tat you need.
the gal tat u asked for.
no more unhappy stuff gonna happen in us.
i jus hope to see the lovely you.
to see you carry that smile on ur face always.
today is our 1 year 3 months 18 days le.
14.07.05 will counting on forever =))
love ya baby.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

saw my hair? sigh sigh*
went for a hair cut ytd.
coz mum kip on nagging my front hair so long.
n tat stupid aunt cut till so short ! so ugly nehx. haiz.
and yet e aunt and my mum can say it cute -.-'''
hopefully my hair faster grow back. dunno wat baby will say if he saw it.
sure gonna laugh at mi. =(
well.. ytd was working at cathey. nth much.
gals power ytd. damn tiring !
woke up at 10+ today. jus had my breakfast.
just checked e email mummy khing send mi on nov working time.
wan cry manx.
a terrible working hrs due to shortage of part timer since vivo opening.
but i think e rest of them got worse working hrs.
they even nid to pon school for work.
will list out my comform working hours below later.
hmmm... gonna get ready to go over to my aunt place wif my parents le.
at yishun. they moving in to e new hs today.
my job is to look after crystal. ha !

suntec
sat, 4 `1-9.30pm
sat, 18 `1-9.30pm
sat 25 `11-9.30pm

cathey
thu, 2 `2-10pm
fri, 3 `2-10pm
mon, 6 `2-10pm
tue, 7 `2-10pm
thu, 16 `2-10pm

Friday, October 27, 2006

aww ! my uclers so so pain. getting bigger n bigger each day.
evrey meal is so hard for mi.
even plain water i drank, i feel e PAIN ! tears*
i'm so boring. it just like nth i could do other then blogging.
guess baby is busy at work. no reply from him.
i miss him.
usual weekdays today.
school, mugging, meet baby, home sweet home.
doze off all e way on e bus once i aboard.
i was real too tired.
wheather r cold this feel days. cough n flu is here.
i'm gonna be sick soon !
i had been eatin alot recently.
jus like a rubbish bin manx.
suddenly missed my gals so much. snow, ade, jessie, michelle, priscilla, hui yi.
dunno when then we could able to meet up for some fun.
seriouly i do missed sec school life loads !
is real diff from school tat i go to nw.
i realli hope we gonna haf a gathering up soon.
time for a bathe and wait for 7pm my show to start.
i wanna watch "death note" =(

*something seem to be bothing mi.*

am i jealous? yes i'm. i dunno y do i feel so. *sigh.
i jus feel so lonely whenever i'm all alone.
i miss you my boy, i really do.

my pledge of Love for you.
I've made a vow, to no one but you
I pledge my love to forever be true
I'll take care of you and treat you right
I'll lay beside you all through the night
I'll feed you and clothe you and keep you warm
I'll hug you and kiss you and give shelter in the storm
I'll help you and guide you and clear a path
I'll protect you and shield you from an angry man's wrath
I'll listen to your problems help you solve them too
I'll make you a rainbow and let the sun shine through
I'll take your side even if you're wrongJust to prove our love is strong
I'll plant you flowers and make them grow
They'll be a symbol of love that only we'll know
I'll whisper your name when no one is near
So low that only you can hear
You'll feel my love even if we're apart
You'll know that we are one in heart

Thursday, October 26, 2006

hmm.. jus do some edit in my wish list.
was thinking that if e first few can come tru. i'm overjoy enjoy.
e rest r not impt at all.
baby jus called, should nt had left my hp in e living room.
so long then pick up his call.
so happy to see a call from him.
i'm sorry baby for picking up ur call after so long.
seldom log into msn now also le. no one i can chat wif.
my life is gd enough wif him.
i jus wanna chat wif him more but nt others.
frenz which are ard mi is always priscilla n michelle.
they will always be my close bud.
nth much today.
woke up in e morning jus feeling abit nt rite.
uclers r damn pain. sneezing non-stop. abit of hang over on my head.
can even feel e giddyness in my head.
but still i crawl my way to school.
banking and finance today.
teacher had been saying is a easy moudle to pass.
but i don't think so.
i seem so blur in evereything.
after class, as usual.
went over to lucky plaza had my lunch, then to mac to study.
till ard 2+ i realli feeling unwell.
so dear acc mi to bus-stop then i took a bus hm le.
reached hm, bathe, went striaght to slp.
woke up at 7+ had my dinner lie down on e sofa for tv till nw.
i jus don't feel rite in mi. getting sick soon? i hope not.
is time for 9pm show.

is love just all about having each another? i don't think so.
i jus think that love is smt tat having ur love ones with u, giving them all e love, care n concern. be there when they need you. comfort them. understand each another. listen to every pieces of advice from them. n TRUST of coz. that's my everything to baby. hope that he can feel it. love him.

i hope you know you mean e WORLD to me!

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

i'm so damn boring !
so decided to blog. jus finish watching e princess hours in channel U.
nice show. now still waiting for mum to cook.
well.. went back to school today, lesson on business com.
today is on e unit editing skills. i HATE tat manx. so damn hard.
after school went over to lucky plaza, had my lunch.
after tat went into mac to study alone.
as n went baby come n find him.
today he working rite infront of mac.
so easiler.
i'm so happy to see baby today.
study till ard 3+ then baby send mi off to mrt le. toook a bus hm from orchard mrt.
once i aboard e bus, heavy rain start. lucky mi.
reached hm helped mum to wash clothes, bathe and rested awhile on my bed.
feeling so great !
till 7pm jus nw watched tat korea show.
had being waiting for dear's sms.
but he seem busy. so long never had a great sms with dear le.
i miss him.

CHENG WEE LIANG is attached to mi once n for all.
no one can rub him away from mi.
i wanna be wif him for e rest of my life, i promised !
*once's i say i love u, it gonna mean it forever.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

jus had my 2nd round of dinner. i'm so damn full now.
woke up at 11+ tis morning. had my breakfast.
then ard 1+ had my lunch. was waiting for baby to call or msg mi. but nahs. guess to PH he mus be busy ba.
after that went to do some mugging.
then on my com to change my blogskin.
is in green tis time.
i find it kinda nice. =)
after tat my mum came home n asked mi to get change,
acc her to her malay frenz hs at bt panjang for visiting.
so i went down wif her ard 5+.
e malay family was so damn friendly.
aunties tok. so damn funny.
had my 1st round of dinner there.
e lontong that they cooked was great ! yum yum.
after tat sit down n listen to aunties toks wif some snacks till 8+ then we went hm le.
tot of meeting baby after his work for movie. wanted to watch death note.
but movie started onli at 8.50pm. it last for 2 hrs. reached hm will be damn late. so can't.
reached hm had a bathe n watched e 9pm show.
so damn nice. ard 10pm i had my 2nd round of dinner wif dad till so damn full !
guess now is time to call baby n turn to bed.
tml is another day for school again.

boy, i missing you badly.
once i say i love u, i will love u forever !

Sunday, October 22, 2006

hmm.. gonna make a quick blog b4 i go help my dad in e housework.
well... how's was my ytd? is a family day for mi. wee~
when to market in e morning wif family n my baby crystal.
after tat reached hm get change then we make our way down to vivo city.
so many ppl there !
maybe is new ba. so many ppl tot tat baby crystal was my baby. gosh !
how i wish she was mine* =x
we walked e whole vivo. so tired can.
after tat ard 8+ then we went over to yishun. my aunt place.
bring crystal home.
then mum stayed awhile to chit-chat wif my aunt.
went home ard 10 +pm.
i'm damn shit tired !
but i can't realli slp well in e nite. was kinda hungry.
coz ate dinner at 4+. was like damn early.
tat's my day for ytd =)

>>> my model ! baby crystal in winter wear. so cute =)

today woke up at 9pm. so tired norh.
my aunt brought crystal over at 8+. coz they haf to wash their new hs. no one look after her.
i'm like her baby sis. =( but nvm. i LOVE her ! she so damn cute. hee.
no more plan for today. wee~
but later ard 3 gonna bring crystal back to my aunt place at yishun then gonna stay there till nite time. my aunt wan mi to help out.
hopefully tonight i get to meet baby.
i MISSED him loads.
alright. time for house cleaning wif dad !
blog again soon.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

joey gonna make a PROMISE here to baby that she wont TEARS anymore !

indeed our life will go HAPPINESS w/o anymore SADNESS ~

i JUST wanna be the ANGEL of your life,

i LOVE u loads baby !

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

hmmm.. took a break from mugging. gonna mug till almost fall aslp le. tot i could get a msg from him. but.... hais. well well.. recently some mis-understanding happens between mi n him. maybe is my fault ba. can't be a perfect gf for him. i promised him i will msg him every morning when i woke up. but i didn't ytd. hai. maybe wat my dad say is rite. i'm brainless ; forgetfull. i really had to tell baby tat i'm sorry. i should nt had broke those promises. but wat had happen had already happened. time wont turn back. n i will take it a lesson to mi. pick up my mistake ba. i realli hope tat baby can accept my mistake. it realli hurt to see him tis way. i realli hope to see e smile back on his face once again. without his words, caring n loving tis few days. something jus seems to be lost in my life. every moment i jus stare at my hp to his reply. i realli need him. missed him so so badly.

ytd when to work at novena. nth much. cousins n e gf came to look for mi ard late evening. bought tee shirt. n he bought mi a adidas bag from here. =) thanx* today knock off sharp at 9.30pm. i don't know wat's was on my mind till i can even took a wrong train to tao phayo. then i quickly alight n took another train back to newton. reached newton at 9.50pm le. waited 10 min for bus 700 but e bus uncle dun stop. coz too many ppl le. waited for another 10 min. still e uncle dun wan to stop. then i waited for e 3rd 700. is came onli afte 15 min. but still e uncle dun let us aboard. so i walked down to another bus stop which was 10 min away. so far ! i'm damn tired at tat moment. but no choice. e road was so dark n scary. =( reahed tat bus stop waitied for 960. suddenly took out my hp from my bag, n saw a miss call from my mum. so i called back hm. bro ans. so i told him i still waitin for bus. ask him tell mummy go slp first.was about to hang up e fone after tat, my hp auto off. totally no batt. kip on tryin to on again so tat i can msg dear, but still can't. hais. after tat i reached hm onli at ard 11.45pm.

today when back to school. nth much. as usual i'm alone. msged dear e whole morning. kip on lookin at my hp during lesson. but still no reply from him. i'm real sad. after sch end, i went over to lucky plaza food court to ate my lunch. tot i will be able to see him. but he say he can't leave his shop. so after i eat, i jus went to pee at him. dun think he know ba. after tat i took a train down to yishun my aunt place le. stayed there till 6+pm then took a train home. so tired. when i almost reached home, dad called mi. ask mi buy bread b4 i come home. so i went to NTUC under my blk there to buy it then go home. reached hm changed le, suddenly i found out tat my hp was missing? finding up n down for it. then i run all e way down to NTUC to find it. tot i left it there. but still dun haf. then i came hm. then i found it at e basket where i put dirty clothes. how blur can i be. am i too stress? hais. bathe, eaten dinner n start my mugging le. after tis post gonna go back to mugging le. just hoping he will gib mi a call later. =( tml gonna be my first mouldes for banking and finance.

many things jus stress in my mind. guess my mind is in e messy nw. school work r making mi go round. hai.

>>>>> do i look like her? felicia chin? i dun think so. but when i am outside buying food. e aunt can even say she is my sister =.='''

Sunday, October 15, 2006

b0o ! it had been a few days since i last blogged. recently been busy over school and work. 15th anniversary had jus past for mi n hubby. spend tat lovely 3 days wif him. went for a movie at vivo city. tot is jus a movie. but i'm glad. i dun wish to ask for more nw. but jus having him by my side daily. sometimes there do some mis-understanding between us. but we r strong enough to solve it all. coz our promies will always stay deeply in our hearts.

well.. hw's my day today? tiring... suppose to help baby open shop in maple tis morning when i woke up. but something happen to my com tat make mi can't enter into maple. dunno wat's wrong. *i'm sorry baby* i jus repair it. and now i'm re-downloading maple. i hope it gonna be fine. so tat tml i can help baby open shop before i go to work. aunt came n fetch mi today at 10.45am to their new home. is a 5 story house. damn big ! but damn tiring. i'm there helping out whole day. looking after crystal, helping to build e lighting, making e kitchen stuff and more.. is damn tiring but kinda fun. =))

tml gonna be a working day for mi le. my week gonna be full wif working time n schooling time. guess gonna be another tiring week for mi. my back had been aching for 4 days le. sigh sigh*onli on e left side of my shoudler r aching damn badly. dunno wat's wrong wif it. hai.

`see u smile every moment will jus simply brighten up my day.

`baby, i MISS u badly. =(

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

MeAnInGfUl~

If a girl cries in front of you,
it means that she couldn't take it anymore.
If you take her hand,
she would stay with you for the rest of yourlife;
If you let her go,
she couldn't go back to being herself anymore.

A girl wont cry easily,
Except in front of the personwho she love the most,
she becomes weak.
A girl wont cry easily,
only when she loves you the most,
she put down her ego.

Guys,if a girl cries bcoz of youplease hold her hands firmly,
she's the one who would staywith you for the rest of your life.
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you,
please dont give her up,
maybe bcoz of your decision,
you ruin her life.

When she cries right in front of you,
When she cries bcoz of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?

Think.Which other girl has criedwif pure sincerity,
Infront of you,And bcoz of you?
She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy or pity,
She cries,
Because crying silently is no longer possible,the pain,hurt,n agony
have become too big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys,Think about it,
If a girl cries her heart out 2 you,
And all because of you,
Its time to look back on wat u have done,
Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,
Coz one day,
It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "im sorry".

*is simply jus a meaningfull poem tat is saw in pat's blog. nice poem =))

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

awww.. how's my day? today is e first day of school for mi at BMC. nth much. all my classmate r gals. nt suprised. coz is a business admin course. got alot of wired ppl. today e teacher jus teach us on business letter. it's everything i know. last yr in ITE learned le. lesson end at 12.30pm. after tat went over to lucky plaza to had my lunch then go mac study. dear came mac to acc mi awhile then go hm le. study till 3pm. my stomach real cramps like hell. can't take it. then dear acc mi to wait for bus then i go hm le. reached hm took a bathe then went for a nap. jus woke up nt long so decided to come online to blog then go watch tv after tat. my mouth so pain =( gt a big big ucles. drink water oso feel e pain. haiiz. hopefully it recover soon. alright, gonna end it here le. update again soon.

`- i wanna go for a long travelling wif u. to relax myself. i feel there's loads of stress coming in mi. haii. i hope i can.
`- words enter my heart, hardly it will come out. i simple jus nid u to take it out.
`- suddenly tot of i had alot of stuff to do wif u. but i dun haf e chance or time too. i wan to lead a happy life wif u. tru out my whole life. wat i tot sometimes dun seems to happen. but as long my baby u is happy. i'm glad i'm too. n i jus hope i can make u happy tru out my whole life.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

`happy belated birthday to my grand mother =))
last sunday, 1st oct. jus celebrated my grand ma 80 birthday at bukit batok CSC country club de resturant. 10 course meal. all my relative n cousin were there. so nice to see them all. everyone had grow fat ! but nt mi =( lols. all my small cousin r all fatty. they r all even fatter then i do. sad. anyway had a nice dinner n fun tat nite. =D

ytd, 2nd oct. went over to baby hs early in e morning. gt 5 days nv saw him le. at last ytd he is off ! so went over his place to acc him. so nice of mi rite? =)) whole day at his hs playing maple. we like kip on taking turns. i slp he play, he slp i play. lols. cooked lunch for him. porriage wif a few dishes. coz he having stomach ache. best is to eat porriage. dinner his sister husband buy back for us. i eaten duck rice. can't realli finish it. stay at baby hs till 10.45pm then baby gib mi money take a cab hm. tot is mapling wif him at hm. is gd enough for mi to acc him =D

today is a boring day for mi. i'm sick ! down wif light fever n stomach ache. can't realli eat. sigh* but my stomach is damn empty. whole afternoon was watching cartoon VCD. nth to do. jus nw went for a short nap. think i gonna take a bathe real soon. later going downstair book store to get some pen n stuff for my school tml. first day of school. evereything gonna start fresh for mi tml. time to go back to mugging days =D

Saturday, September 30, 2006

well... it had been sometimes i nv blog le. been busy working n no time for it. recently loads n loads of ups n downs between mi n him. maybe tis all wat god gave mi. i dunno. everything wasn't my fault. tryin v hard to explain everything to hubby. i hope he understand evreything. everything he saw was in e past. n last nite, everything was slove. i'm glad. both of us having smile back on our face. had nt been seeing him for past few days. due to my working time. i hope i'll get to see him today after my work end. realli missed him loads.

last wed, i had went to BMC to enrol for my school wif my parents. it at Dhoby Ghaut. it ard 3k. school gonna start on e 4 oct for mi. once school start, gonna mug hard for everything n wont let my parents down anymore. taking admin course. is ard a 1yr course. hopefully i can enrol to poly after tat. pat oso in e same course as mi. but her's at TM. next time we can do HW together le. =))

guess tml gonna be a busy day for mi. it's grandma 80th birthday. held at bukit badok CSC e resturant. $400 per table. is time to enjoy wif all my cousin n relative le =D guess going for swimming before tat with all my cousins. tat's a country club. beside e resturant is swimming pool le. but still gonna see e wheather first. alright, gonna end it here le. will update again soon. take care evreyone !

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

well... i guess it had been a long time since i last blogging. recently alot of ups n downs happen between mi n him. realli loads n loads of tears from. it jus can't be control. i know in e past i did loads of mistake, loads of lie. but i realli make a move n learn my mistake. realli regreted wat had i done in e past. tat nite, my tears had nt be stopping for more then 24 hrs. i recall myself once n once again. all my mistake. i willing to change now once n for all. jus for HIM !

seriously, i had never regret knowing him, attached to him. i had never done so so much change for him. i had never been so listening to my bf in e past. but he is e first one. i did it all for him. WHY? simply cause e love from him can never be rub off my mind. NEVER ! i'm doing so so much chnage now, and i realli hope he can feel it, see it. i realli nid all e trust back from him. those love n cares from him can never be missed. i realli hope tat one day e promise ring from him can come to mi soon. jus from him.

*oh dear ! i saw a nike watch today at lucky plaza. totally love it alot. but... haiiz.. dunno when then i will ba able to get it =(*

Friday, September 08, 2006

w0o ! blogging time. dunno wat is hubby doin wif his maple now. make mi wait so long. so late le he still dun wan go bathe n let mi play. hubby is smellin ! =p *but i like =)* hehex. well.. got to work wif juliana today at OG orchard. so fun working wif her. time past so fast ! but today she claim hours. so she when home at 5.45pm. left mi alone there so lonely =( but lucky i still gt one malay auntie beside to tok to mi. hahaz. i'm so sad ! those levi gals, fila gals all named mi polly pockets. coz juliana say i look like it. so she told everyone abt it. so now i'm e polly pockets in OG orchard. but seriously i dun mind =) i enjoy talking wif them. hehex. hu ask mi so small size. =D do closing alone today. hubby came to wait for mi today at my work place. so nice of him =) *muackz. can see tat he looked tired. but he still wanting to come n fetch mi. love him so much ! after knock off we walked ard then he send mi off at bus stop. acc mi to wait for bus. then we go hm le. think i gonna get slping soon. tml working at suntec. gonna be another tired day for mi. IMF is here. sigh* take care everyone !

`-x n0 matter where my mind iis. u r always being stopped riite deeply iin my heart !

Monday, September 04, 2006

w0o ! nice rite? =) tis is e diamond ring from SK jewellery. i find it damn nice. but guess is damn ex ! *when is my diamond riing coming?* oh dear, joey is dreaming all day long.

well.. today didn't when to work. morning came home from dear place. last nite we went to his frenz wedding dinner at royal hotel. after tat went back dear place. so tired ! i slept at 2am. tis monring woke up late. then dear late for work. we 2 was like slping till so nice tru out e nite. was at hm today e whole day. took a nap in e afternoon till ard 4pm. then woke up eat my lunch n help dear play maple. so nice of mi rite? once i nv work i help him level up. tml gonna be a maple day for mi again. jus now from 5pm i play maple all e way to 9+pm. my finger r numb ! lolz. stop at 9+ jus nw for my dinner. bro bought ti back for mi. =) guess gonna stop here n gib baby a call le. nites everyone !

i had a sweet n wonderful nite wif u, baby !

simply jus love ya more then everything.

Friday, September 01, 2006

ha. jus found a pic tat my "les" partner michelle kissed mi ! lolz. *guess my BF gonna be jealous =p*

hmmm... so wat had joey doiin lately? well.. recently kip on working. if not then stay at hm playing dear's maple acc. nth much recently. today is e first day of a new month. sept. my working days for sept mostly r at OG orchard. nt bad working over there. got aunties to tok too. time past faster. today worked wif a guy in adidas. *i dun even know wat's his name* dun bother too. i jus do my job to serve customers tat's wat i know. lucky tml i'm working wif a gal there. before i start work today, i went to meet dear awhile for lunch. went over to wisma de food court. after eatin then dear acc mi wait for bus then i go work le. after work went hm alone. took bus 190 back. so damn many ppl. make mi stand all e way from town back hm =( so tiring. there's a gal ard my age i saw jus nw at bus stop while waitin for 190. she's working at levi in OG orchard too. when bus arrived, she like one of those auntie tat fight for places to sit. she dun even know hw to get her butt off to let those old ppl sit. e old ppl beside mi so poor thing. stand all e way jus like i do. anyway i jus had my bathe. watin for my hair to dry tat's y came blogging. now gonna gib dear a call then go off to bed le. tml worikin at OG again. nites everyone !

i jus hope tat u r my FOREVER guy.

simply jus LOVE u more then anyone esle.

Monday, August 28, 2006

haii. i'm so exhusted. i dunno y. tis afternoon dunno y suddenly i gt a fever n bad headache. till i when for a nap after taking med n putting e cooling pack on my fore-head. after i woke up. i felt much more better le. my headache r gone. think tat cooling pack realli works. =) anyway i feel bad jus nw. promised baby tat i will help him level up for his maple today de. but coz of my sickness then i nv help him play much. i'm sorry baby* think i gonna slp early tonight then tml morning can get up abit earlier to help him play maple. =) take care everyone !

Saturday, August 26, 2006

ha ! i look so aunt n toot. tat me iin my messy look at home =) ugly hor? =)

haii. i dunno. i dun seem to be in a right mood. my stomach upset mi. ppl out there pissed mi off. no one understand mi ! realli no one can touch my heart n get e feelin of mine. no matter wat i do i seem to be in e wrong. everyone blames mi. n i will jus kip quiet n let them scold all they wan. i know i can't talk back. i dun haf e energy to do so. watever i do jus hope tat i can help out. tat's all. seeing the person happy i might be happy too. sometimes i jus feel so stress. evreything will jus come one shot. e feelin is jus like a gun shotting at mi ! maybe i will get it over n get a new fresh day tml morning when i wake up.

hmmm.. can god help mi? help mi to bring all my actions to my beloved hubby. coz onli god knows wat i'm doin now. i might nid god help. if nt i dunno how i can make my hubby trust mi again. i had been doin everything realli truely since tat last quarrel day. i realli wish i can show all my truely to him now. but whatever i do he jus can't see it. how he gonna haf e trust back on mi? i realli realli nid it back deeply. i LOVE him. n i realli know all e mistake in e past. i blame myself for all those. now i jus hope tat our love can go deeper n back to e past. where e trust for each another still there. god, pls help mi !

anyway mi n hubby jus closed down out friendster acc. we both think tat we dun nid any more friends now. each another is wat we nid now. well.. recently had been spendin a number of day at hubby place. coz he took 4 days off. after tat 4 days off. both of us r back to busy at our work again. damn tiring. how i wish school gonna start real soon for mi. i still missed school life no matter how. working life jus seems bad in mi. my stomach had been aching on n off. i dunno y i seems to had tis problem since i'm young. no matter how many doc's i had visited. e med jus dun seems to cure. my aches will still come back as n when. i hate it. it gonna be pain like hell. think i gonna go for a real x-ray or sometimes to check wat's wrong wif my stomach.

ytd had my first day work at cathey. i think tat's e best n nicer adidas outlet so far. is nice n neat over there. but one thing i dun like abt is e air con ! it can cold till we ppl got freeze. even customer complain to us abt it. but we can't do anything abt it. coz e air con is adjust by e cathey mangement. nt us. well... gonna end it here le. Later still gonna work 3.30pm at suntec. will up-date soon. take care everyone !

Saturday, August 12, 2006

i jus puked, i dunno y. maybe i tears too much. after i reached home, i dun seem to get a single calls or msg from him. sigh* everything gonna be my fault. once n once again i fail to change. i know is all my fault. jus wrote a letter to u. i dunno wheather should i gave it to u. i dun even know if u gonna read it or throw it. guess i nt gonna say much here. all i wanted to say i had wrote it in tat letter. once again hubby, I'M REALLY VERY SORRY ! please believe n trust mi once more. i jus nid tis from you. from tis post n e letter. tis gonna prove tat i will change n wont gib u those hurts le. i kow u too well. watever i say u wont be listening le. but still i gonna make my LAST promise to u.

i do love u deeply baby !

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

haii.. mugging for my taekwondo referee test tml till i almost fall aslp. suddenly so many things to study at one time. one whole booklet. jus nw while mugging, i was thinking can i dun take e exam? so stress. suddenly so many things back to my mind. going back to american for studies, referee exam, mother, grand ma. sigh ! today woke up at 9+, acc parents go to fajar market. for breakfast. after tat went home, bathe n get changed then went for praying at bt batok wif parents n uncle alan family. after praying then went back to grand ma hs le. so crowded at grand ma place today. jerry family, uncle alan family, big uncle, my family n of coz mandy family. coz they stayin wif grand ma mahz. today is singpore 41th birthday. we like gather up to celebrate for it. hahaz. e new maid so nice. make donut for us to eat. n cooked alot of stuff. n e donut is damn NICE ! yum yum. spend e whole day at grand ma hs. then everyone was saying monday 14 aug, grand ma nid to go to alexendar hospital for brain scan. appointment at 8.30am. my mum asked mi to acc my aunt n maid there. i was like -.-''' monday 14 aug was mi n hubby e 13th month anniversary ! then was thinking, now gt maid le. still mi to follow? haii. think i gonna find a excuse for them. today dun get to meet hubby again. coz he say he feelin giddyness. so i asked him go home early to rest norhx. then mi at grand ma hs watched NDP till 8+ then go home le. reached home, bathe then watched e 9pm show at channel 8. ha. nice show ! watched till 10pm then went to mug for my taekwondo exam. stress. i dun seems to know anything. so many stuff to pick up. hubby called mi jus nw ask mi call him after i finish mugging. think i goin back to study abit then go call him le.

i MISSING baby so badly !

uU r e love i searching for a life-time.

wif totally no regret !

i simply jus niid u

joey HEART liang !

*my ex jus send mi a sms, invited mi to his 18th birthday chalet. on e 27 i think. hmmm.. i never reply him. i'm sorry. i wont be there unless my boyfriend tag along.*

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

b0o ! back to blogging. let mi haf a short blog well waitin for dear to be home. he went dinner wif his friends after work. hmmm.. ytd went back to work at novena sq. as usual. nth much. after work meeted dear. so happy to see him. dunno y whenever i saw him. my feelin is damn great. sometimes i realli dream we can get married soon after my studies n stay together. *am i thinkin too much?* whenever i meet him, how i wish our hand wont let it go. always holdin tight.

hmmm... today first time working at OG orchard. there so ma fan. mus change pass n can't use hp ! damn sianz. there totally no customer de. time hardly to past tot i work from 1-7pm. after i knock off, i took a bus to PS. jus one bus-stop away. ha ! i'm too lazy to walk. meeted aunts n uncles there. n my 3 little bao bei newpew n nieces is there =)) but is tiring chasing my crystal ard too ! ha. shop ard after tat went to food court to eat then god-dad drove mi home le. i'm so tired ! my legs r aching too. haiz. now 12.05am le. hubby haven call mi, means he haven reach home. hai. so late le. he is gettin lesser slp each day. worried for him*

my past. present. and future will never leave u. my life plus your's. is my everything. i will always love u. i hope u will do so too k? you're my everything. my sunshine. your smile. your warmth. i don't wanna miss any part of it. and i hope u'll feel the same. we'll always be together. our story never ends...

Saturday, August 05, 2006

b0o ! i'm here jus gonna make a quick blog then go slp le. i'm damn tired ! well.. woke up today at 10+am. bathe n prepare myself then meeted my taekwondo junior at jurong at 12.15pm. they reach onli at 12.30pm ! make mi wait. -.-''' nvm. then we took a bus there. it took us ard 1 hr + to reach NTC (national training center) at wompao. reached there when to e coffee shop to eat. ate duck rice. nt realli nice. after tat 2pm then we walked up to e NTC. reached outside e hall. e coach started e lesson le. ha. we r LATE ! lucky nv get scolded. coach ask us to join in. e lesson was kinda boring. is a theory lesson. gonna make mi slp. tml is another lesson from 9-2pm. today lesson ended at 5.30pm. 30 min early. went striaght to grand ma hs after tat. maid had arrive at grand ma place to look after her. guess i haf less worry le. e maid looked nt bad. my 3 little cousin mus be double happy. coz gt maid le. ha. they stayin wif grand ma. now they dun nid to help out in hs-work le. can relax n study hard le. n e maid v funny. dunno hw to speak eng. went i go downstair to dad's car to help dad take things, she take my sock go wash. ha ! she is damn FAST ! she tot i stayin wif grand ma oso. then i say nvm. wash le then i take home. ate dinner at grand ma hs. after tat watch super band till ard 9.30pm then dad drive us home. so damn tired ! jus bathe. think i gonna gib dear a call n off to bed i go le. tml haf to wake up at 6+. sigh ! nites everyone !

chatting wif u is all i wan. w/o hearin ur voice one day i will feel uneasy. jus wish to hear u smile all day. ur voice ; ur heart ; ur love ; ur caring ; all tis will jus make my heart go melt. i missing u so badly baby !

hopefully ur head recover le. darling *sayang* u k? mauck muackz !

`o4.o8.o6

ha ! i dunno y suddenly tat 2 bitch n sluty appear in my taggi again. well.. gals, show urself out manx.

hmmm.. dear 2 days of off days jus passed tis way. so so fast. tis time round. his off days we stayed at home. for 2 full days. i cooked all meals for him. *he's my lucky guy izzn't it?* =D but i always thinkin tat is loving n a great thing to cook for someone u loved. nth much abt ytd n today. coz we played MS at home. most of e time hubby is playing. i jus help him play awhile while he fall aslp. =) he looked so tired. coz every nite slpt onli at 2+. played MS all nite. tis is something he wont be missing. acc dear to punggol plaza to had his hair hair jus nw. cutted short. NICE =D reached home i helped him to dye it back to black. i simple jus LOVE his hair now =) well.. his big sister jus came back from japan. she got mi a hello kitty mirror from there. a purple edition. is NICE =) thanx manx. n she bought a japan clothing for keano. look at tat pic. keano is wearing it. so cute =) played wif keano till 10pm. then dear bring keano down to bus stop together wif mi to send mi home. keano v scare of hubby. dunno y oso. i carry him he kip on turnin here n there. but when hubby carry him, he dun dare to move. ha. so funny.reached home bathe n here i'm bloggin. gonna offline n call hubby n cook my noodles le. i'm damn HUNGRY ! ha. tml having taekwondo referee course at NTC. from 2-6pm. gonna be a tired day for mi. nites everyone !

haiiz. jus received a e-mail from my american aunt. asked mi to go over for study after my private school. i DON WAN too ! sigh. y mus mi be e one tat kip on mus go over n had a life there. i jus wish to stay in SG aunt. sigh.

13th anniversary is coming for us. i hope i can enjoy it to e fullness wif u. spend our 2 days fully up wif event n fun. jus wif u. there r loads of places n stuff i jus wann go n do it wif u. simply love ya loads baby. always wish n hope tat i can see ur smile on ur face. i love e soft touch of u. e kisses on my lips. my heart do tears sometimes if i gonna see u sad or having moodless. hope tat i'm always e one to cheer u up n be by ur side wif full of happiness n love !

i'm afriad ; i'm afriad.

pls show mi all ur love for mi baby!

hugs !

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

b0o ! i'm here jus to do a short blog. tis few day had nt been slping enough coz nid to wake up early to look after grand ma. guess i gonna slp early today after hubby had called mi. wee ~ tml gonna see hubby le. MISSED him so much ! 5 days nv saw him le. at last he is off tml n fri =) well.. how's my day? same stuff. went over grand ma place at 5.30am tis morning. ate breakfast at 6am. after tat slack at grand ma hs. do nth. wanted to slp but can't fall aslp. but i damn slpy. dunno y. haiiz. after 12 noon. helped grand ma to get changed, then wait for my aunt n uncle come fecth her go opps e clinic for check up. after tat go home le. e doc wan to refer grand ma to alxendar hospital for a brain scan on e 14 aug. mi n hubby de 13th months anniversary. dun think i can acc grand ma to hos le. anyway gt my aunt n by then maid will be here. ard evening, after eating dinner then dad drove us hm le. reached hm watched tv till now. gonna go off to bed after i blog. tml morning going over to hubby house. hmmm.. end it here le. nites everyone ! =)

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

`o1.o8.o6

hai ! my stomach is killin mi. i never had tis type of feeling before ! i dun even had e energy to walk or help grand ma. haiz. e med does nt seems to be helpful. well.. woke up at 5.30am tis morning. even since i grad from ite. i think today is e day tat i woke up so early n had my breakfast so early. dad drive mi to grand ma hs b4 he send bro to camp. everyone nid to work today. n i'm off. so i nid to look after my grand ma. sigh ! i'm tired. today is e 4th day i nv saw hubby le. i MISSED real badly. feelin so wired. tis thursday n friday he is off. i'm working on thursday. haiz. still finding ppl to replace mi. gosh ! my stomach is killing mi. i'm soo boring at grand ma place. tml still nid to take care of her one more day b4 e maid come on thursday =( i'm real TIRED ! dunno y i can't slp over here. think is becoz my stomach pain is kiling mi ba. haiz...

*sluty n bitches girls, u dun even dare or try mi out. if u HATE mi simply GET OFF my life. 7th month is here. i dun nid u ghosts to hang ard in my blog. if u DARE, come out n meet mi. my life got totally nth to do wif SLUTY n BITCHES girls !*

Monday, July 24, 2006

`24.o7.o6
well... j0eyy is back here to blogging. had nt being blogging for ard 9 days le. nth much also. busy going down to hospital last week to visit n take care of grand ma. she falled at home last sat afternoon, then was send to NUH. 4 stiches behind her head. i feel pain n worried. she send in hospital for ard 4 1/2 days. i went there everyday till her discharge mi n dad went over to fetch her home. she can't walk more now. her legs are damn weaks. she no longer e last time grand ma i knew. suddenly she become so so weak. onli feel tired n wanted to slp all day. day by day i'm worried. after she discharge from hospital. whenever i'm nt working. i will go over to her place to take care n tok to her whole day. i wan to spend more of my time on her. she already 80 yrs old le. haiiz. went over to visit her today again. her legs start to become swallow. dunno why also. sometimes i dun understand y, she gt 12 grand children, included mi. 3 stay wif her. my brother in camp. why e rest of e 7 grand children dun even visit her for 5 min? dunno wat make them all so busy at oso. my heart sometimes realli realli felt e pains in it by seeing her tis way.

helped dear played MS today at grand ma house when she's aslp in e afternoon. help him up to level 14. then he jus called mi say y his dunno wat points all changed? i say i never touch or click onto any of e items, but jus hit those monsters. he sounded pissed off n told mi tat nid to restart all over again. haiiz. think i next time better dun touch his MS le. hopefully he can slove it n dun nid to replay everything. my heart feelin bad =( he stayin up past few days till 2+am jus to play his MS. then morning still nid to wake up for work. guess he had nt being slping enough. worried tat he might get sick again =(

`- my mind was thinking abt u all day n nite
`- my heart was beating harder every second whenever i missed u
`- i need u and i realli do
`- i can even gib up everything on mi jus for U
`- my heart will never STOP beating till e day u r GONE
`- u had realli make a FULL-STOP to my love

Saturday, July 15, 2006

`15.O7.O6
b0o ! j0ey is back to blogging le. had nt been updating for long. FIRST year anniversary had jus past for mi n hubby. so happy to spend e last 2 days wif him. when over his place on e 13th early in e morning. after tat we slack at hm till afternoon then we when down to town. SHOP SHOP N SHOP. =D can say we enjoyed our time together. but dear was having a bad bad flu. so ard 8+ we took a train hm le. back to his place. his sister cooked dinner. so we eat. after tat went for a bathe then we slpt le. slpt kinda early. coz hubby nt feeling well. he kip on sneeze n sneeze. but b4 he slp, he die die oso wan download his maplestory first.

woke up e next morning at ard 12 noon. suddenly dear got a fever when he woke up. so damn HOT ! so i asked him to stay at hm. i went down to punggol plaza NTUC to get some food. bought bread, red beans, hot-dogs. n bought him a herbel tea to drink. came back cooked everything n real to eat. after eating, use com awhile then we went back for our afternoon slp. coz dear was like damn sick? hmmm... woke up att 5pm, then i went down to punggol plaza to bought porriage come back to eat. n bought him e fever pack. after eatin, he played maplestory all e way till 10pm ! pro rite? then i gt no choice haf to acc him play then watch tv. went keano came hm, i played wif him =D at last gt someone to play wif mi. ha. took a few photo wif him.

so cute le him. lolz. so many pattern. i LOVE his eyes =) after watchin tv till 10pm then dear acc mi down to take a cab home.

* tot we spend our first year anniversary at home due to ur sickness. but i guess i'm happy enough to haf u by my side. *

*i LOVE ya to e fullness hubby !*

*promise mi never gonna leave mi alone*

*i'm REALLY scare of darkness.*

Friday, July 07, 2006

`o7.o7.o6
b0o ! had nt been bloggin for sometimes le.nth much past few days. jus tat i'm SICK. =( being stayin at hm. eat, slp n watch tv. but nth esle le.

tis is e poor joey when she is having fever for e past few days. =(

but after wed, my fever is gone le. then when down to meet dear at his work place. at last ! i got to see him after 3 days of suffer. missed him so so badly. back to work ytd. at novena. nth much happen. great thing is tat i get to see hubby after work outside my work place =) so nice of him sending mi home all nite tot he is tired. poor dear. nvm. darling gonna pamper u on e 13th n14th to pay u back =) muackz !
7 more days to our 1year anniverary ! wee ~
`i wont be able to update my blog tat often le. till my com is repair =( coz bro wont be stayin in camp anymore. he will be home all day. =(

Monday, July 03, 2006

sick sick jus woke up de joey. =(

`o2.o7.o6

hmm... suppose to blog tis ytd. but i can't online. so ytd i wrote it in my personal dairy n wanted to blog it here today =)

dear dairy,

i dunno y. i seem to tears easily. i'm damn damn sick tis few days. bring locked myself at home today. i no longer feel anything at tis moment. jus feeling so so weak. till i can't even get myself off my bed. at tis moment of time, i jus hope tat i could haf him rite by my side.acc mi. tis is all i wished for. but i can't haf it. coz i do understand tat he haf to work. whenever i missed him, i tears. he seem to be every single moment in my tears. i dun blame him for nt spending e time wif mi, coz i know even he nt wif mi, our heart touches. a very deep feeling tat i feel. i realli missed him loads. i tears while i lying on e sofa jus now. my mum asked mi wat's wrong? i told her e true, i need to see wee liang. she told mi tat i'm sick. how am i gonna find him? i tears again. how i wish every day when i open my eyes, i got to see him rite by beside mi. my world is white went i saw him. but my world turned dark n black when he is not wif mi. and tat's e moment i tears. i dun understand why do i tears so easily. but seriously i realli do MISS him loads ! i dunno how can i express my feeling. at tis moment of time, i jus know tat i need him more then anyone esle. i only wan him to stay by my sideto take care of mi. sometimes i asked myself, had i gave in too much LOVE in tis relationship? but after so much i tot, i still think tat whenever i put in is not a waste and it gonna worth it forever with no regrets in mi.

`o3.o7.o6

nth much happens today. being locked myself at hm whole day again. thanx michelle for visiting mi. n thanx to those ppl tat caring for mi. n nt forgettin my lovely hubby tat had been worries for mi for days. LOVE him !

Friday, June 30, 2006

got tis rose pic from kenrick friendster. is a 99 rose. so NICE ya? =)

`29.o6.o6

had a TIRED day out there. having stomach ache again. sigh sigh*

`- watever i do seem to be wrong to everyone !

`-how i wish those hugs n kisses jus nw were nv let go.

`-simply LOVE ya loads.

`-LOVE e warm from u !

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

`26.06.06

AHHH !!! my head is aching like hell ! =(sigh* i NEED u to be by my side. dun get to meet u today. was out wif parents e whole day. guess today SUN was real big till my head was aching. =( even my dad now having a fever of 38 degree. see him like v xin ku. sigh* stupid wheather. coz everyone to SICK ! hai. jus ate my med. gonna lie on my bed n wait for hubby call le. i REALLY missed him loads =( had not blogging for e past few days. but days was gettin great wif him. simply LOVE him loads.

*let.mi.be.ur.baby.FOREVER !

Saturday, June 24, 2006

`24.o6.o6
morning everyone ! jus woke up nt long. jus gonna make a quick blog before i go prepare for my work at 3.30pm. today working at suntec. but i gt totally no mood to work. stomach so pain ! =( well well... something bad happen abt mi n him ytd. but i guess is my fault tis time round. i jus gonna thank for wat had happen. tis make our LOVE goes deeper ! hmmm.. gonna go prepare for my work le. blog again soon ba. take care !

*LOVE is all about YOU !*

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

`21.o6.o6
someone had told mi before ;
- there's no FOREVER in LOVE at our age.
- LOVE will jus come n go easily without knowing.
- falling in LOVE is something hurt.
- LOVE jus like WIND

but after 14.o7.o5,

i found out tat whatever i heard before was all WRONG ! LOVE could jus last at our age if both parties agrees. LOVE wont go off easily if both parties TREASURE it. falling in LOVE isn't anything tat seems to hurt. neither is LOVE jus like a WIND. jus tat in a relationship, time is gonna be like WIND. after tat very first day i started wif u, i feel tat i'm SAFE. someone hu will always be there for mi in my HEART. u could say watever i say can be a LIE next time. coz no one know wat will happens tml? but i can tell u, watever i say is TRUE. is weather u gonna BELIEVE in mi. u gonna be my FIRST n LAST one. i got NO love before in e past. no one had gave mi tat word PERFECT. but u do. i might be stubborn n attitude at times. sometimes i jus dun know how to express my feeling to u. but jus typing or writin it out. for NOW, i onli know, watever i wrote n type it out is REAL !

*where ever i go. i jus wan u to be my side.*

something i jus dunno hw i gonna type it out. i jus hope tat e TRUST i got from u is FULL trust.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

`19.o6.o6
t0 : myONEnONLYweeLIANG

everything u saw is all e past.
i understand how u feel when u saw it.
i feel BAD !
real real BAD !
but e onli think i can tell u is,
watever i had done n given u,
is wat i NEVER does in e past b4.
tat for SURE !
i hope tat u will BELIEVE in mi.
u r e onli guy i LOVE hubby !

fr0m: urONEnONLYj0ey

Thursday, June 15, 2006

`15.o6.o6
b0o ! time for blogging le. finally joey is back home. but tonight no hubby to acc mi le =( i MISSED him !! well... woke up today ard 11am. then help dear dye his hair then we online awhile ard 12+ we go out le. went down to funan, find jason to buy e window xp cd-rom. finally dear gt it. after tat we went down to lucky plaza. dear work place. asked his frenz to help him install it n install e anti-virus stuff. went to lucky plaza to eat after tat went over to far east to buy my belt. after tat went to isatan to buy my dad presents. bought a polo tee for him. after tat we went back to dear work place then slack till ard 5.10pm. we went to lido to watch a movie. watched slither. M18 show. nt bad. but nt tat scary. haha. i fall aslp in during e movie ! opps* too tired le. ha. after movie we went back to dear work place to collect his lappy n our stuff. then we went to wisma to had our dinner. but onli mi eating. dear say he nt hungry =( after tat he send mi home le. gt a real tired day. reached my place he went to my hs de toilet then he go off le. b4 he go off, he took out a ipod nano n e casing for mi. oh dear ! i'm so touched ! task task. he is e onli guy tat can gib mi all i wan. nt even in stuff, but in LOVE too. he is e onli one tat can warm my heart ! i LOVE him to e core. n i realli do. well... got a great nite wif him last nite. i realli love e time when he is by my side. e warm n hugs jus so great. well... gonna end it here le. now waitin for hubby to call. =D

*jus a 3 words 8 letter, I LOVE U !*

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

`14.o6.o6

guess wat day is today? is joey n her lovely hubby 11th months anniversary wor =) well.. well... i should say is nt easy for us to get tru together till here. it's real hard. but i did =D n i'm sure we gonna be together till e END of our life !! wif totally no regerts loving him. love him to e bites ! went over to his place tis morning at 8am. early hur? i was like damn tired ! reached his place ard 9. too tired till i went to continue my slp. both of us woke up at 12 noon. bathe n had our lunch at punggol plaza. after tat off we go to town. went down to funan. dear wanna buy laptop. so we went there to find jason to buy from him. after buying lappy, we went to lucky plaza dear work place to buy all e stuff then we went ard orchard to find e window XP installation cd-rom. went to ard 5 store. HMV,taka, lucky plaza. but we still can't find. *something happen in-between till we both went silent.* well... but i still continue going ard wif him TRY to find it. but still can't =( after tat we went back to lucky plaza n took all our stuff then we took a cab down back to funan. at tat moment is already 8.30pm. but e time we reached there all shop r close ! but we still went from level to level to find. but can't still =( can see tat dear r TIRED at tat moment. but he still say not. so we took a train back to dear hs. jus had our dinner n bathe. here i'm blogging. tml gonna be e last day tat i acc him. n we planned to go to BIRD PARK. hopefully it gonna be a GREAT one. nites everyone !

`i believe in myself tat our story gonna go on n on

`NEVER will it ends !

Monday, June 12, 2006

`12.o6.o6

wee~ jus changed my blog skins. nice ma? =D wah ! today helped mum to replace one of her promoter at work. e shop is like DAMN bored la. no ppl ard there de. no customer de.e whole day i was like staring at my hp waitin for dear reply? but he reply kinda slow. =( maybe coz of his stomach pain ma. he gt a diahorrea today. dunno wat happen. hopefully he is recover le. mum came n eplace mi at 5+. after tat i went down to town to meet dear. then dear came out from e work place awhile, we walked over to far east to walk ard. in e end doing SHOPPING ! ha. in 20 min he spend $100+? we bought one couples tee =)) dear bought 3 tee one jeans total. we r pro shopper manx. after tat went to buy drink for his frenz then i took a bus home le. nid to go hm early to help mum cook dinner today. well... now waitin for my beloved dear to call. my eyes r tired. gonna rest on my bed le. nites !

*yeah ! mummy agree mi n dear to spend e nites again out there on 14th june =)*

*i hope tat 11th anniversary gonna be a great one*

*LOVE.him*

Sunday, June 11, 2006

`11.o6.o5
well... ytd reached hm kinda late. n tired. tat's y nv blog. nth much abt ytd also. jus being working e whole day at expo. n so nice of hubby came all e way to expo to fetch mi =))

today went back to expo to work again. being so so slpy n tired e whole day. totally dun haf e mood to work manx =( end work at 7pm. went down to dear work place to wait for him to kknock off at 8pm. after tat he send mi home =)) snapping photo on e way home again. LOVE HIM !

*countdown 3 more days to our 11th months =D*

*it's realli nt easy for us to being tru*

*we gonna push it hard together forever !*

Saturday, June 10, 2006

`o9.o6.o6
woo ~ back to bloggin le. jus bathe n had my supper. full full le. well... had been working at suntec since ytd n today. had a fun day working there ! =) time realli fast there. hehex. n so nice of dear come fetch mi all nite. even tot i left shop onli at 10pm. he still acc mi home. oh ! i'm so touched. =D today b4 work start i when down to dear work place to find him. cooked fried rice for him. ha! so nice of joey rite? =p he say is nice, jus tat too cold le. but i think it taste badly le. =( n i'm late for work today ! ha. i reached work place onli at 4pm. suppose to start work at 3.30pm. lucky when i called mummy khing n told her i will be late she nv scold mi =) hmmm... now waitin for dear call. i MISSED him ! =( tml n sunday i'm gonna work at expo =( 11-9.30pm. sunday till 7pm. gonna be a tired weekends for mi. nites everyone !

-' i dont like you, cause i love you
-' i dont want you, cause i need you.
-' i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will die for you.
-' i wont live for you, but i will live with you.
-' i wouldnt do anyting cause i will do everyting.
-' i chose my life, cause you're my life.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

`o7.o6.o5

my COUGH is turning real real bad. had been eatin med for one week le. still e same. sigh ! no more voice. throat is hurting mi !

iNEEDuUnow !

iMISSEDuUbadly !

*stop being childish. if u dare come n tok face to face to mi. n nt playing ard my tag-board. taggi nt for u tis kind of idiots ! GET LOST !*

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

`o6.o6.o6

OINK OINK ! nice date today =) wah ! j0ey had nt been bloggin for a few days le. well... well.. ytd evening time when down to town wif michelle to apple center to repair my ipod shuffer n dear ipod video. my one can't be repair le. if wanna repair nid ard $200-$300. i rather buy a new one manz. dear de is over charged. so can repair in a few min times. after tat we went to shop ard then mi waitied till 9pm for dear to knock off from work. we ton outside. till noon then we went to TM, coz dear wanted to buy his face med. after buyin we went to punggol plaza to buy our lunch then back to his hs le. after eatin ard 4 then we both went for a nap. too TIRED le. till ard 6pm went up for bathe then dear send mi all e way hm. he wanted to go my hs downstair for a hair cut de. but who's know reach my hs downstair e shop today nv open. so we took a bus 920 to greenrigh. dear went there for a hair cut then ate our dinner there. after dinner, ard 9pm le. dear send mi home then he went hm le. guess he mus be tired le ba. *yawnz* i'm tired too. tml helpin mum to work whole day at expo. nid to wake up at 7.30 tml =( my ipod spoil le. tml no mp3 for joey le. sigh sigh* =(

*i really do enjoy e day n nite wif u. every single second was jus too great. but is sad tat e time being wif u real passin too fast ! but all e fun being wif u was jus gonna be a great moment in my mind =) i LOVE u. yes i DO. e feelin jus going real too deep.*

*i nid a bag. i nid a mp3. hu can get it for mi? =((*

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

`31.o5.o6
a TIRING day ! work work work =( someone pls HELP mi !

took a few pic jus now. tis r e 2 tat i LOVE most =) so nice of hubby to fetch mi home again. LOVE him !

`30.o5.o6

b0o ! jus gonna make a quick quick blog before i go n touch up on my adidas products. mus study for it le. hmmm... woke up at 8am tis morning. damn early ! totally dun haf e feelin of gettin off my bed. get ready everything then leave my hs at 9am. reached lucky plaza ard 10am to meet dear for breakfast. ate at food court. then saw wei wen. lolz ! dear acc mi till ard 10.50am then i took train down to work place. jus nice reached work place at 11am. =D well... nt much ppl today. but i'm tired ! ha. feelin headache n giddy during work. took panadol from ariz. thanx him. after work dear outside my work place le. so nice of him sending mi home again. everyday after work i get to see him =D *tot he is tired after work, but he still come all e way down jus to fetch mi home.* so sweet of him. LOVE him ! reached hm, mum told mi dun ask hubby everyday send mi home. if nt he gt nt enough of slp n rest. but hubby say dun wan. once i gt work he will send mi home. how i wish mi n hubby can stay all day n nite together. =( bathe n ate my supper n here i'm blogging n msgin dear. gonna end it here n off my com le. time to study for adidas stuff ! nites everyone !

*i LOVE u to e bites*

*u gonna be my everything*

*no one esle is rather imp then u do*

*10 months 16 days of us*

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

`29.o5.o6

b0o ! wah, joey had nt been bloggin for 2 days le. coz being home late. nth much oso =)) well.. when to work today at novena. afternoon shift. nth much happen. today is DADDY birthday ! =D after work, dear waitied for mi outside my work place then dad n mum oso. going to dunno where to eat dinner. dear tag along too. so HAPPY ! dad didn't reject him as my bf. instead he like him. hehex. after eatin ard 10.20pm. dad send dear to e nearest MRT station. after tat we go home le. no gd nite kiss today from him =( coz parents wif us. sob* mum bought 6280 today. kinda nice phone. helpin her to edit alot of stuff in her phone. then nid to teach her also. coz is new. she dunno hw to use. ha. now waitin for dear to call. i MISSED him ! think gonna end it here le. gonna teach mum to use her hp le. nites everyone !

*i hope u are realli e one tat last forever wif mi*

LOVE

Saturday, May 27, 2006

`27.o5.o6

AhHhh ! my mood is FREAKING bad, HATE my dad side aunt to e CORE ! well... dun wish to bring up wat happen. had a GREAT n TIRING day out there wif my god parents n e kids n anson kor kor n yvonne jie jie hs. at dunno wat condo in e east side. played water polo n chasing my bao bei crystal ard e pool ! ha. play till ard 5+pm? after tat we bathe n went to kallang mac for dinner. till 7+ then god parents send us hm le. tired tired* tml gonna do a stand by for mummy khing for work. but i told her i onli can work till 7.30 lastest. coz i wan meet dear at 8pm ! =) she say let mi know again if i nid to work tml at suntec. think tonight will turn into bed b4 12am. order by my beloved lao gong ! =D

*i LOVE e way u pamper mi to bed*

*i LOVE those hugs n kisses from u*

*i LOVE e way u stay by my side all day n nite*

*i LOVE e way u TREATED mi*

*i simply jus LOVE e way u are*

Video:baby keano !
by bbabyjoo

wee~ gt a great nite at dear hs last nite. e video is baby keano ! took it at dear hs last nite. he jus learn to walk. ha ! see e way he walk? so CUTE ! =D

Friday, May 26, 2006

`26.o5.o6

b0o ! haha. now at dear dear hs using com le. =D well... nth much today. dunno wat's dear doin nw. haha. KEANO so cute nehx =)

`25.o5.o6

ha! tat's those pic we took when we r on e way home. simply love it. perfect US ! =))

well... nth much today. working FULL shift again. as normal. but GOOD news is tat i'm OFF tml ! at last i can slp longer. hehex. gonna slp le. nites everyone ! i'm real tired.

*e LOVE ya gave mi is more then anything*

*i simply LOVED u too much !*

*oh ya! i serious nid to get a bag! =(*

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

jealous of us? haha ! =Pp

`23.o5.o6

b0o ! jus ate my supper. think i'm GROWING fat ! hahaz. but nvm la. hehex. well... nth much today. when to work as usual. dear come n fetch mi after work. i LOVE him loads !! hehex. end here le. simply had loads of fun wif him ! -kisses

Monday, May 22, 2006

beach.gal943-001 `22.o5.o6

sigh ! i can't go in MSN. dunno wat's wrong wif it. think after i blog gonna off my com n wait for dear call le. well... how's my day? tiring i shall say. coz back to work =( novena so BORED ! no ppl le. time past damn SLOW ! nth much happen at work. after work dear come fetch mi home. so NICE of him =D i wan to see him everyday ! i'm sure i can =) he so tired le still must come find mi everyday after work. poor him hor? =( but he promise mi he will slp early once he is home. i realli do hope so he will =) both of us r lookin forward to our next month. 14 june =) hehex. ok ! gonna end it here le. blog again tml. nites everyone !

* i LOVE every single thing from uU*

*i dun mind spending my whole life wif u*

*NO REGRET !*

*10 months 8 days de us*

Sunday, May 21, 2006

`21.o5.o6
aWw~ jus had a bath. feelin so fresh now =)) well... woke up at 10am today. dunno y i woke up so early too. then dear msged mi ard 1o.4o from malaysia. say he coming out onli ard evening time. slack on my bed till 11+ then get up to cook my lunch then online. till ard 2+ went for a bathe then meeted priscilla at cck mrt at 3.30pm. went down to causeway point wif her. ate at food court then we went to shop ard. hmmm... she bring up loads of her stuff to mi. *well... all i could say is "if u still like him, u can try to wait for him." =D is jus e matter of time he haf for u.* as we walked, we stopped at a children paint shop. decided to do some paintin while passing our time. ha. i picked a minnie mouse to paint.

ha. tis is e one i painted. after we painted, dear called mi. say he reaching SG soon le. then wanna meet mi at jurong east. so i took a train down. meeted dear there. so HAPPY so see him, after so many days of hoilday he had. we went to JE to eat then walked ard awhile, then we took bus back hm to my place le. slacked at my hs e playground till 10.30pm. asked dear to leave. coz is gettin late. somemore he nid to work tml. sure v tired de. well... i'm waitin for his call now. =))

*suddenly, i feel so great n blessed wif my life wif u by my side.*

*e kisses ; e hugs ; e everything was jus too GREAT*

Kimi o ai shiteru !

tis jacket will jus kept mi warm n safe when u are not here wif mi. LOVE !

`20.o5.o6

hehe. now eating my supper on e way blog. save time. coz promised someone to slp early. so i mus. =)) well.. today working at suntec to replace ze ming. coz he gt cousin weddin dinner to attend. so i help him work lo. see so nice of jey. ha. btw, i LOVE working at suntec ! got much much more fun there. think there gt more customers, time past damn fast too! mummy khing came down to find mi today, wif her lovely daughter. haha. cute daughter. well... knock off work at 9.45 today. leave shop onli at 10? coz too many staff wanted to change. so must wait for fitting room. after left shop, called dear. when i called him, he is already on e bed le. feeling so great le, but his poor gal jus knock off n waitin for bus to get hm. he is sick ! grrr... ask mi to take care but he never. sigh. his voice changed. hopefully tml when he is back he will feel better le. tml i'm OFF ! gonna stay at hm to wait for him to reach SG then go meet him. hoepfully he can reach SG asap. i MISSED him. k la. gonna go bathe n slp le. nites everyone !

Saturday, May 20, 2006

`20.o5.o6

w0o~ woke up at 10+ jus nw. jus ate my lunch. gonna get ready for work after i blog tis. know y joey blog b4 she go work n nt after work? ha. coz suddenly so many things jus came by her mind for her 2006 WISHLIST ! ha.

`'CHECK' bag
`new handphone
`more clothes!
`more levi jeans
`adidas clothes
`bape tee! *onli in men's sizes =(*
`LV wallet
`reborn my hair once again
`adidas shoes
last but nt least ;
`STAY FOREVER WIF HIM !

w0o~ it seem to be alot. mus WORK double hard for it le. =D blog again tonight. gonna get ready for work le.

`19.o5.o6

b0o ! jus gonna make a quick blog. jus finish bathing. now eating my supper n waitin for dear to call. so nice of him. go on hoilday still will msg n call mi =) hugs*

he is now enjoying himself in an dunno wat island. haha. wif all e fresh air. then his poor darling jus get home from work. so tired ! worked at suntec today. fun fun working there. e ppl there r more friendly ! love working there then novena. but sad thing is my next whole day at novena ! mostly 11-9.30pm. gonna kill mi. ha. tml replace ze ming at suntec. 3.30-9.30pm. ha. think tml gonna be my last day at suntec for tis month. gonna end it here le. take care everyone !

*i'm having sort throat n flu =(*

*i NEED uU !*

*missing uU damn badly*

*2 more days !*

10months 5 days of us

still counting =)

whenever i think of uU, i will tears. maybe tat's TRUS love from mi to uU.

Thursday, May 18, 2006

`18.o5.o6
sigh. I'M SICK ! kip having dry cough. my throat r damn PAIN ! kip on drinkin water like useless. nose block. sob sob. tml working at suntec 1-9.30pm. sigh. tim asked mi to do stand by on tis weekends. god bless i dun nid to work !

i'm sry mr. r0meo for wat happen today. coz my overslpt n make u unhappy. e med i ate was real strong. sigh. gonna be 4 days i can't get to see u. include today. time pass by second. jus rmb every single second juliet will be right here waitin for u.

no more worries. my throat hurts loads ! my dry cough is bad. god bless i recover quick !

i need u !

i miss u !

i love u !

`17.o5.o6

b0o~ woke up in e morning today at 7.30am ! acc my darling michelle go for her dental appointment at national dental center. after tat we took a bus to lucky plaza to had mac for our breakfast. at first kinda happy, coz i finally get to eat my HAPPY MEAL breakfast ! went we started eatin, then we relised e breakfast at lucky plaza sux ! e egg, bread, HOTCAKES r hard ! had a worse mac breakfast ever. i told myself i wont go there for my HAPPY MEAL breakfast anymore le. ha. mr.r0meo came to find us at mac. then bought his breakfast then go back to back le. he is LATE for work today ! ha. lazy lazy pig =p after tat mi n michelle go walk ard. then saw stanley at istan working. ha. we walked ard till 5+ then go home. tired tired. after go home bathe n evreything, i went to town again ! ha. wait for mr. r0meo to knock off at 9pm. till ard 11pm? then we home sweet home le. tat's my day =)

*i'm WORRIED. all day. maybe i'm thinkin too much? sigh.* *you will be away from mi for 3 days. i will WAIT !*

tis is our WORSE mac breakfast ever at lucky plaza !

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

`16.o5.o6

b0o ! now is 10am. woo~ j0ey jus woke up. gosh ! i still feel like slping. lolz ! think for e past few days not gonna blog much. coz i guess nth much to blog too. working all day. till friday. maybe will onli blog after friday. hmmm... gonna end it here n get prepare for work le. take care everyone !

*no long any empty promises!*

*i hope i realli make e rite choice to LOVE uU*

Sunday, May 14, 2006

`13.o5.o6

my health n protection charm !

Thursday, May 11, 2006

`11.o5.o6
oh DEAR,
i'm having a fever !
slpt e whole day le.
now my head is damn damn PAIN !
sigh sigh*
time to turn back to my lovely bed to rest again. *.*

*sick sick de j0ey =( jus t0ok it at 10.37pm*
*oh NO ! gt panda eyes le =(*

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

`10.o5.o6

weE~ got a great n gd memorise birthday tis year. i'm finally 18 le ! =) a very unforgettable one. i was being suprise by my dear n GF. those present from them. i LOVE it. esp. e ADIDAS limited goofy white jacket. =D piggy, necklance, bag, PMK tee shirt. well... went to novena wif dear to buy adidas shoes for baby kaeno. so nice. hehex. after tat we went to city hall adidas. wanted to change my adidas jacket e size de. coz kinda big. but they dun haf. they asked mi go to raffle city to change. xueli n jessie say nt coming to meet us. but saw them outside e adidas shop. no wonder kip on msgin mi ask mi where am i b4 tat. anyway thanx for e suprise. hahaz. after tat we went to raffle city to change my jacket. but know wat? they say tat e jacket A-15 tat i wanted is damn limited. it onli came out 2 pieces. n they dun sell it. n guess wat's e price? $2199. woo~ realli is limited de. hahaz. well... so nv change. *sorry to those tat acc mi run here n there =x* well... meeted everyone. michelle, ade, pris, jessie, xueli, darren n his GF, jun jie n one of his frenz. after tat we moved on to our steamboat le. haha. everyone was so hungry tat moment. had a real great steamboat wif everyone. jun jie help mi joke to everyone. n there's come all e lame n jokes. hahaz. after eatin, we move on to pool section. SHIT ! birthday gal lost too them ! coz jun jie n e frenz bully bd gal. sad sad. lolz ! but i won to jessie. hehex. played till 11+. got to go home le. coz GF next day all gt school. anyway i enjoy it alot ! thanx everyone ! =D kip on on call cabs but gt no cabs. =( so we took train home. alight at woodlands wif michelle, jessie n jun jie. took a cab hm from there. jun jie is like one lazy ass, 5 min walk from CWP to his hs he oso wan to aboard our cab. after tat i fecth jessie n michelle hm then i go hm. had a real tired day manx. well... tat's my day on 9 may ! a v sweet 18th. =D

*pleasegivemialleTRUSTuhadformi* *pleasegivemiallthesupportuhad**ineedthemall !* *idon'twantanyQUARREL !* *iwantPEACE* *i'maVERYwildgal =D*
*Sa'rang Haeyo !*

*all my birthday present =)*

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

wee~ now is 8+ le. jus woke up. going out soon to meet my GF michelle. hehex.

will tonight be a perfect n happy 18th birthday for mi?

i hope so.

update again tonight =))

Monday, May 08, 2006

-----------------MAY BABY -----------------

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards oppisite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.

*think is kinda true abt mi. ha*

Sunday, May 07, 2006

b0o~ got a fully recover on my flu le. so happy ! =D

well... got a real great n tired day. too tired to type on le. hahaz. joey is weak ! lolz. will update again soon when i feel like =) nites everyone !

*always a great day to rmb !*

*2 more days to my sweet eighteen =)*

*sa'rang haeyo !*

*times will tells everything*

Saturday, May 06, 2006

wee~ my flu is half recover le i think. hahaz. hopefully tml can be fully recover =)

well... how's my day? damn tired i guess. lookin n bringing kids ard is a tiring job. but i jus do love them by see them smile =) it realli cheer up my day. went ard wif my aunt, uncle n e 3 kids to look for lighting for their new hs. crystal was gettin more n more naughty le. haha. my bao bei. lolz. she look so alike like mi till other ppl say she's my kid ! simple love her so much. hehex. uncle fetch mi hm at ard 8+pm. reached hm online, bathe n here i'm online to blog. i'm real tired. gonna get to bed le. nites everyone !

*hopetmlwillbeaBETTERdayformi*

*timeswilltellseverything*

*canGODplsleadmylifeaBETTERone?*

*MISSINGulikeiALWAYSdo !*

ahhh ch0oo~

oh dear! my flu is real real bad!think i had a cold. sigh

where r uU? pls stay by my side to gib mi all ur warm !

pls let mi recover quick!

noMOREchocolateforJOEY =(

MISSINGuU !

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

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oh dear! i'm too tired to blog. well... had a fun n nice day. no energy to type le. haha ! gonna slp soon. tml working bloody FULL shift ! blog again tml. nites everyone =)

*bring mi to the ZOO pls !*

*i need a adidas white jacket ! who can get mi?*

*wee~ 6 more days to my sweet eighteen =)*

*iMISSEDuU*

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wee~ blogging time. was thinking jus now should i blog? hahaz. coz is like i'm home all day. so guai hor? haha. well... i woke up at 12+, to eat then online. till ard 4+ i went back to slp. woke up at 6 to had a bathe. feelin hungry at tat time. wanted to go downstair to buy some food de. b4 tat, called mum. she say she at downstair coming up to cook le. then ok lo. wait for her to cook. from 7-11pm, i was watchin tv all e way. haha. so many nice show to watch le. khing msged mi today. she ask mi to go back office tml to take my name sticker tag. ard 12 noon. sianz manx. all e way to chinatown. =( no choice. on e 4th n 5th may i am working. full shift n afternoon shift. hmmm... gonna end it here le. dunno wat should i blog le.

*j0ey is looking forwards to next tuesday for her sweet 18th =)*

*j0ey miss eating her hotcakes HAPPYMEALS n mochi ICE-CREAM !*

*j0eyisMISSINGuU =(*

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

On those rainy nights, when I feel cold and lonely...I only wish you were right next to me, warming up my bed and loving me.

During those nights as I think of you, I can almost feel your kisses going down my neck, the soft touch of your hands holding me just tight and your eyes looking into my heart and soul.I can almost feel and hear the whispers on the room, the sweet smell of red roses on the bed and candles in the floor. As the passion grows, our love glows.

As the heavy rain goes on throughout the night...our room becomes our own little world. The world in which nothing seems impossible as our bodies become one whole soul, one and only.Our hearts are full of passion and desires~desires that we share with one another.

Passion that satisfies our body and mind.On those rainy nights, we not only hear water falling in drops from the clouds...we can hear every drop of love and happiness falling down the sky, right into our bed.

Monday, May 01, 2006

*a sweet PIG chocolate from tat SWEET someone =)*

wee~ PIGS do fly!

Sa'Rang HaeYo ! _

i'm a Golden Retriever!

No bones about it, you're a popular, fun-loving Golden Retriever. Adored by all and too cool for school, you're extroverted and enthusiastic. Your magnetic personality makes you the life of any bash. Since you're a true people-dog, you genuinely love all kinds of social gatherings. Going to parties, dinners, and other shindigs is the best way to add faces to your constantly growing circle of friends. But besides being on the social A-list, you're a confident, well-rounded pup who's definitely something to bark about. Pretty accomplished at anything you set your mind to, your sunny nature and winning ways make you one of everyone's favorite dogs. Woof!

*got tis email from ricky, answered alot of qns from tat mail. n tis happens.*

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wee~ gt a few days nv blog le. coz damn bz at cousin place for her weddin dinner. well... gt a great time. her wedding everything was like so NICE n LOVING ! =) so envy* lolz ! will update a few of e pic during her weddin dinner below =D a PRETTY cousin i had. hahaz. well... today is my first day of work at NOVENA adidas. nt realli first day. is like a shop attachment. is like a training day for mi. well... i learn alot of stuff. products of adidas. cool~ simply LOVE e kids shoes n clothes ! ha. today i'm e onli gal in shop. wif 4 guys. 2 malays, 1 chinese n i from african.haha. nv tok much. coz i dunno them at all. maybe they will see e TRUE joey when times pass. haha. coz today de joey is like so damn quiet ! knock off at 9.35pm. zhong ren *far far away linked cousin* ha! came n meet mi at my work place, coz he say he wan come novena see slippers. but dun haf. then we took train to AMK, ate our supper. coz he stayed there ma. after eating then go home le. had a TIRED day. coz past few days coz cousin wedding dinner i NEVER slp =( reached home ; bathe, changed my bedsheet. ha. n now i'm here online le. think gonna end it here le. ha! tml nv work. next working day will be on e 5th may =)

*THANKS for e long sweet chocolate msg tat day. i'm touched ! n those time tat u acc mi n bring mi happyness. i will never forget.*

*Sa'Rang HaeYo !*

mi n PRETTY cousin at her weddin dinner =)

she's onli 26 ! ha.

mi n mum =D

mi n josephine cousin.

mi, myself n i at cousin wedding dinner. =)

Friday, April 28, 2006

http://www.bolt.com/bbabyjoo/audio/777502?cn=STREAM_bbabyjoo_audio_large_PAGE1

tis is e song tat adrian sang for mi. "juliet" he record n send it to mi. oh dear! *touched* anyway thanx adrain. =)

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wee~ at last i'm home n sitting rite in-front of my com le. TIRED day! while... woke up today at 11+am. after tat slack at home till ard 3 went out to meet priscilla n jun jie at CCK mrt. we took a train down to bugis to meet michelle for her lunch break at 4+. junjie was like so hungry on e way there. ha. we ate at yoshinoya. after tat michelle went back to work le. then we 3 went shopping. ha. was going ard to look for a top for my cousin weddin dinner tis sat. at last found a tube top. white colour de. after tat bought a pair of pointer shoes at bugis street. we shop till ard 7+ we took a train back to CCK. meeted jeffery. ate at KFC, but onli mi n jun jie eating. lolz. after eating, we went to k-pool. played pool. i kip on LOSS to jun jie. but nt jeffery =x lolz. play till 10+ then we walked priscilla home. coz is late le. after tat mi n jun jie went to buy dinner for my dad then he acc mi home. so nice of him. ha. well... a v TIRING day. my legs r tired ! ha. guess gonna slp early tonight. woo~ tml going to novena my new adidas work place. to get a pair of shoes n go see hw's e stuff like over there. ha. nites everyone!

*i realli dunno wat i thinking now. u can't gib mi all i wan. i understand ur feeling n stressness. ur working stress. if we gonna continue will it gonna be e same? or u will try to gib mi e love n care i nid? i do still love u. i'm reali confuse. should i LEAVE tat make u dun feel any more stress in relationship? or should i STAY to bright out ur stressness? sigh*

Thursday, April 27, 2006

`26.o4.o6

ahhhh !! my knee is aching like hell. stupid cold wheather. well... woke up at 8.30am today by shila morning call. but mi 8 wake up le. lolz. cause nid to gib stanley morning call. but guesss wat? he slp till 9 then wake up. lol. pig sia. dear called mi at 9 askin if i going over. i say nah. coz i promised shila to acc her to bishan ITE to buy her uniform. so i meet shila 10.45 at bishan MRT. ha. we didn't even know tat we took e same train from CCK. meeted her we walked to ITE then buy her uniform. after buying when back to junction 8 to ate at long john. was real hungry. ha. after eating we went to bossni, coz meng da told mi tat he is workin there today. so jus go over n say HI to him =) he was like kinda shock when i called him. haha. after tat ard 12 we took a train down to PS. shila wanted to ex-change her spoil hp at starhub. well waitin for her Q-number, she kip on sayin tat e starhub guy is so CUTE n HANDSOME ! ha. indeed is it. but she is going crazy for him. hahaz. shopped ard wif her at PS while waitin for my mum to come at 4pm. saw alot of nice nice clothes. ha. mi n shila now like so so close frenz ! can talk everything of us. =)) after my mum came at 4, she left le. yepp. had a great day wif her =) went down to wisma n taka wif my mum. then had our dinner at crystal jade. so nice. haha. suppose to shop for my clothes for my cousin weddin dinner tis sat. but jus got a skirt. gonna get a top tml. hopefully can find one. i LOVE tat skirt. ha. ard 7+ dear say he coming to town to meet mi. *kinda suprise* so i meeted him at 8pm. then my mum left to go over to bugis for his work stuff. meeted him, walked awhile then he sent mi home le. nv tok much. coz he take EVERYTHING as nothing. *sigh*

i dunno wat r we now. i'm real confuse! i dun wish sadness in mi anymore! someone pls bring mi OUT! i'm real CONFUSE! i no longer feel something called LOVE.

*mi n shila at starhub while waiting =)*

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

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wee~ blogging time. hmmm... think for e time being i dun wan to think much. it jus gonna hurts mi more. CONFUSE heart. well... everyone sure haf their ups n downs in life. n tis MINE ! hmm... today suppose to haf a adidas part timer training for mi at 10am. but i woke up LATE ! ha. then i called up e office say i gt something on, will reach onli at 12 noon. haha. prepared myself n get out from my house at 11am. ate one bread. nt realli full. well... reached office. took my uniform. 3 tee shirt n 2 pants. e tee shirt so big. haha. then e pants looked damn wired on mi. ha. but still no choice, mus wear it. hmmm... e training was like one to one. 2 hrs tok. i almost fall ASLEEP ! hahaz. but i did learn alot of things from e khing mummy! ha. tat's wat all staff called her. suddenly i felt tat i;m back in school. but adidas school. nid to study so many things on their products. hahaz. back to STUDY ! lolz. there's still another training in shop. but dunno when yet. say will call mi up again. after training i went home le. damn tired, dun feel like going anywhere. reached home online, till ard 4+ then i went to lie on my bed. suddenly HE called mi. but in silent. well... i nv tok much, jus ask he eaten le ma. then awhile he say he gonna go back to work le. then i asked him to call mi tonight. hopefully he does. *i'm waiting* after hang up call wif him i slp all e way till 8+. OMG ! i can't believe i'm a PIG. lolz. after i woke up tot there might be dinner for mi. but my whole house is so dark. no one home. ate my dinner onli at 9+. after dinner zuoping called mi. chatted awhile then now he went for a nite jog. hahaz. so heathly! lolz. well... gonna end it here le. tml gonna be another day for mi. take care guys!

*i dunno how to face u. i dun even know wat am i thinking now. my courage r all GONE ! sorry is all i could say to u. maybe i realli nid more then e time u given mi.*

my adidas staff pass ! nice? hehex.

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time for bloggin le. had nt been blogging for 2 days le? well well.. i think alot recently. abt should i still continue wif him? or ask for a short break? i'm real confuse! send him a 13 text sms last nite. real long ar? speakin out all my feeling for him. he called mi alot of times tis afternoon, but i nv ans. i'm REAL sorry. coz i realli dunno wat to say after i pick up ur call, i'm scare n afriad. n i know for sure TEARS will drop off. he say he dun wan a short break. is onli neither leave or stay, he wont stop mi from leaving if i will be easier n be more happy w/o him. he jus wanna see mi happy. he say he is someone striaght, if he dun love his gf he will break off striaght away. but for mi he never ever tot of breakin off. he is confuse now, neither am i. my heart when soft after readin all those msg from him. derek, zuoping, michelle n my other frenz out there. thanx for cheering mi out n talking mi tru. i'm touch to haf u guys listenin eye. after so much tears. i dunno y am i still tearing. seriously telling, after tis 9th month being wif him. i realli gone tru alot. he realli changed mi loads! is hard for mi to let go jus tis way. sometimes i realli dunno wat am i thinking. but seriously telling. feeling for him still there.
met michelle jus now for late lunch at plaza. was real hungry after tearing so much. ate at food court. after tat we took a bus down to jurong point. damn heavy rain. acc her wait for cab coz she nid to go tuition. then i waitied for joey jie jie n my mum to come then go eat dinner at soup resturant. nice nice. ate till so full. after tat we went to joey jie jie house. mum wan go take thing from her place. stayed at her place till dad come fetch us home. reached home kinda late, but i still nv get any calls from him as he say he will call. so i send him a msg. he reply n say he dun feel like toking. ask mi go slp early. well... maybe he nid sometimes to think too. hopefully he calls mi back tml. n tok everything well. think i'm writing a letter to him ba. i'm real tired ! oh ya. adidas ppl jus called mi today say i had been approved as a part timer. well.. tml gonna go down at 10am for e training. hope is nt hard.

*got another mail tat moses typed. i realli dunno wat esle can i say to him. as i'm real confuse now. i'm sorry for everything. i nid to be alone for e time being. time will tells everything.*

*how i wish i can be as happy as her all day*

Saturday, April 22, 2006

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my tears jus drop off. sigh sigh. whenever i think of him my tears jus drop off. seriously tellin i realli dunno wat esle can i blog? y do gals tears can't be control? i realli think real hard. should we give each another a short break? maybe i nid to be alone to clear everything off my mind. my frenz all told mi i can haf someone better. n i REALLY gonna thanx zuo ping for talking mi tru. maybe i realli should bring it out to him. i dunno y tis type of stuff always happens on mi! realli dun understand. is it true tat guys onli treasure we gals whenever we r GONE? watever i do daily he doesn't seem to know. i jus went to interview job today, in adidas. n i told him. n he say y i always interview those job tat dun haf a fix working time? i mean is like, is a part time job. n it jus gonna be like girodano. they plan working time for us. we can't choose unless we gt something on. he dun even agree for mi to work. watever i do he dun seem to support mi. WHY? indeed my frenz all cheering mi up. but not him. its gonna be real sad. my 18th birthday r coming up in may. n i told him i was thinking to plan a small BBQ at my god mum's condo. so tat i could book e function hall n KTV room there. jus to gather up my sec sch, ITE n working frenz up. i asked him to go n a MUST! but he told mi all my frenz he dun know, so he wont be turin up. it's realli sad to heard tis. tis yr gonna be my first birthday celebrate wif him. i realli dunno wat to say. watever i do he JUST dun seem to support in mi. sigh.

*got a email from moses jus now. after i read it i found it so touching. but all i could say is tat i'm sorry!*

*tearings jus rolling over all nites ; feeling r jus going nt rite*

*fullofSADNESS*

Friday, April 21, 2006

`21.o4.06

hmmm.. is 2.35am now! n i can't slp. realli can't slp. so decided to come n blog. well.. something had been in my mind for long. real long. everything in mi jus dun seem rite. i'm like someone no longer impt to him. e care n love from him r GONE! i realli dun get to feel any ; anymore. we onli had our sweet moments sometimes when we meet. n we onli meeted once or twice a week due to his working time. i dun mind tis at all. but watever i do everyday he dun seem to know. we dun sms, coz he once told mi he dun like to msg. we onli chatted on fone b4 he go to bed all nite. n mostly all calls was like less then 5 min? e most nt more then 30 min. i MISSED him so much daily. but i dun get to see him nor chat more wif him. i ever tot of giving each another a break. but i realli realli dun bear to leave him. i know he needs mi. so do i. alot of my frenz came n toked wif mi abt it. they say tat i'm stupid. but once dear told mi i should nt listen to wat others say. n i listened to him. but.... sigh* i'm like so lonely all day, being bored. tot i'm attached to him. sometime i feel tat my frenz r much more caring n know mi much much more better then he does. i'mCONFUSE ! realli dunno wat to do. i realli do love him. alot of guys did came up to mi, but still i rejected no matter wat. coz my heart is death for HIM. sometimes i ever think n worry tat he might haf someone better then mi out there. i know i'm thinkin too much. but tis is normal gals thinking. i dun feel save anymore. haii. god, pls tell mi wat to do? i realli nid a better n lovely life. sigh* i dun wish to bring up all tis. i know there sure quarrel between us. he will always be pissed off n get tired whenever i tok abt it. but.... i'm sorry dear. jus hope tat u understand hw i feel as a gf.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

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bo0! my new bloggi. nice ma? hahaz. welll.. i'm damn shit tired! woke up at 8am tis morning. bathe, get ready n prepare to go out le. meet priscilla n adeline at lot one mac for breakfast. my hotcakes HAPPY MEAL ! ha. so nice. after tat we took a train down to sentosa le. n u know wat? it's raining!! -.-''' it jus gonna spoil our mood. sigh* reached there, we slacked all e way outside new zealand ice cream shop. slack till 2+ rain still haven stop. then we went for a bathe. after tat we went down to town le. meeted michelle at cine. we went to yoshinoya for lunch. so hungry. then derek called mi. say he at cine oso. ha. then jus say hi to him then go off le. walked ard town. shopping. tryin to look for my dress for my cousin weddin dinner on 29 april. but can't find. we shop till ard 7+ then we took a cab home le. too tired to take bus. ha. reached home bathe then watch tv all e way. now tokin on e fone wif moses. ha. he some how like a bro to mi. always kipin mi acc when i'm bored. acc mi tru e nites. well... gonna end it here le.

*had a wonderful day wif all my gals. love them so much! below r e pic we took in sentosa. sister forever !*
love jus go so confuse on mi !

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

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He who tempts my desire..

tingle my tears..

trigger my temper..

even if sometimes not intensional..

my ecstasy, my sleepin pill and my atomic bomb..

life wont b a blast without tis lil dAr~

there's a day i longed..

there'll b a day i drag..

no matter wat..

i'm here,

jus For U.